Tuesday, May 19, 2020
to me ..this shit here is just classic lol…on tv someone is playing this fucking high tech game right, and I’m doing a screening so I’m barely paying attention….so i catch him saying “let’s play some old school’ ..i looked down and look up…Mario died…can’t play Mario..lol.
and here it is, this is what I’m actually trying to get to…ya know, this is teaching everyone the same thing that I’ve been trying to show you,
GOTTA GO BACK TO THE BASICS!!! FER REAL!
Are you ready for story time, cuz I guess I feel like sharing, and for good reason…BTW, that reminds me…when I share my life with ALL OF YOU…AROUND THE WORLD WHEREVER, I DONT WANT YOUR PITY, YOUR SORROW, YOUR SORRYS AND I DONT WANT YOU TO APOLIGIZE FOR ME, NO NEED FOR ANY APOLOGIES. What I do want when I tell you the stories of my life I want you to learn I want you to learn from what I have gone through I won’t use do not go through what up come from my life learn to me instead of doing it the hard way, and learning from yourselves, your mistakes…just know, they DO become your regrets in your life. I share the coz it’s wisdom and wisdom is supposed to be shared and knowledge knowledge is powerful that’s the best weapon that you can ever have this knowledge this is why I study all the time and I soak up everything did I can possibly research on just look things up on anyways.
ya know before moving here to san Antonio….living in pa, when I moved up there I got with a guy…man I had no idea…smh…he was bipolar REALLY FUCKING BAD, AND ON TOP OF THAT, WAS A HORRIBLE DRUNK. He wasn’t on any medicine for his Bipolar, so he never slept because of the bipolar. He would drink ONE ..ONLY ONE ..HUGE cup of coffee in the morning at around 4 am, the rest of the time, DAY AND NIGHT DAY AND NIGHT…he drank cheap Ice Beer. That’s stronger. I say it like that, because I knew when the Ice beer was around, it was NOT going to fun. And It NEVER was.
Well come to figure it out, NOT only was he a drunk AND Bipolar…okayyy….. brace yourselves, cuz I’m about to freak y’all out!! ……But come to figure out, HE WAS ALSO POSSESSED!!! Now, you need to pay close attention to what I’m telling you! YOU WILL NEED TO KNOW THIS INFORMATION THAT’S IN THIS STORY THAT I’M TELLING!!! REMEMBER IT WELL!!!
Ya know, the devil does NOT take kindly AT ALL, MIND YOU…to anyone WHO SPEAKS VERY SPIRITUALLY!!! ….ok so, there was me, Ashton, the guy i was with, he’s little brother, ….and then there was Grandma…on top of “mom” always coming over, with stepdad. “mom” …yea me and her, we tied into it a few times, one time in particular WHEN SHE PUNCHED IN THE “BACK” OF MY HEAD!! YES I DID SAY THE BACK….one of FEW TIMES THAT I DRANK…IT HAPPEN TO BE A BEER BOTTLE, I DONT REMEMBER, i had ONE SIP, all I know is there was glass all over the kitchen floor, and THERE WERE THREE MEN…YESSS THREE MEN TRYING TO PULL ME OFF OF HER, CUZ SHE WAS GETTING CUT LOL…AND I forgot to mention that this was a duplex…and his sister and brother in law with THREE baby girls was next door, along with ralph and his girlfriend ( i talked about Ralph the other day on twitter when i was mad…about the “dead” lay lol) …anyways..yea so that tells you there was ALOT OF drama, ALOT OF “NOISE” OK…THAT “NOISE” ….ALOT OF “OUTSIDE NOISE” ….
So I move in with this dude, right. And I’m talking all kinds of spiritual “STUFF,” and his little brother, 20/21 years old, started asking me about it all. And It’s been my “job” for so long to mentor….to teach others. So I started, once I started, that’s when “THE SHIT” STARTED!!!….One night, as I was JUST getting his drunk ass in the bed, and i FINALLY laid down…all of sudden, (and it creeps me the fuck out even going “here” to talk about all this, but y’all NEED TO KNOW!!!) …it wasn’t long after i had laid down, there was A FUCKING HUMONGOUS SLAM DOWNSTAIRS IN THE BASEMENT! I MEAN…IT FUCKING ROCKED THE WHOLE TWO-STORY HOUSE. IT WAS SO HARD THAT HIS SISTER AND BROTHER-IN-LAW SHOWS UP and EVERYBODY …GRANDMA AND ALL…WAS FREAKED OUT! They went down in the basement, the door that was the side of the house, from the basement…WAS BROKE AND THE DOOR CASING WAS FUCKED OFF…IT WAS SO BAD, THEY HAD TO GET ANOTHER DOOR AND SOME BRICKS AND SHIT TO COVER THE “HOLE” THAT WAS LEFT OK!!! until they could actually fix it.
That’s about the time when he started complaining about HEADACHES. And they were BAD ONES, MIGRAINES, WOULD PUT HIM DOWN! he made an appointment with the doctor, now mind you…HE DIDNT DO ANY DOCTORS, which is why he wasn’t on medicine! I had told my Mentor about all this, and I was talking about “these headaches,” my Mentor tells me…they not going to find nothing wrong with him. And that freaked me out with the reality. (soooo…to TRY TO SHORTEN THIS STORY BUT MAKE SURE I TELL WHAT YOU NEED TO BE AWARE OF AND KNOW.).
…..ummm you could say…the show…”The Charmed Ones” …yep just like it, one minute i was making French fries for the kids…AND Grandma..GREASE ON THE STOVE,…AND THEN NEXT MINUTE….I FOUND MYSELF FIGHTING DEMONS…NOT JUST FREAKING ONE…A LEGION!!! ……and in the kitchen where he ALWAYS sat ..at his computer…all of sudden , ID HEAR THIS GROVELED INHUMAN RASPY VOICE!!! i threw the grease on another burner, and braced for the long haul!!!! …
He’s eyes would roll back in his head. and I’d have to keep EVERYONE OUT OF THE KITCHEN, ...“GRANDMA ,DON’T COME IN HERE!” ASHTON STAY IN THE FUCKING LIVING ROOM AND DON’T FUCKING LOOK DON’T COME NEAR THE FUCKING KITCHEN!!! I MEAN IT ASHTON, DON’T!!!!” ….AND ANYONE ELSE THAT HAPPENED TO BE THERE…but…here’s the thing …like he could be in full BLAST POSSESSED MODE, when company would walk thru the door...“IT”STOPPED,!! LISTEN TO WHAT IM TELLING YOU! It got to where, i actually WELCOMED PPL OVER, cause THATS WHEN “IT” WOULD STOP FOR JUST A LIL WHILE.… “IT” WOULD LAY DORMANT UNTIL COMPANY LEFT!!!
(I want every one of you to know, this is the THE FIRST TIME I’VE EVER SPOKEN ABOUT ALL OF THIS IN DETAIL, I’ve MENTIONED IT IN PASSING QUIET A NUMBER OF TIMES, BUT I’VE NEVER SPOKEN ABOUT ALL OF THIS!! OK!!!! AND IT’S NOT FUCKING EASY FOR ME TO DO!!!!)
Here is where I’m going to ask all of you….HOW WOULD YOU REACT/RESPOND/FEEL/ WITH THIS ONE…“MOM I JUST WANNA BE NORMAL ….AND FIGHT DEMONS!”…..YEP!!! That’s what Ashton said!!! as he was sitting on my lap, about to go school that morning!!!! Yes indeed, TRY …TRY YOUR HARDEST TO SWALLOW THAT ONE…AS A PARENT!!!
Ummm Needless to say, I had been desperate and tried reaching out for help, ummm I can’t recall, but I had soon realized he was “A GATE KEEPER”!!!!! I can’t tell you which gate that it was, BUT IT WAS GATE……IT WAS “PORTAL“….
Umm look up New Castle Pa, and please PROMISE ME…WELL PROMISE YOURSELVES, YOU’LL NEVER EVER GO THERE!!! I wish I had known about that town, it’s considered to be a “dead town,” ….it’s “dead s okay….It’s a miner’s town, it boomed when the mining was doing good, but that’s it, after that, NO GROWTH!!! it’s location, is in valley…”in the pits” there’s big hills surrounding all of New Castle, but New Castle, when you drive the roads, you going downhill in the Valley..umm It’s filled with nothing but heroin and pills, that was it! ITS A CEASEPOOL! And EVERYONE THAT GOES THERE, MOVES THERE…..THEY GET STUCK THERE…everyone you talk to!! says the same thing!! Come to find out, talking to a Presbyterian Preacher, (yes THAT SAME CHURCH THAT I had went to go eat after going hungry. After Ashton left, when I fought those FOUR cops…yes that SAME church I’m talking about), he had told me that it was a Catholic Priest that had cursed the land…so when i speak of “dead land”..it’s “cursed land”……throughout all of my travels, I’ve ENDED UP “WALKING ON CURSED LAND”….Long beach MS, Gresham Indiana, New Castle Pa, …..AND San Antonio, TX!!!! The Story on Long beach, MS, it was two covens that were fighting against each other, and cursed each other! Not To mention it’s old land anyways, just like Pa, Between the Indians and the Plantation Times. (yea MS is ANOTHER story, another time)….umm while I was dealing with these demons…REMEMBER he had a LEGION IN HIM. umm i was on the phone with my Mentor, and I had asked Him, “Master, why do I end up being on cursed land” This answer is IMPORTANT TO REMEMBER. He said, “YOU CAN WALK UPON CURSED LAND AND NOT BE APART OF THE CURSED LAND!!!!”
(Please forgive me, and try to understand, I’m TRYING TO RECALL AND HIT ON THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS THAT YOU NEED TO BE AWARE OF, AND somethings just are coming back to me as I’m writing.)
One thing i really do need to tell you, or a couple of things actually…when “it” would take over, umm his strength, WAS INDESCRIBEABLE, i think is the word i want to use. VERY VERY MANIPULATIVE. ummm, when “it” would leave for the time being…he WOULDN’T REMEMBER IT. ummm…ok sooo…umm one time in particular, one of our many fights, i packed up my bags, and he conned me into staying, which i really didn’t have nowhere to go, but had been looking for shelters, and calling them,…so i unpacked, and something told me NOT TO HAVE SEX WITH HIM, NOT TO TAKE HIS SEED. and i had told him, NO…and he kept pressing, so…i knew i had to “work around things” so..ok even though I tried to NOT have his seed in me, it was purposely done, …The very of fact of THAT, ummm, think…incubus and succubus ok..umm, that night umm he actually went to sleep, go figure, and i stayed in the living room, sitting curled up, crying and praying that God would take that demon baby away from me, umm (this is really fucking hard to talk about) umm God answered, and i went through a “spiritual” miscarriage, that’s the best way i can tell you ok. …Honestly, THAT WAS THE SECOND TIME I HAVE EXPERIENCED “THAT” KIND OF MISCARRIAGE okay. So i know what I’m talking about ok…BOTH TIMES, GOD HEARING MY CRYS AND SCREAMS OUT TO HIM AND ANSWERING!!! umm oh GAWD THIS IS HARD FOR ME….
Ok, umm one time some friends of his, a couple, came to visit, had brought someone else with them, when we were talking about it all one day when he was asleep in the afternoon, they had told me that when they passed the house up, you could see that the whole house, both parts of it, the duplex, was encircled in a black bubble like and the guy i didn’t know had mentioned that it was like as they passed the house, that it just all sudden seemed like it had sank into ground. (umm I’m starting to shake really bad)
Before I forget, umm REMEMBER I KEEP SAYING “THE ELEMENT OF AIR CARRIES, WATCH WHAT YOU SAY’ THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT TO REMEMBER. AND HERE IS WHY. ..First of all, let’s go back to THIS POST “Understanding The Basics of Energy” EVERYTHING THAT WAS PLANNED WAS DONE WAS QUIETLY, NEVER EVER SPOKEN IN AIR, NOT EVEN IN WHISPER.
Here is some VERY KEY IMPORTANT DETAILS: ENERGY CAN BE MANIPULATED, YOU CAN “MAKESHIFT” AND “IMPROVISE” YOU NEED TO KNOW WHAT IS ELEMENT IS “YOUR” ELEMENT AND FROM EXPEREIENCE…KEEP IT TO YOURSELF, THE MOST EFFECTIVE TOOL THAT I HAD WAS KNOWLEDGE AND MY ELEMENT!!! MY ELEMENT AND CASTING A CIRCLE BUT A CERTAIN KIND OF CIRCLE WITHIN THE CIRCLE, WAS THE ONLY WAY I COULD CONTAIN THE DEMONS, WHEN I CASTED THAT SPECIFIC CIRCLE, HE WOULDNT MOVE OFF HIS CHAIR!!! AND HE ACTUALLY GOT VERY PISSED AT ME WHEN HE WANTED ANOTHER BEER AND “FOR SOME REASON’ COULDNT GET UP!!! OF WHICH TIMEM I USED MY ELEMENT TO STRENGTHEN THIS “INVISIBLE ENERGY BARRIER” BETWEEN HIM AND I. ummm…I’m sorry…this one paragraph…this technique was done during the exorcism to TRY TO SAVE HIS SOUL. and the ONLY WAY that i had been able to do this, was BY GOD, POURNING GODS BLOOD OVER ME IN PROTECTION, BY THE GUIDANCE OF MY MENTOR, AND BY BEING VERY SPIRITUALLY STRONG! AND I WOULD NOT ADVICE ANYONE TO DO THIS WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT YOU’RE DOING …( THE paragraph above this one was the only way things were done in preparation., NEVER SPOKEN OUTLOUD, VERY MUCH IN SECRETIVE, HAD TO FORCE MYSELF HOW TO LEARN HOW TO “ACT” AS IF NOTHING WAS WRONG, AND ASHTON HAD TO DEFINTIELY BE QUIET AND NOT SLIP UP ON THIS ONE
To know now, that there would be such irony with what I’m about to tell, wow…when I left home, i went to live in Pa, Lord what a mess that was. An alcoholic that was major bipolar, come to find out, wow, what my mother had thought to be in me, was the FIRST THING THAT I WAS FACED WITH AS LOOKED EYE TO EYE TO THE DEMON, THE LEGION INSIDE OF ANOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!! I found myself, with the help of my Mentor, I actually did and went through doing an exorcism, How ironic was that???? my mother has judged me to have a demon inside me, that I DO NOT, turned around just a few months after that happened and did an exorcism…..see….i was judged by someone’s thoughts, beliefs, and what they saw on the surface and CAST ME ASIDE, TOLD ME IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH, LEFT ME ALONE, THREW ME AWAY…BUT SHE JUDGED WAS WRONG
I’m adding this in, to show you the timeline of EXACTLY WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT SO YOU CAN FINALLY GET IT ALL PIECED TOGETHER
THE whole time that i did the exorcism, i was full communication with my Mentor…and had His guidance, throughout the whole thing, as well as Gods, (my gut) ……( I’m getting the feeling that i need to point this out to you really quickly…the location of your soul, is your gut. In middle right below your rib cage, i KNOW…ANOTHER STORY..BUT IVE EXPEREINCED MY HEART AND SOUL BEING TAKEN OUT OF ME, WHILE I WAS IN NATCHEZ MS, ABOUT TO MOVE TO LONGBEACH WHERE THIS PERSON WAS LOCATED, (ANOTHER STORY ANOTHER TIME, BUT I HAD TO POINT THAT OUT,..along with it happened my gut felt like it had beat by a baseball bat. And when my heart was “given back to me” that’s when i found out about “binding spells’ that person put a binding spell on my heart, what made it “noticeable was my chest in my heart area felt extremely heavy)
ummm look this is turning out to be umm information that you fucking need from ALL OF MY EXPEREIENCES!!
but you NEED TO KNOW ABOUT THE EXCERISM BEING BOTCHED AND WHAT I WENT THRU, BUT RIGHT NOW, MY FOREHEAD IM GONNA WHAT IM GOING THRU…..RIGHT FUCKING NOW…IM GONNA SHOW YOU JUST HOW SENSITIVE OF AN EMPATH I REALLY AM, LOOK IM SORRY I KNEW LAST YEAR THAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO THIS, WHEN I GAVE THE MESSAGE ON TWITTER TO CLEAN WHICH IM GONNA BE POSTING …IM GOING TO BE SPENDING MY EASTER MAKING SURE THAT I DO AS IM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING ….AND THAT IS ME GETTING ALL WHAT OF WHAT I HAVE TO TELL YOU…MAKING SURE IT’S REACHED “FAR AND WIDE” SO THAT EVERYONE CAN ..IS SO MUCH I HAVE TO TELL YOU…AND THEN YOU’LL FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT IVE HAVE BEEN GOING THRU THIESE LAST COUPLE OF YEARS AND WHY
THIS IS GETTING CONTINUED, I HAVE SOOO MUCH TO GET OUT TO EVERYONE IN SO LITTLE TIME,
“TIME IS OF ESSENCE” NOW…THE MESSAGE i HAVE RECIEVED LAST JAN ABOUT “THE GATHERING”
look I’m sorry that it’s NOT being placed correctly so I’m so sorry if it’s hard to follow to you, I’ve been TRYING FOR A YEAR NOW TO PUT THIS IN ORDER CORRECTLY SO YOU CAN UNDERSTAND AND SEE THE SIGNS AND BE ABLE TO KNOW WHAT TO DO, THIS IS PART OF THE REASONINGS OF “MY BOOK” …THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE AN EXTENSION OF THE BIBLE, THE GUIDE TO GO BY SO YOU KNOW, THIS IS IT OKAY..IM SORRY THATS NOT LIKE I WANTED IT TO BE, BUT THIS IS A MUST THAT I GET THIS INFORMATION OUT THERE AND NOWWWW! SO IM WHEN I REMEMBER DETAILS IM GONNA HAVE TO PUT IT DOWN BEFORE I FORGET, THESE ARE IMPORTANT DETAILS TO KNOW, AND IM NOT WORRIED ABOUT MY MISTAKES IN SPELLING LIKE “THAT” YOU CAN “GET IT”
EASTER SUNDAY 4-12-2020
may everyone be very blessed on this Easter Sunday?
much love to all