ok so what have I been up to huh? considering I haven’t made an appearance anywhere here lately. Believe me, it hasn’t just been Twitter….theres no special social media platform here that I making some kind of sneaky appearances somewhere and not telling yall. lol Acutally..I’ve been working been working on a good bit of stuff.
For the last 3 weeks I have been TRYING to get through all this content that I have. I have to say, it hasn’t been the easiest thing in the world to do when you have either shit internet (like at motel 6 where i was) or no freaking internet at all (like where im at now) just this past weekend, it took alllll weekend long just to do 58 videos, and that was JUST to mark them, thats not editing all of them yet. All that, to find out most of the files are corrupted because of the intrupted services. I have been having to go off my mobile hot spot, i’ve up my plan to unlimited data, up to 30 gb. I past that a long time ago lol…Tomorrow I should be geting my jetpack mobile wifi in. I have unlimited but that is also up to whatever it is. I cant remember at the moment.
I do feel like that i am making some kind of head way though! Which that excites me, cuz it’s been such a rats nest to get through. i have like more like tens of everything instead of doubles lmao…that’s been the whole issue, I havnet been able to get through everything and delete most of this shit from all the times all the computers had went down, thats been over a year now.
So soon, I will be having those ready. Soon like in this data, yea the data needs to work with me here lol. I’m kinda proud of myself though, i’m learning the editing part of videos. Being able to edit everything the sound, clairty everything. So this is really the first time that I have began to play around editing videos. so yea im pretty excited about learning how to do all of this.
This has been my main focus and just about my only focus here lately. know that just editing alone is very time consuming, and im realizing that editing is what mostly we pay for, or at least i would think anyways. cuz it IS that much work and that much time consuming.
Paper Work & Misc
Being that ive had problems with not having fast internet and it’s been such a slow process with doing all the content. When I have been pretty much at a stand still with downloading and dealing with the content, I have FINALLY been able to get through ALOT of paper work and things that I have been needing to do for FOREVER now. I need to get through and clean up my emails and start organizing all this shit.
Taking Time For Self Care
With this year taken its toll on me like it has, along with being forced into making this move like ive had to. For me, adjusting to all these new changes in my life has been pretty difficult. I’m finding myself being very exhausted since ive moved in here. The amount of changes that i’m dealing with are VAST. For one i’ve NEVER been in the airport area before, and i dont have walgreens right next door to me anymore, like im used to. So now im having to spend money getting a lyft just to go put money on my green dot card for the bills to be paid, or just to get medicine and shit. It’s not easy when your an introvert that has complex PTSD. As i’m trying to figure my way through the changes in my life right now, the last thing i need to be around all the influences from the public on social media, whether good or bad. And I sure in the hell don’t need any negative influences fucking with me right now, as i’m definitely havent been in the mood for that shit! Me taking some time for self care is much needed, and much deserved, as well as earned! i’m gonna state this, THE BILLS STILL HAVE TO GET PAID!!! i would like to admit, things have been nice and less stressful since ive staying away from social media’s bullshit. Havent been having drama dropped off in my lap for me to clean up. thats been very nice i have to admit.
“The Money Pit”
I do believe that’s what i’m dubbing this job right now. cuz it seems like every damn time im turning around i have to shell more damn money for something to do with this job. Im actually feeling like im sounding like my dad about right now! lol and thats bad lol but its the truth! my freaking phone bill is OVER 200 A MONTH now so i can have internet to do everything. smh *sighs* it never ceases to end huh….oh well just letting yall know wherre im at….
i have been needing to update the privacy policies and all for a minute now. Apparently with moving servers and stuff, there’s been changes with the cookies and different things. So ill be taking the time that i need to do all this. and by law i have to let everyone know that i have updated these policies. So im giving the heads up and when im done of course , i will be announcing that.
So after 2 weeks, the DNS is finally pointing toward microsoft now and now i can get started on setting up the 100 plus services that i have now that i have gone to microsoft instead of google. So i will be finishing the booking page, there is so many different things that i can do with all that i have, its not even funny. So i will slowly but surely adding different things and implementing differnt things and changes as i work though all this that i have throught microsoft, this includes invoices, skype business (hint hint lol) all the GDPR and all the terms and policies, all this can be done throught the plan that i have with them.
About My Tumblr (And Other Means Of Contact)
First about my tumblr, THAT IS MINE ok ….straight up, the purpose of my tumblr is to have a place to put up all of what i have written , no matter what it is, they deserve to have a place thats specifically for them to call home, this is NOT FOR THE PUBLIC, this is for my writitngs only. if you want to follow me fine, great, that’s awesome, i do invite you to do so…but heres the deal, and its not negogable either, you can follow me al lyou want to, but the public needs to understand, the public likes over crowding and taking over everything that i have tried to do and have . the public does not have any say or influence on this tumblr at all, this is strictly a place to put up EVERTYHING that i have written in all of these notes that i have in one spot. This also means THIS IS NOT THE PLACE TO BE CONTACTING ME EITHER. SORRY NOT SORRY…
Heres how i feel about this THERES IS MILLIONS AND MILLONS OF YOU OKAY….AND ONLY ONE OF ME….IM TIRED of running all over gods green earth wit hall these apps and ims and social medias spread out everywhere, not to mention these sites with the forums and shit, man i swear many times i could swear my head is spinning so much i feel like the movies the excorsit (fuck spelling im tired right now lol) going to find all of you on all of hese places is ridiculous, you know you can find me in one fucking spot, my email ….im working like talking about anymore, not like that no….im not spreading myself out like that anymore, so get over it plain and simple, and besides social media and im’s have definitley worn your welcomes out and abused that avenue of contact .so there it is…..
The Public Needs “To Let Go & Accept”
The public needs to understand that you have no control over my life and what I DO WITH MY BUSINESS AND MY LIFE AND LET GO OF THIS IMAGINARY CONTROL YOU THINK YOU HAVE OVER MY LIFE AND WHAT I CHOOSE TO DO IN MY LIFE PRIVATE AND PROFESSINAL WE WILL THEN ALL START TO GET ALONG A WHOLE LOT BETTER, ITS SIMPLE LIVE YOUR FUCKING LIVES THE WAY YOU FUCKING WANT TO, ITS NOT MY PLACE TO SAY A FUCKING WORD ABOUT IT, BUT ALSO, KNOW ITS NOT PLACE OR BUSINESS TO BE ALL UP IN MINE.
when you understasnd that im LETTING GO….and you ACCEPT THE FACT THAT IM NO LONGER DOING “YOU” ANYMORE, THAT I AM ACTUALLY DOING “ME” NOW….THAT NONE OF WHAT IM DOING IS ABOUT ANYONE BUT ME…AND NOT TAKE IT ALL PERRSONAL, CUZ I DONT KNOW YALL LIKE THAT…we will get along a whole lot fucking better.
“i can not control another, but i CAN CONTROL ME!” i’m not in the middle trying to change outcomes, nor am i enabling anyone” im changing ME! ok ive had more than my share of bullshit wit hthe upblic this year, “my” new year wont be like it has been this year ok….just a heads up, which brings me to the last issue and then IM ATUALLY GONNA GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT FOR A CHANGE
Samhain (Halloween) And Nov 1st
Last Samhain I “allowed” others to steal away my time to celebrate my new year. i allowed for others to steal away my preparation time for my upcoming holiday. THIS IS MY FAULT I ADMIT IT (letting go, right) ok well, that did set the course for the rest of the year. and here we are today, or here i am, rather….i will NOT be allowing this to happen again. as ive stated this next year IS AND WILL BE GOING A WHOLE LOT DIFFERNTLY, I REFUSE THIS SHIT TO HAPPEN NEXT YEAR. so im setting the course of my changes. so i will be beggining to prepare t oclelebrate ….and prepare my ritual to celebrate my ancestors and being that my dad died and more imporantly and approiately …his birthday is on NOV 1ST, these two day i will be taking off nad i will celebrating his death and life on these two days. wow that just hit me to damn….ive been missing him pretty bad lately so….the next couple of weeks i will not be as productive with putting things out work wise thatsnot to mean that im totally disappearing it just means it just wont be as fast as you would like it to be thats all
so thats the news on whats going on behind the screnes ive been dealing with sinuses and allergies havent been feeling too hot with my damn head all stopped up adn im exhauseted and sleepy as fuck so im going to sleep nighe all
much love and licks
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