Those that read my story’s about my life. you may think that this is a pity party and a wosey me. But yet again one more time that would be wrong a wrong conclusion to come to. For anybody to see any negative in this, you’re seeing it so totally wrong. Take a few more steps back out, away from inside that story that is my life. Even I have to do the same. Just in 1 years’ time today April 29th ONE YEAR AGO…. Looking back over my writings and looking back at all the pictures, knowing what I know.. I have come a really long ways. I’ve come further than anyone of you will ever truly get or understand. As none of you grasp what I’ve actually gone through. And I really do not want you too. Because the truth of the matter is, not one of you could handle the many battles that I have actually fought through. Hell…to be honest with all of you I barely could.
For those that think that this is a pity party and a little wosey me…think these blogs that are so negative, so down so blue…I see these writings as empowering, uplifting, positive and strong. I can now speak about these things that I couldn’t speak then. I’m finding my voice from within yet again. It’s truly healing for me. This time I speak of them in a different light. I speak about the things I’ve gone through as I reflect over them. In much different way than before. What you’ve seen in the last 2 years I spoke trying to figure things out. You’ve seen and read me fight and struggle you’ve seen me fall you see me pick myself up dust myself off and go at it …AGAIN.
This time, I KNOW…
I speak with surety, with confidence and my head held high. I speak proud….AND loud! I speak about my stories cuz I’m not ashamed of them. I speak about my stories…. To give you a clue…to give me a clue…. I don’t speak in my stories for sorrow or pity I’m not that kind of person I won’t take sorrow nor pity. Why would I be sorry about my life? It wasn’t me who did these things to me. So I have no reason to be sorry for my life. I don’t like that word sorry, and the reason why is because it’s used as a crutch. Just to continue on doing what you been doing all along.
See here it is my kindness is always taken as a weakness. And not one of you say you don’t do it. Because literally every one of you have the people in my personal life that people in my professional life my friends my family all of you continue to do this and put blame on me. Holding me accountable for using me as a scapegoat to abuse me. I don’t want your sorrow I don’t want your words.
Kindness…. Seeing kindness as a weakness. You would be very wrong my friend. Because I can tell you here and now, it takes every bit of strength in me to continue to be kind to those who continue to hurt me. Kindness has a weakness You’re definitely looking through the wrong eyes. It’s very much a strength to hold proud and true. It’s so so easy to hate to believe me I could hate every last one of you. I can hold the same grudges that you all do. It’s easy to turn your back and walk away. And forget about it. And yes I agree that is so easy to do. I can tell you now it takes EVERY BIT OF THE STRENGTH IN ME TO LOVE THY NEIGHBOR AS THEY CONTINUE TO HURT ME. So you see, I should look at things half empty, and you see in my stories where there’s no hope it’s all desolate and lost.
I told all of you from GetGo that I was taking you on a journey, that journey had many turns twists ups and downs and arounds. But here’s one thing you didn’t catch on to…and I find it funny as I chuckle with this laugh. IT’S …YOU…AND YOU…AND ALL OF YOU BACK THERE IN THAT BACK ROW, YEA AS YOU TRYING TO HIDE AS I LOOK AT YOU…. IT’S YOU ALL OF YOU THAT WRITE MY STORY. IT’S ALL OF YOU THAT MAKES MY STORY BREATH AND COME TRUE.
So I don’t understand if you want a story of Hope and of laughter and lightheartedness…. Please by all means I invite you to write the next part.
HERE IS SOMETHING FOR ALL OF YOU TO THINK ABOUT
THROUGH MY WRITINGS YOU SEE I DON’T QUIT, YOU SEE I DON’T BACK DOWN FROM A CHALLENGE, NO MATTER WHAT THAT CHALLENGE IS, IT IS THROUGH MY WRITINGS YOU SEE I’M NOT A COWARD, EVEN AS YOU PUSH MY BACK UP AGAINST THAT WALL, GRIPPED TIGHT AND NOWHERE TO GO, THAT I WILL COME OUT THAT CORNER QUICKLY FIGHTING TOOTH AND NAIL TO THE VERY END, THAT I WILL FIGHT TILL PAST DOOMS DAY ENDS! TILL THAT FIGHT IS DONE AND OVER WITH.
IT IS THROUGH MY WRITINGS…YOU SEE THE LOYALTY AND THE DEDICATION…MOST IMPORTANTLY…THE WARRIOR WITHIN. SEE I’M THE KIND OF BITCH THAT YOU WANT TO TAKE WITH YOU RIDING SIDE BY SIDE IN A WAR YOU KNOW I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU. YES I’M “THAT” BITCH YOU WANT TO PICK WHEN YOU GO TO WAR AGAINST SOMEONE OR SOMETHING. BECAUSE THROUGH MY WRITINGS YOU SEE I WON’T STOP UNTIL I GET TO THE OTHER SIDE. I WON’T STOP AND I WON’T LET UP MY GROUND FOR WHAT I BELIEVE IN. I WON’T WAIT FOR IT AND I WON’T FUCKING FALL, NOT COMPLETELY THAT IS!
I want to make sure that each and every one of you understand. Every one of you tell me I’m the strongest person you’ve ever seen…it’s each and every one of you that have hurt me and left me forcing me to be this strong. In a way it saddens me, because I know I can’t find anybody as strong as me. For the person I look for in my life is just as rare as I am to find. I really hope that person is really out there to find. But the way it keeps going as it is…lol the way keep people keep hurting me like they do…that just keeps getting harder and harder to find…someone that has enough strength to deal with me. Lmfao it’s all of your fault you see I’m not the blame it’s not me who forces me to have the strength that you see in me. LoL
Honey I have literally stood here alone standing my ground one man on army you see…when I wrote that writing it’s time to suit up and roll out…. I did just that very literally…it was time to go to war and battle with every fucking last one of you. SMH I have done nothing but fight all your many battles going on all at one time at least 18 or more always surrounding me!
I have stood here a little ole lady God blessed I’m 4 ft 10…115 120 lb. maybe all of that tit…lmfao I had stood here one person all alone by myself…FIGHTING, BITING, CLAWING, STRUGGLING, PUNCHING, GETTING TIRED AND WEARY, WANTING TO JUST GIVE UP…BUT SCREAMING OUT “FUCK ALL OF YOU!” IN THE END…READY FOR MORE OF THAT FIGHT…EVEN DARING YOU, TRIPLE DOG DARING YOU TO COME GET SOME MORE OF THIS LITTLE BITTY MIGHT, NEVER EVER FUCKING GIVE UP FOR WHAT I STOOD FOR AND BELIEVED IN.
AS A CALLING OUT COME ON PUSSY LET’S GO AND ROLL WITH IT! …TAUNTING YOU…
You see my writings as weakness, negative, desolate and all hope lost. NAW…. ONE MORE TIME YOU’RE LOOKING TO THE WRONG LENSES AGAIN…. THESE ARE MY BATTLES I’VE BEEN FIGHTING FOR YEARS STRAIGHT NEVER A MOMENT NEVER A BREAK GIVEN TO ME NEVER A MOMENT OF PEACE SOLITUDE OR TRANQUILITY. THESE ARE THE MANY BATTLES DID YOU GAVE TO ME I’VE BEEN FIGHTING ALL AROUND. GUESS WHO’S STILL THE FUCK HERE, FLIPPING MY MIDDLE FINGER OFF TO YOU LMFAO.
“Come on boy you want some more?” Teasing and laughing as I taunt you again. Hehehe lmfao.
Here’s the thing about me though…this war really needs to end…personally speaking, I’ve rather much rather be having fun and swallowing your cum instead of all this fighting that’s become. Texas is a big state we can all get along. That choice one more time is left up to you what you want to do. I choose to live quiet and to myself. The rest of it my dear friends is all, and I cannot control you…that is something you must have the strength to do!
I don’t even identify I see myself as Miss rogue anymore that is not me. That’s not who I am who I have evolved to be. In these last four years….IVE BECOME THE ROGUE WARRIOR THAT I FOUND WITHIN ME!
Hence why I changed the name to the website. I was just doing it the little slowly…I didn’t want to like throw it on so suddenly, but this has been the real deal. The stutter the trauma all the shit, when you pick on me motherfucker that’s the fucking scars from these fucking battles I’ve been fighting this whole time. I CARRY THEM WELL IN FUCKING WEAR THEM WITH PRIDE! THIS IS THE FUCKING SCORES THAT REMIND ME WHERE I’VE BEEN WHO I WAS WHERE I AM NOW AND WHO I HAVE BECAME!
THE ROGUE WARRIOR, WHICH STOOD ALL ON HER OWN AND LOOKED EVERY ONE OF YOU DID SQUARE IN THE EYES AND SAID LET’S GO COME ON!
Nah my writings are NOT weakness; THEY ARE EVERY BIT OF THE STRENGTH I HAD TO FIND WITHIN ME! THIS IS A STORY FOR ALL OF YOU BECAUSE MOTHERFUCKERS IF I CAN DO IT SOAKING FUCKING YOU GET UP OFF YOUR ASS AND WIPE THE DUST OFF AND KEEP TRUCKING AND NEVER GIVE IT THE FUCK UP! THAT’S THE ADVICE THAT I HAVE FOR EVERYONE OF YOU!
I signed this.
MsRogueSA is long buried long gone…
One last thing for all of you to think about…before I moved here I took on four huge cups and one huge man and a team of nurses hi humongous men and a team of nurses to put me down when I hit bottom hard when I lost my son.
I went from taking on five men…and I upped my Annie to more than 100 of you men….all at one… time by myself.
I really am kind of bitch you won’t standing at your side. And NOT to be looking at me ….well I was going to say I eye to eye to….but I might have to be on my tippy toes. Lmfao in other words you don’t want to come across me on the opposite side.
Hey, you know what throughout all this bullshit y’all gave to me.. I still love to laugh and cut up and pick play and tease. I’ve kept good spirits through this whole time you just one more time looking through the wrong mother fucking lenses all blurry making you blind to real site. SMH come on this side with this wild child let me show you the real deal and what I’m about. But I doubt that any one of you can handle even a quarter of me. I KNOW I’M A FUCKING HANDFUL WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR EXCUSE?!!!
Oh yeah one last very important detail before I leave…
I HAVE EARNED MY FUCKING RESPECT TIME AND TIME AND TIME AGAIN…I EXPECT RESPECT JUST THE SAME AS I GIVE TO YOU. I’VE EARNED MY WAY THROUGH THIS SHIT ALL OF YOU GAVE TO ME. I HAVE EARNED MY PLACE IN THIS COMMUNITY. I HAVE EARNED MY PLACE IN MY FUCKING HOME TO HAVE PEACE AND QUIET JUST LIKE I GIVE TO YOU.
HEAR ME AND HEAR ME WELL NOW…
I WENT DOWN ONE TIME AND ONE TIME ALONE PROTECTING EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU
IT WON’T HAPPEN AGAIN I PROMISE YOU. MY WORD IS HONOR YOU CAN TAKE THAT SHIT TO THE FUCKING BANK YOU HEAR ME!
STOP YOUR LITTLE CHILDISH BULLSHIT SHENANIGANS YOU HEAR ME. YOU CONTINUE WITH THESE FUCKING CHILDISH GAMES OR MOMMA IS GOING TO GIVE YOU AND ASS WHIPPING THAT YOU WON’T EVER SEE COMING TO YOU. BECAUSE THE WAY I SEE IT I FOR AN EYE AND TOOTH FOR A TOOTH. MOTHERFUCKERS YOU BETTER THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU GO TO TAKE MY LIFE ONE MORE TIME AGAIN. JUST THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE TO LOSE THIS TIME AROUND BECAUSE YOU WILL COME DOWN WITH ME EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU. THINK LONG AND HARD BEFORE YOU DO SOMETHING FOOLISH AND STUPID AGAIN AND THINK YOU’RE FACING A LITTLE WEAK GIRL YOU THOUGHT ME TO BE!
Just giving a heads up just saying…that I know my word is not worth anything to anyone of you but that’s okay it doesn’t have to be. because I have sat here and let every one of you hang your own selves with the rope that you stole from me so be careful what you wish for. Is all I’m saying…