Monday, September 9, 2019
When you……one time I was told, I don’t remember exactly the word, it was a long word starting with an “a” atomically or something, it was longer than that though, writing.
For years I’ve had and gone through experiences I never could explain or understand. For years I’ve had messages, so to speak, given to me and that’s pretty much why my writing is so very important. To explain, to TRY to begin to explain this….smh it’s hard REALLY HARD.
The writing “to be a person of passion and fire” what that is about is years ago when…actually it started when I was with my first Master, thinking back on it… this THIRST came over me to seek knowledge and it would not quit. Just wouldn’t stop, I couldn’t get it to!!! So, I wrote, and I wrote, and I would… write and write and I would just check out books and use my little cheapy phones to get on the internet, just so I can write, write…write all the time. I would write so much so that my hands, my fingers they were bad, they hurt. I would write while I was cooking supper for Ashton, I’d be nights and days and nights and days…doing NOTHING but writing. I’d wake Ashton up for school, and he’d go, “you were up all night again, writing huh mom’ ….”Yep, see my fingers, my hands, yes I see mom”…..
Information, studying, researching and I wish to God I still had these books not books, there were binders….And they were stolen after I got here, I had I think it was 9 1.5” and 2” binders FULL OF LOOSE-LEAF PAPER, filled with information. BACK AND FRONT! But also things that I wrote from all of my experiences thru my travels …..oh my God…. I sit and can’t do NOTHING but just…..cry….over my writings just being gone….just gone….
When I started getting thirsty to seek knowledge, I had seen this vision of a portrait of myself it was outline on a canvas. And with each thing that I did which took me all over the country. Which by the way, this is why my parents don’t understand and can’t understand why I moved all the time and why they at one point, had tried to take Ashton from me. Because of it. But…ummm, how could I tell them this, when I, myself, didn’t really…couldn’t find words, not that they would’ve believed me anyways…as closed minded as they were with me…and it was always “you’re never going to change, you’ll always be…” that kind of thing. Soo….
With each thing that I accomplished, part of this portrait of myself would be colored in, in painted colors, oil colors I think. I think it was the movie patch Adams that Robin Williams did where his wife had died, and it is the colors that was so bright and everything. THAT’S what it looked like at the end to me, BRIGHT BRIGHT BRIGHT oil canvas of myself. As I close my eyes now typing, I can still see, the aura around that portrait on that canvas, it was so bright.
It was through all this, that I had gained each chakra. it was when I left from California and went home for just a couple of months, that I gained my third eye chakra. which I have gained all of the chakras, including my crown chakra of enlightenment. I can remember seeing the indigo blue the color, so deep, I got goose bumps as I can still see it…and it was. Cuz I happened to be a nap that day, before Ashton came home from school…woke up to a SPLITTING HEADACHE, I closed my eyes, then all of sudden I see an in the middle, wide open…and indigo blue so deep around the eye, I jumped up and was like tripping…I went and studied more on all that, the headaches from my third eye being open….
Another thing, I’ll explain just how much I did write, being that was checking out books from the library, I wrote ALL of Scott Cunningham’s, the books, “Wicca for the solitary Practioner,” “living wicca,” “earth power,” and “crystal, gem and metal magic” and there was a book while I was in long beach, MS, I wish I could remember the author and the title, but it was an EXPLICTLY detailed book on chakras…..I WROTE, AND I MEAN VERY FUCKING LITERALLY….WORD FOR WORD, EVERY WORD, EVERY DIAGRAM, EVERY LAST SINGLE LETTER TO IN THOSE BOOKS, DOWN TO EVEN THE BACKS OF THE BOOKS I WROTE!!!! I RE WROTE BOOKS!!!!!!!!!!!!
THAT’S HOW MUCH I WOULD WRITE!!!
I read ALL OF Scott Cunningham’s 21 books! Wrote 4 of them!
Does that begin to give an idea or a clue of the amount of thirst to SEEK KNOWLEDGE that I had??????
It was while I was still home, not long after I had gotten my third eye chakra, I was relaxing in my jacuzzi garden tub, I was renting a trailer, in Denham springs then, it was that night, I had poured baby oil all the tub, candles, wine, was finally relaxing, when I gotten my crown chakra, my head…and I hadn’t drunk any at all, ok…my head…the top of it, my crown. It was all freaking tingly and shit. And I was like, wtf? I kept messing with my head, I stayed in that tub for if I remember correctly, 3 hrs. or there abouts, which is VERY UNCOMMON for me. Not THAT long, I was pretty weak with all that I was going through. Cuz you see, it DOES take its toll on my body….BIG TIME
So with that, I finally was able to see the full portrait of myself, it was crazy. It was AWESOME, BEAUTIFUL, SO BRIGHT SO BEAUTIFUL, I KNEW WHAT HAPPINESS WAS “FROM THE INSIDE” AT THAT POINT. CONTENT, it was PEACERFUL….SO SERENE!!!!!! Happiness, yea I know exactly what means, is and feels like. So I guess that was the end of that, my portrait of myself was done….so on to the next…
I guess, part 2…. so when I moved to Pennsylvania I was given this so-called “key” and I was told in this message not to…. to guard this key, this was my purpose, not to say anything. this is mine and mine alone it was my reward for seeking…and following through each step of the way….and I was told I had a specific purpose for being on this Earth and it is one of great sacrifice. I did not know to the extent of what that really meant for, it’s only through what I’ve been through this year, that I’m starting to catch on, maybe not…lol…what that REALLY meant for me…so, I never said a word…. I’ve only told one person that since I’ve known this, and it’s been here in san Antonio, that I told the married man I was seeing…
Through this time I’ve mentored, between the BDSM life and this, I’ve mentored others spiritually, many others alone the way, going from my portrait accomplished while I was home, I went to Knoxville Tenn., that’s where I had shed my “skin’ and I actually wrote about all this, in “sexuality and spirituality” and had met, Alan, who is still on my Facebook, today,
Lol….I tripped both of us out one day, and he’ll tell ya lol…
Him and I sat “in the office,” the bathroom one day, for THREE HOURS, unbelievably so…I had gone thru and TOLD HIM, and I don’t remember when I do these kinds of things, as you see, these messages,…they are NOT for me…so I don’t remember, them, but from what he told me when it was all said and done. That I had went and told him, his past, his present and his future!!!!! And I can get a statement from him, matter of fact I think since he is now 8 mths clean, I’m going to ask to give an account of that and what our bond was, is and always will be matter of fact. I just hit him up and left him a message…lol
it seem like my purpose at that point and time was to mentor others in their seeking endeavors or to enlighten to take the veil, so to speak, …ummm more specifically speaking, ripping off the veil that’s been placed on our eyes, so that we can’t see….and then to help guide after “blinded eyes can see” again…
….and then we have what happened this year to me as everybody’s heard me scream it out on Twitter
“BEARING WITNESS AND GIVING TESTIMONY”
how does one explain literally experience hell on Earth????
But y’all saw it!!!! that’s why I dictated it, EVERY step of the way!!!
This message from yesterday…. they always seem to come when I’m in the shower. I guess because I’m getting purified and cleaned. Everything, all the stress and everything, all the residue is getting cleaned off of me to be more able to receive the messages I am supposed to be getting.
the message that I had in January I think it was the end of Jan. …and I have all this documented I have all the screenshots I have all the writing; I know in within 3 months’ time this year, I took OVER 3000 screenshots accounting EVERY DETAIL OF WHAT ALL I WAS GOING THRU, IT WAS HAPPENING SO FAST, I COULDN’T KEEP Up lol…
the message about “to all the enlightened ones it’s now time to gather” yeah that’s where that comes from. because since I had gotten the key in Pennsylvania, this so-called key, everything went dormant. Very literally speaking, it’s been “QUIET” LOL. it’s been the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT NONE OF THAT KINDA OF STUFF WAS TAKING PLACE. Ohhh, well, there’s been a few incidents that let me know “I was still being watched” …..”IT” made sure to make an appearance here and there letting me know , “IT” was still around…and watching…but it was quiet…till I got the message about the enlightened ones to gather, “ time is of essence” “to heed her call”
Then all of a sudden, when I got the enlightened ones to gather message, things started happening again for me. the messages that I wrote down stating about cleaning your karmas, clean up all your spiritual trash…..
…and to explain this (and it’s so hard for me to do this, btw, very hard).. it will be 6 years on Halloween this year, on Samhain…. that I had gotten a vision. and it was a blink of an eye. the only way I can explain how I see these visions. Is when I close my eyelids. it’s like a projector screen in my eyes. That I see a flash of, fleeting second. But within that second,
what I see…. it’s funny….umm… the things that I see… How do I express this???? how do you express things that you don’t even…can’t even… don’t even know how to express yourself???? much less to others??? Wow!! But what I saw in that specific vision 6 years ago, was times worse…if it’s…if it’s Terminator….like umm but 10 times worse than terminator, ummm…. it is very scary to me…I know when I tried to say something to Ashton, I put the movie, he didn’t want NOTHING TO DO WITH IT! SCREAMNING AT ME.. “TURN IT OFF MOM, TURN IT OFF NOW!!!”
so with the married man that I had been seeing, seemed like he was the last person I was supposed to mentor. I was just told that, that was over. that I had to go on because there I couldn’t continue to waste time anymore, with everyone this year, on Tumblr, or twitter, everywhere, I was having to ‘PROVE MYSELF” TO EVERYONE, AT ALL TIMES…but I as much as hated to, I had to stop…stop trying…. “time is of the essence” was REPEATEDLY IN MY HEAD, UMMM AND IT GOT STRONGER, THE MORE I FOUGHT, THE MORE, “forceful but not” the ..URGENT..YEA URGENT IS THE WORD… It was time for me to go to the next stage of, the next part….and so anybody that was non-believing or didn’t listen or whatever that is on them! it was the married man, which was my last mentorship, so that’s when I knew that I had to go forward.
so then, all of sudden, and for those that MAY remember, that’s when I had gotten upset on twitter and was ranting about the time wasting that I was FOUR WEEKS LATE in sending that message out for the enlightened…yea…those…all that has been very literally, with unbeknownst to everyone, that’s have the devil, the demons, attack me to stop me from doing what I’m supposed to do. I’ve said it…all humans have very literally been used as pawns…a chess game in spiritual warfare…sorry but it’s true. anyways…then…
comes “the hell on Earth” experience. Which of course, got worse and worse and worse for me, the more I fought against the attacks, the harder “it” pushed, the more I fought, the worse it got, what it does, “it’s” whole purpose, is very literally to where you down, to where there’s no more strength to fight against the “dark side” and very literally, the client that I had said that had helped me back In march I said this, that because he helped me, he was now getting the attacks, he said the same thing, I hold a lot of harsh guilt with me now, because of this situation, cuz I had to block this person, I didn’t know how to help, I couldn’t find a way, I tried I went to “my people” I tried…oh my god, did I try and it kills me that by someone helping me that he got it…a nice guy to…I cry all the time about this. Badly…you have no idea what all I DO HOLD INSIDE ALL OF THIS I SWEAR IF ONLY YOU COULD GET A FLEETING GLIMPSE OF ALL OF WHAT I SEE AND KNOW AND GO THROUGH, IT DRIVE ANY ONE OF YOU MORE THAN “MAD” I PROMISE…it’s sooo fucking horrific…it’s sooo much ..I have to bring myself to terms to accept, that I will never be able to help anyone to understand EXACTLY WHAT IS REALLY AND HAS BEEN THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH THIS YEAR, 2019!!!! No one will ever know the AMOUNT OF EXTENSIVE TRAUMA THAT TRULY HAS BEEN DONE TO ME THIS YEAR ALONE!!!!
the writing I had done yesterday, that last paragraph that was not me… that came from….the message when I said “oh shit” that was me “going oh my God I don’t want to go through anymore” no one can know the exhaustion that it wear on a person, today alone, has worn me slap out, its 4:25 pm and I’ve done nothing but write this all day long, from this morning from a comment about the new page because, there is “no follow” up writing about this, so I finally had to explain everything…it knocks a person on their ass…and slap the fuck out I can tell you
when I wrote “ of Passion of fire” writing, I saw a book at the end cuz I was typing with my eyes closed but it wasn’t just a book, it was a big book and it seemed like it gave me the sense of the Bible… like but my mother always had on her table, but she had a handmade wooden Bible holder I don’t know what you call them, stands lol… anyway to hold The Bible. she had it on a specific table and open….
but it wasn’t the Bible. it was, ummm, I don’t know, ummm, if it’s something, much more important than the Bible, I don’t understand that one. but it’s maybe the sense I’m getting is in the Bible has been a guide for us in these times.
but why am I going through what I’m going through??? why do I write it all this down, which has been normal for me, but NOWWWW…. I’m now sharing all this now out in the public… it may be because I’m given a guide to what’s to come maybe????
I don’t know yet… why am I going through all this????
the purpose of the website seems like as I look back this is the fifth website in one full year…. one full year 5 websites… but with each one they get better and they get bigger .
for my own purpose it’s about putting the chapters in my life together. everybody keeps saying from my experiences I need to write a book. okay so I guess that’s kind of taking place.
I know that the same thirst that I felt before is the same with my writings right now with sharing my story. I don’t know why but it is. I think what may be the bigger purpose at hand is that website is being used as a tool to prepare everybody. cuz apparently I’m being heard from all of the place from what I see from all the traffic, besides the VPN’s, but I mean there seems to be a bigger purpose that I am now supposed to go through.
Ya know, it was ironic how that this happened …my parents have disowned me because I wouldn’t go through an exorcism on a promise yes I admit, with a retired priest. And 2 younger, “kids” priest…that I can tell you, my mother condition everybody when she worked at the diocese of about me. Because she doesn’t understand. Hell, I haven’t understood the empath and all that stuff about me either. Until recently, this year, as you’ve seen.
it is totally ironic when I moved to Pennsylvania that I was dating someone possessed and this is where I talk about my mentor in the “about me” section on the blog prelude page.
thank God for my mentor!!!! if it had not been for Him I would not have known how to go about this issue that He helped me greatly, with.
because when it happened it got botched some kind of way and I ended up being a host for the weekend. thank God my spiritual self was very strong and could overpower what “it” when “it” would try to overcome me. I was able to reverse everything and throw it back, when I reversed the exorcism and put it back into its rightful place and leave
can you imagine yourselves, ummm…best way to describe this would be…ohhh the show, the charmed ones, ….can you imagine, you sitting your frying up some fries, for Ashton and grandma ok…yes grandma also… lived with us…ummm then all of a sudden…you hear THAT VOICE…and while you got grease going on the stove, your trying to fight this man…that’s drunker than a fucking…omg I don’t know…worse than fucking Cooter brown I know that much, I hate his drinking…that man…was no man, during that times, “it” was something else….that RASPY VOICE…YOU NEVER EVER FORGET IT!!!!
It was during this time that Ashton umm…one morning getting ready for school, he looks up at me and just saying sooo so non challantly….”mom, I just wanna fight demons and be normal” …that’s one to take a step on and look at I promise you. How would you deal with something like this?????? I wonder…… (wow then all of sudden its 7:33pm my fan started rocking again from blowing so hard, like the other day on twitter)
…. I was able to leave…I was able to keep my life!!! Very literally speaking, I was very afraid.
because of the spiritual attacks I was having. I was getting punched in the stomach, getting beat on and this was unseen stuff and I’m just going through Reiki and my reiki master could not take care of my back because every time I went to see her she’d have to do all the cleaning up all the spiritual mess instead of working on my back.
because this possessed person now, mind you, things don’t happen until I start speaking spiritually on things. Everything is quiet and vey dominant, left ALONE ….UNTIL I start bringing up spiritual stuff and then I start getting attacked.
when I had brought up this year about being raped when I was 15 by something I could not see, but I sure can feel. That, when “it” was done, I was in midscream that my mother woke up to my screaming bloody murder, which screeching very bloody murder, screaming….that I had not been able to scream during the time “it” was fucking me. I had felt like I was being suffocated. I was 15 when that happened. these things have gone on throughout my life started with the “man in the shadows” at the age of ten. The night the all the family went to see ET, 1982. I was in fourth grade when it started….
to give testimony maybe???? I know I was told that my purpose was of great sacrifice… look at what I’ve been sacrificing this year alone. but you know that’s a spiritual side that you see here, a human, pardon me the person… Michelle.
it’s a lot that I go through it’s a lot of unanswered unexplained-wise for me why this why that why am I going through my life and just had enough of something just enough to know what it is??? to experience?? why just enough to know what it is so I can talk about it, I guess, I don’t know. …I don’t know…
seems like every place that I’ve moved has been a cesspool for demons. Long Beach Mississippi for example Long Beach is cursed land by two witch covens that had a war going on between each other. That’s dead land. And the history along highway 90 across the highway from the beach…that land has sooo much history on it, I was actually taken back to the slave days….then through Katrina’s devastation through there when I moved there, it was just….dead…nothing REALLY…not really grew around there, you could FEEL it…
New Castle Pennsylvania great example there! that’s a cesspool and a half!!!, like you would not believe just something that will suck you down like there ain’t not tomorrow!!! The history for what I found out it was a catholic priest who cursed new castle pa. and I’m talking there AINT NOTTA THERE, fucking nothing but heroin and fucking nastiness I hated that fucking place I swear. And like even here, the manager here, he’s from Pennsylvania. He will tell you about New castle. hmmm…I never heard of Newcastle, which was my demise, which is why I think things went wrong with Ashton and me.
you know when you’re going through a deal, and I mean your child is so spiritual, so much so,….that when I left that demon filled house, it was by the hearts the medical drivers, which got me out of there, I made an appt to go to reiki and snuck 5 duffle bags into the van to bring both Ashton and I to go to reiki, It was all planned out to the “T” very well,. Thank God, I had Ms. Debbie, my reiki master, check Ashton for any “residue” she said, that she had never seen a child with such a bright light to them that his was so so bright. I’m going to throw out a couple of things here, about Ashton,
there’s a couple of deep things here….go look up the annuki and Sumerians, there’s an Ananuki gold medallion that I couldn’t figure why I was seeing like over his head, I just “happened” across finding this while googling and researching, a few yrs. later, in Ms. Someone else said the said thing.
He used to have nightmares, seemed like he was going back, …more specifically…to the Viking times. Yep….
I could go on and on and on and on and on with stories that would make your fucking head jump off your shoulders and FUCKING TAKE THE FUCK OFF…RUUUUUUUUUNNNN…..
I don’t need to watch any horror movies; I’ve been living in one go figure. A couple of examples, remember where I said, that “it” had made a couple of appearances while everything was quiet…ok here ya go…
Sooo. I was staying at the delta inn in northeast, there was someone that I knew from Moco space, needed to come by, take a shower and all, chill for a while, his gf or whatever worked but had been murdered I can’t remember specifics…at the moment…well anyway…he comes if. And…ummm…(takes a deep breath) wow…he comes in….from whatever I was doing…when I looked up to say they come on in, that motherfucker “
Yea….”it” flashed “them” eyes at me!!! I know them eyes well, Ashton’s dad has them eyes,…It was just a QUICK flash…I whipped my head back around and I said, ohhh but no, you are in MY territory now!!!! ….ya know what come out of his mouth….oh you caught that huh….hmmm ok….
Sooo then he needed a toothbrush…ok…I had a variety pack, brand spanking new not opened….I kind of tossed it on the bed, I said “here ya go, pick a color…any color, pick which ever one you want”….unbeknownst to him what I was up to! he had picked green…..THE EARTH ELEMENT
So…I grabbed the toothbrush…and for…ohhh I don’t know 30 mins or so, we were sitting there rapping…and bullshitting…all the while I had that toothbrush in my hand…talking with my hands just like any other Cajun does…all of a sudden, I go…”oh shit, it’s been my hand the whole time, here ya” and handed it to him…hmmm
Don’t you know, he dropped that motherfucking toothbrush like a hot potato, and glared at me bad….bad bad…flashing them eyes, that flash with a tinge of fire to them….I glared back, I said to “it” I stated you were in my territory, to walk out my door you weren’t welcome here!!!!”
Now that’s after the dude admitted to me that he had WELCOMED “it” in his soul….im like…ohhh but noooo, no no no no no no indeed NOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After that he tried to come back around…I wouldn’t have a fucking thing to do with it. Got on my Facebook messenger, he tried everything down to wanting me to do an exorcism, I think NOT!!! I knew what was up!!! …
Sooo on to the second time…I had been made “aware “ that I was still being “watched” like I have been all my life, “from the shadow man” it happened here, one night late, a client….he seemed like…and I could tell, I hear the cry…he was kind of crying out for help, so I screened him, and told him, come on, and it was really…so really we talked more than anything, so something, I had the urge to “lay my hands on him” like I’ve talked about before…it was a split second, that I was started to feel the warmness, that I’m supposed, all of sudden, it got ICE COLD, my hand was placed where your soul is located at the bottom of the rib cage. I looked up at him. And he was keeping it from me. Had told me, it had to something with his family, but he had the great responsibility of keeping “it” away from others. So that it doesn’t harm anyone, that he had keep it control umm…and that he knew that where his destiny was when he leaves this earth…and ummm daymn…yea….I told him…umm….I said “well, “it” has just let me know…again, “it’s” still around even though things are quiet at the moment” sooo….and then of course….”ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE…..ON ME” very literally speaking…..
Now cuz I know y’all are all tripping the fuck out…
Here’s a story when I was living RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET FROM THE SIGN THAT SAYS THE “START OF NATCHEZ TRACE” IN MS…
It was in the summer; I was on the phone with mother…out of the blue. Seriously freaked me the fuck out…’ Michelle, you remember when umm, you used to tell us that someone was at that window”…..
“Remember,” she said, I’m like wtf??? So I told her, “how could I fucking forget that shit huh!!!!!!!!!!!”
Ya know what she told me??? Flipped me out…..”ya know, your sister used to tell us the same thing”
CLICK! That’s all she wrote, I hung up on my mom, and DIRECTLY CALLED MY SISTER!!!!
Now yalls got to understand, I’m sitting here tripping shit right!! Fucking BLEW MY MIND, smh…
So I called her and I’m like “yo, uhhh momma just told me something ummm “did YOUUUUU see that man at the window also?????”
She told me that she used to hide under the covers, wouldn’t move…
I told her, I said ‘fuck, I guess you’re right, I seem to be the ballsy one around here” she said I don’t wanna talk about it anymore….I said “I get ya” that was the ONLY time that was discussed between her and I!
So this is my own personal thoughts on how my “purpose” may just be played out….ummm
I’m carrying a cross, I have that writing as well….I’m going through it now, so that the world can be prepared for what’s to come, I’ve ummm…I’ve stated all this on twitter, already screaming it out loud on twitter…bearing witness and giving testimony…how else can I explain that you know you’ve been preparing for something that you have no idea of any of it, but you can feel that your life is taking you through all things to prepare you for something…what …I don’t know exactly what yet…but …ummm. The person, the human, the Michelle talking ….I wish it would leave me alone, I wish I didn’t have to go through all of this, but…I can’t do that…why….well because if I turned my back on what I’m supposed to be doing, my purpose, the “ultimate plan of my soul” why I was brought into this world…turning my back would be not ummm to love everyone to turn my back is to bring the world to death. Which only brings me to the hell the I’ve already experienced….and btw THAT WAS NO FUN OKAY I know yalls remember me in the shower screaming out shit on twitter right??!! Well I do!!! I don’t want to be the cause of any of us…
See my life has never been normal I wish it was I wish I didn’t have this but you know I’ve been learning watch what you wish for because apparently I’m giving a guide to what’s to come and how to prepare for it and how to handle it and what to do it is just if the person is going to listen or not and the vision and the writing where I saw myself like Jesus, dressed in a robe….and like Jesus trying to get everyone’s attention, to tell what He needed to tell…and I was at a crosswalk and I was trying to give testimony and no one was listening this is how it’s turning out to be.
So call me crazy, whatever call me I don’t know whatever you got to do with it I mean I’ve already had thrown at me this year and have had a tremendous amount of stuff happened to me this year so call me whatever do whatever the person inside, Michelle, me….doesn’t understand, the person inside has extreme case of PTSD complex and is very damaged. the spiritual I think is what’s going on, it keeps trying to beat me down to I guess that’s why the spiritual scars on my face.
So now the cat is out of the bag this is a quick very quick rundown and where that writing came from this is the real Michelle this is why it’s hard for me to deal with things that face hard for me to explain hard for me to understand all of it all of it that’s why I never been understood all of this now I’m just what am I going to go through expressing this to everybody????
Sooo…..what I think is happening this is going to end up being “a guide of some sort” to help In “the times” ….ok sooo it’s almost 8pm I’ve typed 23 pages today….in response…
Umm 3 pages turned into 23 pages. I’ll have every one of you freaking know, THIS IS THE VERY FIRST TIME IM GIVING DETAILED ACCOUNTS OF MY EXPEIREINCES THE VERY FIRST TIME THAT MY FINGERS HAVE FLOWED ACROSS THESE KEYS LIKE THIS ABOUT MY EXPERIENCES, THE IS THE VERY FIRST TIME THAT IVE SPOKEN ABOUT ALL OF THIS IN THIS MANNER, THIS IS THE VERY FIRST TIMES THAT IT’S BEEN SPOKEN WITH THE EXCEPTTTION OF A GENERAL SENTENCE HERE OR THERE BUT NEVER EVER EVER HAS IVE GIVEN THIS KIND OF ACCOUNT AND DETAILS LIKE IN THIESE 23 PAGES, IM SCARED TO DEATH TO HIT THIS SEND BUTTON.. BUT I AM…..7:51 PM
now I would like y’all to think on this….cuz I know y’all fucking can’t believe this, I wouldn’t …if it were me…but I’m going to ask you….have anyone of you stopped to think what it may feel like for me…to go through all this….quiet literally to save everyone’s souls and lives …at the end of times, the sacrifice I’m doing for those that continue to harm me???
have you sat and thought what it may feel like FOR ME…IF ITS SOO FUCKING UNBELIEVABLE TO YOU..READING MY WORDS, WHAT IN THE FUCK CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT I MUST BE GOING THROUGH ALL OF MY LIFE, TRING TO FIGURE WHYYYY
WHYYYY MEEEE WHATS GOING ON, ALL THIS OTHER STUFF!!!1 THINK ON THAT LONG AND HARD BEFORE YOU COME TO ME WITH ANY SNIDE COMMENTS PLEASE
9-6-19 btw this is why I time and date everything….
this time I’m signing MY NAME!!! CUZ THIS IS MICHELLE THIS IS THE REALL ME THIS IS T HE PERSONAL MICHELLE THAT NO ONE HAS EVER KNOWN THIS FAR AND THIS DEEP EVE R BEFORE!!!
SO WITH THAT SAID, …
MUCH LOVE, MICHELLE NOT ROGUE
BLESSED BE TO ALL, CLEAN YOUR KARMAS UP, DO RIGHT AND STAY IN LIGHT FOR GODS SAKE…WOW STAY IN THE LIGHT, YOU DONT WANT WHAT IVE EXPERIENCED NO ONE WHATS THAT I CAN TELL YOU!!!