(i started writing this when i left my place on sept 9th and i’ve worked on it little by little. i can’t seem to be able to finish anything i start working on these days, well because i’m always expected to do whatever for everyone else. and hey if it seems like im repeating myself, maybe it’s because it keeps happening to me…alll at one time, all the time )
Hello, I’d like to take a moment to introduce myself. See I’m new in town and I’m not from around. So I am the new kid on the block. My name is Michelle and I’ll be 48 in January I’m a little bitty thing. That, at the moment is very unsure of herself. A very shaky person. Trembling on the inside and out. See I’m trying my damndest to find myself. Find out who I am. The real Michelle.
There’s a lot of different layers to me, it’s kinda like an onion, you have to peel away all the different layers. Because I’ve been a mother I’ve been a caregiver to others, I’ve been a wife, ive been a girlfriend, I’ve been a fantasy in a man’s mind, but to not to just one man, but Lots of men. And, well, I just had to think about it. Maybe for some women out there to.
One Person VS An Ocean of people
And I know that’s really to hard for anyone that’s not in the public eye to imagine and to understand. Hopefully this might help you to understand. Kinda like watching tv, I guess. In a way….well when your watching a band playing music on tv, all YOU see, is that one band, right?….ok….But what does that band that’s playing and being filmed so that you can watch them on tv see???? Well, I can help with that answer. Cause I’m kinda in the same place as that band.
What that band sees, is just a sea of people, in the audience, like at a concert, heads bobbing around from dancing. There’s no faces to those people. Those “bobbing heads” start to become “dots” as the audience grows. The “sea of people” start to just blur. Ok
But yet, you only one band on that tv screen, right? You can get really lost looking out at like an ocean of bobbing heads that have no faces to them. It can be really scary, at least for me anyways. It can cause A LOT of anxiety. Especially when your really just this “ole cajun girl” that’s from the “backwoods swamps” lmao….
I’ve been many different people for many different other people. But….WHO AM I? WHO AM I….FOR ME???? I don’t know….do you??? NOOOO…if I don’t know how can you possibly know, correct?
There’s a lot of years of hurt, of struggle, of pain that has to be peeled back. So, I’m really not the person that you met. I guess this is what I’m trying to explain, I don’t know who I am. I’ve honestly have NEVER known who “I” was. I’ve always “been” for someone else. Expected to be whatever or whoever to everyone else. I NEVER get to have any time, just quiet time for myself. I’m told what I should do and act, how i should feel, how to run my business, I am expected to “be a good friend” at 4 am, to 5 people at once, EVERY MORNING. But it’s especially expected ON EVERY MONDAY MORNING. When people ask me what “do i want to do,” in my head, I’ve always wondered, “why do you even ask” then the next thing i think in my head, “i dont know,” then i just start to spin in my head, cuz i’m lost for words, and your expecting an answer that I can’t give, cause I don’t have an answer. How in the hell would i know that answer. I’m always so damn busy being someone for 10 people at once, or trying to freaking hide from everyone expecting and demanding and wanting and NEEDING something from me. I never have time to find out anything about me. THERE’S ABSOLUTELY NOT ONE PERSON THAT HAS DONE ANYTHING FOR ME. I’M ALWAYS DOING FOR THEM.
Time Off???!!!! Too Busy Doing What YOU Expect And Demand Me To Do
For example, i have worked 24/7 for almost 3 years WITH NO DAY OFF, no one expecting something from me, or demanding….for my new year, for halloween i wanted to take off to celebrate Samhain and my dads birthday today on nov 1st.. Ok, so i got twitter to finally get that i want a day off…guess what….so EVERYONE ON FACEBOOK, DECIDES TO COME OUT OF THE WOODWORKS TO CONTACT ME ON HALLOWEEN. and if i don’t answer….LIKE EXPECTED TO IN THE TIME YOU THINK I SHOULD ANSWER YOU, there’s a probelm with it. it’s 4 pm on nov 1st now, i’ve been so damn busy, trying to get some damn peace that by the time i’m done with people, the day is over and i’m shook up, shaking, crying and just left feeling like giving up. it’s no use. I turn my phone off….i get a fucking knock on the door…i throw my hands up…
So, im not that confident person i was when i started working, hell I’m even struggling with the words coming from my mouth when normally they flow just like the river which leads my fingers to flow across the keys now I struggle to find the words that I wanted use there’s so much, so that makes it even more difficult for me.
So, on the Sept Friday 13th I stand before you and all, as I claim me. My struggles are real my pain is real my loneliness is real
I’m sorry I never promised that I could sell the fantasy. from GetGo I told you what you would get is a woman that knows what she wants sexually. knows exactly how to go for it, but you would definitely be satisfied and you would always get nothing but real from me. I promised you honor, I promised I would take care of each and everyone of you. I promised alace you did not have to worry about your stuff being stolen are you being robbed or something bad happening I promised you a drama-free environment. I promised you a woman that just wanted to have fun also. As we all have our reasons for coming to this. And it doesn’t even matter the reason about it what it comes down to if there’s an urge in side. That burns to be satisfied.
But yet, i continuely have to PROVE MYSELF TO EACH INDIVIDUAL, AND NOW…YOU REFUSE TO EVEN BELIEVE MY REVIEWS!!!!!!!!!!!! ….”HUH????”
So for 2 and 1/2 years it hasn’t changed one more time here’s the real that’s coming. And I’m trying to prepare myself to make it known because this is hard for me to deal with on my own.
As the realization hit me that is that have hurt me so. Have going on and I’m not a second thought I’m always do that for that they fucked with and got a joke out of. Out of the mockery that has been made of me, that’s how these people will never know
I am no longer taking responsibility for you, It’s NOT mine to own!
This quote was a thread from a Twitter. I have put in bold letters that I felt to be important…to me…and for me….
People will hate you simply because you show up in the world in ways that they never could. Or won’t. And that’s okay. Keep impacting the world with your uniqueness, and let them watch in their secret fear. People will also lie to themselves and say they could do what you do. They are how you are, even though only you are you. They will feed off of envy and comparison to distract themselves from their own lack of self worth/growth. This will never be YOUR fault/problem. Let them. Everyone has a one way ticket to success and happiness and it’s called being yourself. You can’t copy another or wish to be anyone/anything but yourself. Learn this and you’ll never be a hater again.
I retweeted with this reply: With me it’s called “the mirror effect” because im an empath. And I am VERY unique and i love it lol
So, I’m going to add to this on my own tweet. I SAY WHAT I MEAN AND I MEAN EXACTLY WHAT I SAY. I take full responsibility of all of my words that I speak. I am not taking responsibility of how you interpret my words.And personally speaking I’ve always hated that I never could stand that even before sex work.
When I asked you how long it will take you to get here that does not mean to tell me the intersection that you’re at. you want to know why? I may have lived in San Antonio for almost 3 Yrs, but I don’t know where the hell i’m at, i don’t get to get out at all, i’m expected to be here for WHEN YOU DEMAND MY TIME FROM ME. …So, you’re not telling me nothing that’s going to help me. At which case, you have just wasted both of your times especially mine, Because I can tell, there’s at least 4 other people demanding of me. Something whatever it may be.
Another example when I stated I had my first threesome when I was 15 somebody thought that I was saying I had my first double penetration when I was 15. “who said that, I didn’t” I told that person to go back and read my words. Because what I SAID WAS I HAD MY FIRST THREESOME WHEN I WAS 15. THAT’S ALL I SAID.
Again last night somebody was telling me I was bitter, I wasn’t bitter, what I was….was hurt
I’m not going to change that person’s mind now nor anytime else. I’m not going to worry about it no more
When you send me FOUR PM’S from ourhome2 within a 30 minute time and interrupt my bath when I’m getting dressed for somebody you were going to wait. And that person asked me if he can have my number!!!
I asked him this question,” so I guess you’re going to be okay with me getting up to Go to my computer to make sure to answer that person right in the middle of your blow job because I guess that’s what you were okay with me doing with somebody else???”
And i also told him this: “And you have exerted no responsibility on having a phone number why in the living hell would i give you my phone number, WHEN YOU CAN’T EVEN RESPECT MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?”
I ALSO TOLD HIM THAT WHAT YALL THINK YOU NEED AND WHAT YOU ACUTALLY DO NEED ARE TEE TOTALLY TWO DIFFERENT FUCKING THING!!! THATS notihng but your power trips, control issues
Point is I’m no longer taking responsibility for your actions and the world just seems to be a little bit more easier for me. You got to realize samhain is MY NEW YEAR. I’m changing this year maybe I won’t have your bullshit to deal with it like I’ve had all year this year And just maybe I won’t be Bitching as much but y’all will probably be bitching more I don’t know I don’t care it’s not me, i let it go. but make sure you put blame on where it needs to go cuz I’m not taking your play no more but I will tell you about yourself really quickly.
So, if i seem “cold” to you, well, this is what i’m remind you…..YOU TOLD ME NOT TO HAVE ANY EMOTION. So don’t complain when i dont show any. I’m only trying to be what you told you wanted me to be.
I was TRYING to give ppl that were blacklisted for just time wasting, chances, I would offer to counteract that blacklisting with a whitelisting…i can do that for you. No one wanted to take the offer. Well, It’s NOT MY BLACKLISTING. I DIDNT DO IT, YOU DID IT. So…from now on….if i see you blacklisted for time wasting, I AM NO LONGER ALLOWING YOU,,notice how i said that, YOU TO WASTE MY TIME.
“You NEED A Break,” “You Should Go Have Fun,”
So let me explain this to you…..FOR 2 1/2 YEARS I’VE BEEN TOLD: “SEEMS LIKE YOU REALLY NEED A BREAK” YOUNEED SOME TIME OFF, MATTER OF FACT, YOU NEED LIKE A WEEK OFF,” Ok, so….From last sunday, on Oct 27th thru today on Nov 1st., I’VE TRIED TO TAKE TIME OFF. GUESS THE FUCK WHAT?!!! Last Sunday, i went to go have lunch, and take a relaxing day….THAT IS NOT ALLOWED, NO ONE CAN RESPECT, WHEN YOU WANT TO CONTACT ME, I GUESS YOU LIKE I SHOULD HAVE TO ANSWER YOU!!! And well, it’s now 4:49 pm on Nov 1st, it seems like by the time i’m done with EVERYONES EXPECTATIONS OF ME, I LOOK UP, GUESS WHAT I HAVENT EVEN HAD THE CHANCE TO GET A SHOWER YET, OR….IT’S 10 PM AT NIGHT…AND EVERYTIME I TRY TO ORDER ME SOMETHING TO EAT, IM EXPECTED TO DROP WHAT THE FUCK IM DOING, TO ANSWER YOU, SO I FIND MYSELF EATING MY ONE AND ONLY MEAL AT MIDNIGHT.
GUESS WHAT, MY WHOLE DAY IS BEING SPENT FUCKING REPEATING MYSELF AND I NEVER EVER COULD STAND REPEATING MYSELF BUT I SEEM TO DO IT CONSTANTLY ALLL THE TIME, THEN BY THE TIME, I GET SO DAMN FRUSTRATED WITH REAPEATING MYSELF, YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!! “HUH???”
So, i guess it seems to you that i’m always bitching, whining, moaning, groaning, and “crying out wolf” huh??? that now for you, whatever i say, it lands on closed ears huh? uhhh huhh…..ok So lets see, JUST HOW MANY TIMES IVE BEEN REPEATING MYSELF??? I’M GONNA SHOW YOU!!! Please refer yourselves to that VERY LONG LIST OF TITLES AT THE BOTTOM OF THIS PAGE! So, this list DOESNT EVEN COME CLOSE TO WHAT I HAVENT RE..PUBLISHED AGAIN!!!…..YET….. BECAUSE I HAVENT EVEN STARTED ON THE SPIRITUAL ABUSE THAT I JUST SO HAPPENED TO HAVE DESERVED …I GUESS….OR AT LEAST SOMEONE WAS JUDGE, JURY TRAIL AND SENTENCING ALL JUST FOR LIL OLE ME...YES IN DEED I FEEL MIGHTY SPECIAL
hmm im glad to know that YOUR CONTINUED ABUSE IS ME JUST “CRYING WOLF” TO YOU
Yea ….About “that ” Spiritual Abuse…
yea lemme speak on that really really quickly…hmm NOT ONE PERRSON KNOWS THE FULL STORY ABOUT WHAT IVE GONE THROUGH THIS YEAR, PPL HAVE HELPED so forth and so on…but EACH ONE OF YOU,HAVE ONLY SEEN OR BEEN APART OF just a VERY SMALAL PORTION of what ive actually REALLY gone though this year BY THE HANDS OF OTHERS IN BLACK MAGIC….and then ofcourse i havent told ONE PERSON ALLLLLLLLLLLL OF IT YET. if theres anything that anyone of you have learned about me by now…when i say something, you can take it and stamp that bitch at the bank right, ….welll listen up….BE PREPARED IS ALL I CAN TELL YOU…
because i assure you by the time im done telling you ALLLLLLLLLLLLL OF THE SPIRITUAL ABUSE THAT I HAVE BEN PUT THROUGH IN EXACTLY ONE YEAR, YOU ALSO WILL HAVE ALLL OF YOUR HAIR STANDING ON ALL YOUR BODY AND YOU TOO WILL HAVE NIGHTMARES FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE…BY JUST ME TELLING MY SOTRY AND SHOWING YOU THE PICTURES,…YES IN DEED I TOOK I KNEDW NO ONE WOULD BELIEVE MEM I HAVE THE PROOF….EVERY LAST FUCKING BIT OF IT!
YEA BY THE TIME IM DONE JSUT TELLING THAT PART, YOU TOO WILL BE JUMPY, SKIDDISH, SCARIED AS FUCK, SUSUPIOUS, ETC ETC ECT ETC ETC ETC AND ETC trust and bleieve when i tell you this
....YOU WONT NEED TO WATCH ANY MOVIES OR SHOWS, YOU WONT JASON OR FREDDIE…MY STORY WHAT ONE OR MANY OF YOU IN THE WORLD HAVE DONE TO ME, IVE GONE THRU ALL THE JASON AND FREDDIES ALL AT ONE…AND THE DEVIL HIMSELF ALSO! THANK YOU THIS, CUZ GUESS WHAT, NOW I HAVE KNOWLEDGE!
GUESS WHAT, YOU FUCKED UP!!! YOU GAVE ME KNOWLEDGE!!!!! i kept telling yall….KNOWLEDGE IS POWER!!! SMH MMM MMM MMM MMM…”BLESS HIS LITTLE HEART”
“Opposite Day, Is EVERY DAY” For Men
I tell twitter, i’m off….i just don’t get it, I GET 15 DIFFERENT PPL DM’ING ME!....”HUH???” ….. OR WHEN I’M GOING THE FUCK OFF ON TWITTER, I GET PPL IN MY DM ASKING ME HOW IM DOING TODAY!!! ....”HUH????“
Soooo….Let Me Get This Straight Here…..
soooo, on curious cat, you TELL ME to go the beach, you tell me in emails, I would do you some good to get out, go to a soup kitchen and help others…hmmmm ummmm yea let me put all of this in better perspecitive FOR EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU, EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU….
So you want me to “donate” MORE OF MY TIME???…..again…“HUH???”
UMMM LETS SEE HERE, you really want me to donate MORE of my time….to others…when EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU STEAL MY TIME AND TAKE IT FROM ME…SO MUCH SO THAT I HAVNET BEEN BATHIING UNTIL AFTERNOON AND THEN AGAIN I LOOK UP AT THE CLOCK AND I FIND MYSELF NOT EATING ONCE TILL BETWEEN 8 PM TO MIDNIGHT???? TO OTHERS ????
UMMMM WHAT ABOUT ME? WHAT ABOUT MY TIME? FOR ME???
UMMM WHAT ABOUT DONATING TO ME??? I CAN T ELL YOU, THERES MANY MANY MANY OF NIGHTS AND DAYS THAT I GO WITHOUT EATING OR I EAT ONE OR TWO SLICES OF BREAD A DAY MAYBE…I SPEND ALL OF TIME LIVING FOR OTHER PEOPLE AND DOING FOR OTHER PPL THAT ITS SO MANY PEPOLE IM LIVING THAT I NEVER CAN SATIFIY ONE OF YOU, WELL BECAUSE BEFORE IM EVER DONE WITH WHAT ONE PERSON HAS ASKED OF ME, 3 TO 5 OTHER PEOPLE ARE DEMANDING OR EXPECTING …JUST COME UP JUST STARTT BARKING ORDERS OTU TO ME…….NEVER ONCE ….NOT ONCE ASK ME ABOUT ME …OR YOU HALF MUMBLE IT..
.FOR EXAMPLE WHEN MY DAD DIED….”HOW ARE DOING?” ….”NOT GOOD AT ALL, MY DAD DIED LAST NIGHT” …..just started right in on about his divorce…it actually took a min for it to register in his brain what i acutally said. and then he stopped…that was june 27th, cuz my dad died on the 26th. then he came and SPENT FREEEE TIME WITH ME, he was stressed about his divorce and he was tired from it, fucked and fell aspeep in my bed, i couldnt get him and UP AND OUT …
now in Sept when i had to move,,,,I WILL ADMIT, WHILE THE REST OF YOU STOOD THERE LIKE A FUCKING BUMP ON THE LOG, HE DID ACTUALLY HELP ME, ALMOST TOOK OFF CUZ HE WAS SCARED OF THE POSITION…BUT ya know, the way yall act, had i been mugged or raped or shot …i wouldve died the way you make me STOP TO QUESTION ME…”welllllll”
HAVE I EVER PUT ANY ONE OF YOU IN ANY KIND OF POSITION??? LET ME MAKE SURE TO ANSWER THAT FOR YOU! NOT NO BUT HELL NO I HAVENT HOW MANY OF YOU HAVE PUT ME INTO A POSITON ….WELL, YA GOT YOUR ANSWERS IN MY BLOGS THAT I CRY WOLF ABOUT
ummm EVERY LAST PERSON IN MY LIFE HAS HURT ME, THE ONLY ONE PERSON IN MY FAMILY THAT DIDNT JUDGE ME AND HOLD MY PAST AGAINST ME AND DISOWNED….he died ….MY FAMILY I WAS TOO MUCH FOR THERM, MY ADOPTED DADS SIDE I GUESS WAS THE THING TO MOLEST AND FUCK AROUND WITH THE DAUGHTER THAT WASNT BLOOD RELEATEDM...BUT HEYYY…IM MORE FUCKED UP THEN THEY ARE…IN THEIR EYES…. both my kids hate me…ok, so i got pregnant at 16, i didnt have a chance in hell from get go, from the age of 7 on….i was left to do it all myself, umm yea ppl have helped along the way, my family did a lttle…comapred to other two kids, naw a set of tiresyea…but i dint have any help…my youngest son for two years was plostting to fucking kill me…at all and 11 AND 12..like wtf……AND THEN ON TOP BLACKMAILED ME WHEN HE FOUND OUT THAT I DID ONE FUCKING TRICK..OMG WOW WHAT A SIN….at 15, just a couple of years ago….
ummm, EVFERY LAST HUMAN IN MY LIFE, HAS HURT ME, BAD…OR LEFT ME…UMMM”and im the one fucked up??: hmm i wonder why…hey dont forget none of you either, down to the of my fucking hope…that married man…my last hope in men…but NOT ONLY but for HUMANS….
So here’s my question….why do you think i should go out into that world out there, all alone, by my self just to find more people to get hurt by?????….when i can be in my home comforatably…and you bring the hurt TO ME??????? ….again im going “HUH???” hell, i can be lazy and get my hurt on the silver platter that evereyof you have given to me…why should i work at getting hurt..meaning…going out into horrible world all by myself just to get hurt MORE….…I HAVE TO JUST WONDER YOU FUCKING LOGIC..IM BOGGLED BY THIS….AND YOU WANNA KNOW WNY IM AN INTROVERT????? HMMMM (Mens logic is just NOT logical to me, i dont get this concept.
“FML” …..AND “FUCK MY LIFE TOO”
So ive been told quiet a few times here lately, “FML”…“HUHHHH????” YOUR LIFE??? I FUCKED YOUR LIFE????
IS IT REALLY MY FAULT??? OR DID YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT ALSO?? and well….hey….FML ALSO, cuz yall have sure fucked up my life! did one hellva doozy on my life, for me! i want to thank you for your parts in fucking up my life as well!
“Your Right, You Don’t Have A Life, It’s A Sad Life ToLive”
hmmm just because you have read these words that I have spoken, does NOT give anyone the right or permission to remind me of what I’ve Spoken!!! Sooo….it’s a sad life to live huh???? Soooo…let’s talk about THIS “SAD” yeaaa….let’s talk about this….
Ya wanna what REALLY FUCKING SAD, that you have fucked up your lives, and decided that you wanted to try again…therefore stealing and taking my life WITHOUT FUCKING PERMISSION, and fucking my life up with your fucked life also…thinking your so damn good at your fucked off life, telling me about my life…taking TWO LIVES AND FUCKING THEM UP….AND ….YOU STILL HAVENT LEARNED YOUR LESSON!!!!!!!!!!! YU HAD TWO CHANCES AT GETTING IT RIGHT…YOU FUCKED IT BOTH CHANCES UP…and you STILLhavnet figured it out YET…hmmmmmm yea that’s sad.
Whats even more sad, telling me its a sad life to live, GUESS WHAT….ITS YOUR FUCKING LIFE IM LIVING STUPID!
So here’s whats REALLY sad…
This sis shamefully sad…when you make a person BEG, AND GROVEL AND PLEAD, AND DISGRACE THEMSELVES MONTH AFTER MONTH AFTER MONTH AFTER MONTH….DOING SPECIALS AT 53% OFF, NOT TAKING ADVADANGE OF THE SPECIAL THEN WHEN ITS OVER, ASKING FOR THE SPECIAL, WHILE YOU SIT BEHIND YOUR KEYBOARDS AND WATCH A BITCH GO HOMELESS WITH YOUR HANDS AROUND YOUR DICKS JERKING OFF TO “FREE”PORN, MONTH AFTER MONTH AFTER MONTH…YOU LET AND FIND HUMOR IN WATCHING A BITCH GO HOMELESS
WHILE TWO PROVIDERS HELP OUT TO PAY RENT THE FIRST WEEK IM IN THIS APT, NOT ONE PROVIDER TWO PROVIDERS TOOK ATHEIR HARD EARNED MONEY TO HELP ME, WHILE YOU WATCHED ME BEG AND DID NOTHING… (it gets better i promise)
NOT ONLY DOING IT TO ME, BUT TO OTHERS, WHEN I SAW ANOTHER PROVIDER DOING THE SAY THING THAT YOU HAVE MADE ME DO “LEAVING THAT PROVIDER HOMELESS” AND WHEN I OFFER TO GIVE BACK LIKE THOSE TWO PROVIDERS HAVE DONE FOR ME…ME OFFERING MY LAST $8 TO $!0 and as soon as you see me offering my hard earned money you go in my DM: (I HONESTLY CAN EVEN PUT THIS IN WORDS SO HERE SEE FOR YOUR OWN SELVES)
Whats Sad Is Your Scream Discretion, & Don’t Know The Meaning
THIS STUPID ASSHOLE HERE TALKING SHIT TO ME BELOW, DOESNT KNOW THE FIRST THANG ABOUT FUCKING RESPECT …AND GONNA TRY TO LIE TO ME AND CON ME INTO THTINING HE KNOWS THE DEFINITFITION OF RESPECT..LMFAOOOO…YEA OK…I BELIEVE YOU JUST LIKE I BELEIVE THE SKY IS THE FUCKING GROUND…I DONT BELIEVE NOR TRUST ANY OF YOU AS FAR AS I CAN THROW YOU AND I CANT PICK YOU UP…WELL…THATS QUESTIONABLE ESPEICALLY WHEN IM PISSED OFF BAD BAD…LMAO
WAIT A MIN LOOK AT THE DATE4S…DO YOU EVEN REALIZE THAT ALL OF THIS WAS LAST WEEKENED ALONE…AND YOU WANNA KNOW WHY I GOT TWITTER LIKE I DID …THIS IS NOT EVEN HALF OF IT…ON TOP OF DEALING WITH MR MARRIED MANS SHIT ALSO!!!!!!!!!!!!!NO FUCKING THANK YOU…I WANT PEACE NOT YOUR SHIT SHOVELD TO ME!!!!!
Seems Like You Need A Reminder, Well Let Me Remind You….
This IS THE LAST TIME I SPEAK THESE WORDS!!!:
“By The Very Fire That You Have Tried To Burn Me With, Is THAT Very Fire That I Gained Strength From!!!!!!!!!”
Also….ONE MORE TIME, THE LAST TIME:
THE VERY IMAGE THAT YOU SEE IN ME TODAY, IS THE VERY MIRROR IMAGE OF HOW YOU HAVE TREATED ME!!!
SO REMEMBER WHEN YOU SEE ME, YOU ARE SEEING OURSELVES, WHE NYOU JUDGE ME, YOU ARE ONLY JUDGING YOURSELVES!
YOU Damed ME To Hell On Earth????? That was REALLY Smart Now Wasnt It????
That mustve took a WHOOLE LOT OF FUCKED UP BRAINS TO THINK THIS ONE THROUGH…..SMH….So let me TRY to understand this….you put a curse on me, damned ME to actually experience LIVING IN HELLWHILE IM WALKING THIS EARTH???? IS THIS WHAT I’M UNDERSTANDING HERE????? Boy…imma tell ya….THAT TOOK SHIT FOR BRAINS, DIDNT IT!!! HMMM that was so smart i couldnt have came up with that shit there…lmfao omfg WOWOWOWOWOW!!!!!!!
WAIT A MIN HERE….AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF, YOU ACUTALLY SAW THIS WORKING ……HOWWWWW???????? “huhhhhh???” REALLY????SMH JUST NO WORDS JUST NO FUCKING WORDS IM LEFT FUCKING SPEECHLESS
Here’s what you REALLY DID …..*sighs* lol
im laughing so fuckiing hard i cant type no more omfg roflmmfao omfg ….my eyes are watering and my stomach hurts omfg you actully thought this is was gonna working out omfg this is so fucing gut wrenching hiliarious i swear i just jcant wrap my head around this one….i cant
My God THIS IS REAALLY A WHOLE NEW LEVEL OF FUCKED OFF STUPIDITY…..UMMM SOOO, you were too fucking busy fucking with me about all of weaknesses like my teeth when you stole my teeth from me…that you forgot what i had told all of you…in other words “
See im still trying to wrap my head around this one…So YOU TRIED TO USE MY OWN ELEMENT …..AGAINST MEEEEEEEE???!!!!!! LET ME PUT THIS ANOTHER WAY…UMMM SOOO YOU WERE SO FUCKING BUSY MAKING A MOCKERY OUT OF ME WITH DISGRACING ME ON ADULTLOOK AND TWITTER AND ON OURHOME2 AND ON MEWE FUCKING WITH ME ABOUT MY WEAKNESS, TIY WERE SO FUCKING FOCUSING ON THE FUCKERY YOU WERE COMING UP WITH TO MAKE A MOCKERY OUT OF ME…..THAT YOU FORGOT WHAT WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FUCKING FACES…WHAT IVE ALREDY TOLD YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOOO YOU TRIIIIIED TO USE MY OWN STRENGTH AGAINST ME
YOU DAMNED MEEEE TO HELL ON EARTH TRYING TO USE MY FIRE AGAINST ME..(which btw just a warning, IT IS NOT THAT HOT FIRE THAT WE ALL THINK THAT IT IS….YOU ARE GOING TO WANT TO WATER AND NEVER BE QUE3NCHED!!!) DO YOU REMEMBER WHAT YOU MADE ME EXPERIENCE??? SO LET ME DESCRIBE TO YOU WHAT I WENT THROUGH….
IT’S A VERY FUCKING COLD FIRE! DARK, DAMP, MUSTY HELL, THATS ICE FUCKING COLD!!! DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN I HAD TO STAY IN THE SHOWER I COULDNT GET OUT THE SHOWER,. DO YOU REMEMBER, THAT I ATE IN THE SHOWER????? DO YOU FUCKING REMEMBER ME SCREAMING OUT
SCREAMING OUT: “I AM BURNING, I AM ON FIRE, MY SKIN IS BURNING FROM INSIDE OUT!!!!
BUT NO ONE HEARD ME….REMEMBER …IT WAS JUST A FEW FUCKING MONTHS AGO, WELL IM GLAD YOU FORGOT SO QUICKLY…I HAVENT I SURE WONT BE EVER FORGETTING …EVER!!!
NEVER WILL I BE FORGETTING THAT, BUT HERES WHAT IM GOING TO TELL YOU, YOU DAMNED YOUR OWN SELVES BY THE FOLD OF TEN WHEN YOU CURSED ME, DAMNING ME TO LIVE HELL ON EARTH, YOU FORCED MY HAND, YOU MADE ME LOOK THE DEVIL DEAD SQUARE INTO THOSE HORRIBLE FUCKED ALL BLACK EYES WITH FLAMES IN THEM ….YES YOU MADE ME LOOK AT THEM FUCKING COLD BLACK EYES ONE MORE TIME IN MY LIFE….THIS TIME THOUGH, ….WHEN I LOOKED I FLIPPED HIM THE FUCK OFF!!!!
FUCK YOU, I AM FIRE!
REMEMBER WHEN I SAID ON TWIITER, “IT MAY NOT BE TODAY IT MAY NOT BE TOMORROW… MY NAME WILL CROSS YOUR LIPS IN YOUR LIFE, THAT OU WONT FORGET WHO I AM…THIS IS HOW ITS GONNA HAPPEN…..
MARK THESE WORDS THAT I SPEAK NOW…THEY WILL RING AGAIN!!! “WITH NO CONSONSIOUS, NOR SOUL MY NAME WILL CROSS YOUR LIPS!!! YOU WILL SPEAK OUT THE NAME “ROGUE” WHEN YOU FEEL THAT SAME HELL YOU DAMNED ME TO!!!!”
Soooo…..Let Me REIntroduce MYSELF….
Hello, I AM ROUGE
Hey There, I AM MICHELLE
I’ AM THAT BITCH YOU TRIED TO BURN!
THAT BITCH…….IS NOW ON FIRE!!!
WHAT YOU HAVE JUST WITNESSED….IS PLAYING FUCK FUCK WITH ME!!!
This IS CLASSIC THOUGH, IT REALLY IS…YOU HUNG YOUR OWN SELVES EVEN AFTER I FUCKING TOLD YOU WHAT YOU WERE DOING, AFTER TELLING YOU YOU STOLE THAT VERY ROPE I HAD HIDDEN…YOU TOOK THAT ROPE …HOLD ON….WAIT A MIN…LET ME GET THEM…im tired of repeating myself soooo…here they are…
I’m Gonna Enlighten Your Asses Once For All, I’m Gonna Tell YOU ABOUT YOURSELVES
Soooo….Are You Even Curious To Know Just How YOU Fucked Up???
Your very FIRST FUCK UP ….YOU DOUBTED MY WORD!!!! YOU DOUBTED ME!!!
YOU UNDERESTIMATED ME, YOU MADE ME REPEAT MYSELF (PLEASE REFER BACK WHAT IS IN RED), YOU MADE ME PROVE MYSELF TO YOU EACH ANAD EVERY ONE OF YOU INDIVIUDALLY,
YOU MADE A MOCKERY OF ME, YOU DISGRACED A PROUD PERSON,
YOU TOOK SUBMISSIVE AS WEAK
YOU TOOK MY KINDNESS AS WEAK
YOU THOUGHT I WAS BREAKING, YOU WERE IMPATIENT …YOU ATTACKED MY FUCKING HONOR…YOU TRIED TO BREAK MY FUCKING INTEGRITY???!!!!!! YOU BE LITTLED ME, YOU THREW MY ASS UNDER THE BUS AND LEFT ME,
YOU DIDNT THINK I WAS IMPROTANT ENOUGH TO REMEMBMER TO TELL ABOUT THE STD ISSUE, MAKING ME STRESS FOR 3 WHOLE LONG FUCKED OFF MONTHS, MAKING ME STRESS TO THE POINT OF LOSING GOBBS OF MY HAIR,
YOU DISREGARDED…YOU USED ME, ABUSED ME, TREID TO BEAT ME DOWN, AND BREAK ME…YOU SAVATAGED MY BUSNESS
YOU VIOLATED MY HOME WITH BLACK MAGIC AND ASTRAL PROJECTION, YOU COST ME MY HOME, MY FIRENDS, LEFT ME ALL ALONE AND LAUGHTED IN MY FACE ABOUT IT!!! YOU DID JUST WHAT YOU FELT LIKE YOU WANTED TO DO WITH ME MY BUINESS AND M LIFE!! YOU MADE ME GO HUNGRY MANY OF DAYS AND NIGHTS…
BUT THE LAST STRAW THAT BROKE THIS BITCHS BACK…..
I NEVER FUCKING FORGET, I DONT FORGET WHO DID ME RIGHT AND I NEVER FORGET WHO WRONGED ME UDERSTOOD??!!! ALL OF YOU THOUGHT THIS WAS OK TO DO WITHOUT REPERCUTION!!!! WOWOWOW
WHEN YOU FUCKING THREATENED ME!!! AFTER TEACHING ME TO ALWAYS BE CAREFUL WITH MY WORDS TO NOT SAY ANYTHING THAT I WOULD REGRET LATER WHEN MAD….YOU FUCKING DID THAT SAME THING, FORGETTING WHAT IVE DONE…DID YOU FORGET ME FEELING YOUR DAUGHTERS PAIN FOR YOU ..AND HER.??? YEA THAT DID KINDA HURT…BUT I TOOK IT FOR YOUUUUUU!!! I DIDNT HAVE TO WILLINGLY OFFER MY BODY LIKE THAT AND TAKE HERR PAIN FROM HER!!! BUT YOU FORGOT THAT DIDNT YOU??!
HMMM “JUST REMEMBER YOUR A SEX WORKER” …..GONNA IMPLY TO OUT ME TO THE COPS…LET ME ENLIGHTEN YOU FUCK RETARDED FUCK HEADS….SMH….*SIGHS* “JUST REMEMBERR WHO YOU BEEN FUCKING FOR TWO YEARS”
GOT THAT?!!! I HOPE SO…CUZ I GUESS WHEN I TOLD YOU I TOOK OUT INSURANSCE TO MAKE SURE YOU DID NOT PLAY WITH MY FUCKING LIFE LIKE THAT, YOU ALL HAVE FUCKED WITH MY LFE FUCKED IT UP…AND HOW CAN I TRUEST THAT YOU WOULDNT FUCK MY LIFE UP ANYFUCKING MORE???
IM GONNA STATE THESE ONE LAST TIME : “SEEMS TO ME SOMEONE HAS WAYYY MORE TO LOSE THAN I DO, IVE ALREADY LOST IT ALL…YOU ALL DECIDED THAT I DIDNT DESERVE MY BELONGINGS AND TOOK IT ALL FROM ME…DOWN TO MY FUCKING TEETH…ALL I HAVE TO LOSE IS TIME…
YOU HAVE ALL HAVE FAMILIES KIDS HOMES JOBS …GUESS WHAT??? I HAVE NOW BECOME DANGEROUS…CUZ I DONT HAVE ANYTHNG TO LOSE…BUT…YOU BECAME UNPREDICABLE …AND UNTRUSTWORTHY…I DONT BELIEVE ANYTING OUT OF YOUR MOUTH NOW…AFTER JUST KNOCKING ON MY FUCKING JUST SECONDS AFTER I CAVED IN ABOUT YOU BEING HERE” JUST GOT HERE” ….WHAT I HAVE TOLD ALL OF YOU IN
“IS YORU GAME ON POINT?” TO BE WHAT……ALWAYS BE ABOVE SUSUPION! LMAO
STUPID IS STUPID DOES…STUPID NEVER LEARNS….WHY YOU ASKED….CUZ STUPID NEVER FUCKING LISTENS AND IS ALWAYS TELLINGS OTHERS ABOUT THEMSELVES NEVER WORKIGN ON STUPIDS SHORTCOMINGS
Making The Example….Driving MY Point HOME!….
Soooo I would like to ask you what it was that you set out to do when you choose to “show me something?” what do you think THIS WAS GOING TO PROVE WHEN YOU CHOOSE TO DO THIS???
From Another Prospective ….
Sooo… just because you got butt hurt over YOU FILLING OUT THE FORM AND MAKING YOUR APPT FOR 4PM SUNDAY AFTERNOON, AND COULDNT FIGURE OUT WHAT THE LIVING FUCK YOU WANTED, THEREFORE CONFUSING ME, WASTING MY TIME, YOU JUST UP AND DECIDED TO BE JUDGE JURY TRIAL AND FUCKING HANGMAN WITH ……MY FUCKING LIFE, YOU CHOOSE TO PLAY WITH MY LIFE ….AND JUST HOW THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I WILL BE IMPRESSED BY “THIS”?????????
JUST WHAT WAS IT THATG YOU THOUGHT THAT YOU ACTIONS THAT AFFECT OTHERS, AFFECTING ME BADLY WAS GOING TO GET ME ALL WET AND HURRY UJP AND RUN TO FORGIVE YOU TO GIVE YOU A FRESH START.????
Let ME Enlighten YOUR ASS SOME….
FIRST OF ALL, YOU FUCKED UP BY THE TWO WORDS, “FRESH START,” THAT WAS NOTHING BUT MANIPULATION…ASHTON WAS FAMOUS FOR SAYING!!! WRONG!!! SMH
so let me farther enlighten you…this was NOTHING BUT A LIL CHILDS FUCKING TEMPER TANTURM…BUT WAIT…THIS TO MEEEE???!!!! WAS NOTHING BUT AN ANNOYING NAT…TO ME! ….WHEN YOU CAN DO THE THINGS MY SON DID…LETS FARTHER YOU ABOUT WHO YOU PLAYED THAT GAME WITH…..
When you can sit at the table for FOUR FUCKING DAYS AND ONLY HAVE WATER ON YOUR STOMACH.(and yes he was being watched by his dr) and STILL FUCKING NOT EAT BECAUSE T HE ONLY FUCKING THING YOU IS CHICKEN NUGGESTS…making himself gag to throw up what i put into his mouth…you MIGHT IMPRESS ME…
at 16-18 MONTHS OLD…WHEN YOU CAN SCREEEEEM FOR FOUR FUCKING HOURS CUZ YOU BIG BOY BED NOW…THROWING ALL 4 LAYERSS AND PADDING ON THAT BABY BED OFFFFF…AND ALL THE ANIMALS AND JUST DECIDED HE WAS GOING TO SHOW ME HIS GONNA CLIMB OUT THAT FUCKING BED IF I DIDNT COME GET HIM….WELL…YOU MIGHT IMPRESS ME
WHEN YOU ARE WEARING A HELMENT BECAUSE MOMMY IS WORRIED LIKE A MFER AOBUT YOU CAUSING YOUR SELF BRAIN DAMAGE FROM YOUR TEMPER TANTURNS …AT 17 MONTHS, THIS CHILD …BROUGHT HIM OUTSIDE, AND HE DIDNT HAVE ANYTHING ON HIS HEAD, JUST DECIDED HE WAS GONNA BE AN OSTRICH TO SHOW ME HOW MAD HE AT ME…ONLY THING WAS THAT CHILD DID NOT HIT SAND WHEN HE FLEW HIS HEAD DOWN…
IT HIT CONCRETE! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HIM STILL WALKING AFTER THAT …IMPRESSED ME….HIM NOT FUCKING BANGING HIS HEAD FOR THREE WEEKS AFTER HE DID THAT ….IMPRESSED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THATS JUST WHAT 3 LIL BITTY EXAMPLES OF THE ……
HOLD THE MFIN FRONT DOOR OPEN, I HAVE TO TELL YOU THIS ABOUT ASHTON….OMFG..WHEN HE BROKE HIS LEG AND IN THE WHEEL …USING MY WALKER MAKING ME PICK HIM UP…TO HOLD HIM WHITH MY BAD BACK FOR HIM TO PISS…I SPENT 24 FULL HOURS …HE SAT IN THAT WHEEL CHAIR REFUSED TO EVEN BEGIN TO TRY, KEPT HIM UP NIGHT LONG, DONT YOU KNOW THAT PUNK FUCKING PISSSED ALL IN THAT WHEEL CHAIR JUST TO SHOW ME HE WASWNT GETTING UP AND TRYING…24 HRS OF IT….(WHEN “THIS” IS YOUR TEMPER TANTURN, YE THIS IS IMPRESSIVE..FOR A 7 YR OLD LMAO (THAT MY FRIENDS IS ASHTON GETTING THAT HONESTLY FROM HIS MOTHER!!!)
STRONG WILLED, DETERMINATION THAT MY KID GOT HONESTLY FROM ME!!! THAT YOUR PLAYED YOUR LIL GAME WITH
YOU …..YOU GOT BUTTHURT AND TRIED TO SHOW MEE ABOUT MYSELF!! YOU DUMPED YOUR DRAMA INTO MY FUCKNG LAP…AND WERE GONNA MAKE ME FUCKING OWN IT…..
NAWWWWWW. NOT THIS BITCH….THIS BITCH ONLY OWNS WHAT IS HERS TO FUCKING OWN!!! I DO NOT OWN YOUR FUCKED BEHAVIUR I DO NOT TAKE RESPONISBILITY FOR YOUR BLACKLISTING BITCH…THAT WAS PUNK BITCH ASS CRY BABY WHINING TO ME….YOUR FUCKED OFF EFFORTS WERE FUTITLE!!!
Yo, Mr Married Man…Yea…You….Lemme Also Enlighten You!!!
so mr married man…..HOW DOES IT FEEL ABOUT RIGHT NOW???12:03 NOON SATURDAY…11-2 HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE PUT OFF, IGNORED NOT FIRST, NOT SECOND,….NOT EVEN TENTH RIGHT NOW??? HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL???!!! JUST REMEMBERR WHAT YOU TOLD ME…WHAT YOU WANTED….YOU WANTED NO EMOTION…THIS IS WHAT NO EMOTION FOR ME IS….IM GIVING YOU EXACTLY WHAT TYOU WANTED!!! HOW DOES IT FUCKING FEEL NOW????? YOU HAVNET EARNED YORU KEEP…AND AFTER LAST WEEKNED, ….DO YOU REALLY THINK I WANNA KEEP THAT AROUND…I GOT MY DICK…WTF??? HUH??? USE MEEE…WANT IT ALL FREEE MAKE ME ALL THE WORK AND THROW YOUR BLAME ON ME. TWITSTING THAT SHIT ON ME…HUH…GO POUT OK…CUZ HERES A DOSE OF YOUR OWN MEDICINE YOU GAVE TO ME! HOW DO YOU LIKE IT??/ UMMM IT DOESNT FEEL SO GOOD NOW DOES IT??? HMMM
YOU MEN IVE TOLD YOU TIME AND TIME AGAIN…WHE NYOU MET ME YOU MET YOUR FUCKING MATCH…AND JSUT HOW STUPID CAN REALLY GET, CAUSE GET WHAT? I CAN BE JUST THAT FUCKING STUPID TOO AND THEN SUM…IM THAT HARD HEADED AND STUBBORN AND FUCKING STRON FUCING WILLED!!!
SO HOW DO YALL LIKE MICHELLES FUCK FUCK GAME?????
Just What Exactly Do You “THINK” You Shown ME???!!!!
AGAIN LET ME ENLIGHTEN YOU….
- you do not know how to read
- you cost me money,
- you make me lose fucking money
- you take my money,
- you will let a bitch starve and be homeless while your jerk off to her shit without a consious
- you love to manipulte and twist THE TRUTH WHEN THE TRUTH NEVER FUCKING WAIVERS
- talk shit about a sex worker, then you post up in her bed, costing her money, while your lazy asss cant get it up…or get a fucking job, make her pay all of your bills. let her go hungry, and sttill have your fucking hand out..not a hand “UP”, YOUR HAND OUT, TAKING THAT VERY MONEY YOU HAD TALKED ALL KINDS OF SHIT ABOUT HOW SHE MADE IT…WITH YOU HAND OUT WITHTOUT A CONSIOUCOUS
- YOU CANT FUCK ,,,GET EVEN GET IT UP…(wait a minute…it’s coming….i understand that age thang ok…hold on)
- so when “stuff” happnes and it is…you dont remember how to use a finger then (told you it was coming) you cant even “make do”
- dont know how to eat pussy,
- or dont even fucking care to worry about your partner, stick it in dry and just gett off…smh
- dont pick up after your self
- …..oh lord here we go….SO FUCKINGN HIGH MAINTANCED..OHHH MY FREAKING GOD!! WANTS MOMENY TO HOLD HIS HAND FOR EVERYTHING,
- WANTS MOMMY TO HOLD HIS LIL PENIS AND AIM IT FOR HIM SO THAT HE CAN HIT THE FUCKING CHERRIO IN THE TOLIET INSTEAD OF PISSING ALL MY FUCKING FLOOR AND MY FUCKING TOLIET (BTW THATS A PET PEEVE OF MINE)
- NOT A NARE FUCKING ONE OF YOU IS TO BE TRUSTED! YOUVE SHOWN NOTHING BUT THEOPPOSITE…(REMEMBERR OPPOSITE DAY IS EVERYTDAY FOR YOU MEN RIGHT)
- YOU WILL STOP AT NOTHING TO GET EXACTLY WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT AND HURT ANYONE DOING IT AND NOT GIVE A FLAT FUCK WHO OR WHAT OR HOW OR WHY JUST AS LONG AS YOU GET IT…
- DISRESPECTFUL, INCONSIDERATIE, BOUNDARY PUSHERS…..
- YOU FUCKING ARE THE MOST FUCKED LIL BITTY CRY BABIES I’VE EVER HEARD IN MY LIFE…OMG YOU KILL WITH ME THAT SHIT!!! I SWEAR TO GOD I’VE NEVER HEARD MEN WHINE LIKE I HAVE THRU WORK IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!! YOU WHINE WORSE THAN FUCKING WOMEN ON THE RAG FOR 6 MONTHS FUCKING STRAIGHT OMG THAT KILLS ME !! URGHHH!!!
- NO RESPONSIBITIES YOU MAKE OTHER RESPONSIBLIE FOR YOUR ACTIONS…AND YOU THINK YOUR GETTING MY PONE NUMBER???? “HUHHHH??“
LOOK THE LIST IS JUST TOO LONG,,,IM KINDA TIRED OF POINTING MY FINGERS AT YOU…AND TYPING I’VE BEEN TYPING FOR A DAY AND A HALF NOW..YES I DID SAY A DAY AND A HALF…
HERES WHAT IM GONNA MAKE VERY FUCKING CLEAR TO YOU, WHILE YOU ARE TO DAMMN BUSY POINTING YOUR FUCKING FINGERS AT MEEEE….YOU BETTER LOOK IN THAT FUCKING MIRROR BEFORE YOU DO…
WHOA, I NEED MY HIP WADDERS, CUZ IT JUST GOT DEEP
Mr married man, …JUST SHOWED ME THAT HIS FINGERS ARE NOT BROKEN AND HE KNOWS HOW TO FUCKING DIAL A PHONE NUMBER,,,,,,YOOOOOOO LMAO…WOWOWOWWOOWOW YOU LOST SIGHT OF WHY I LOVED YOU, WHEN YOU CALLED AN HR AND HALF AGO, YEA…THAT WILL BE THE LAST TIME I ALLOW YOU TO HURT ME…CUZ YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID, YOU JUST SHOWED AND PROVED TO ME JUST HOW IMPORTANT IVE REALLY BEEN IN YOUR LIFE…AND JUST HOW IMPORTANT I MADE YOU IN MY LIFE. I GAVE YOU MY UNCONDITIONAL LOVE SIMPLY FOR THESE REASONS…YOU HAD SHOWN ME RESPECT, DIGNITY, CARE YOU SHOWED ME SOMETHING DIFFERENT THAN THE MONSTERS HAVE SHOWN ME WHILE WORKING, YOU WERE MY LAST HOPE FOR MEN, NOT ONLY MEN, BUT FOR HUMAN KIND JSUT IN ITSELF.
WHILE YOU WERE TO DAMN BUSY LIEING TO YOUR FUCKING SELF TRYIGN TO CON YOURSELF OUT THE TRUTH ….YOUR TRUTH ….NOT MINE…YOUR TRUTH….YOU LOST SIGHT OF WHY I ACTUALLY LOVED YOU…YOU HAVE NOW CONVINCED, THAT PERSON NO LONGER LIVES THIERE IN THAT HEART, CAUSE YOU LOST SIGHT AND PLACED THAT VEIL THAT I TOOK OFF YOUR EYES, RIGHT BACK ON THOSE EYES,
HERES THE TRUTH, IT NEVER WAIVERS, IT DOESNT CHANGE..NEVER…. YOU FOUND YOURSELF STUCK, I’VE BEEN THERE BUT NOT FOR 20 YRS …NOT VERY LONG AT ALL…SEE HERE IT IS…YOU COULD NOT DEAL WITH YOUR TRUTH…YOU FOUGHT YOUR TRUTH…NOT MY TRUTH…YOUR TRUTH…AND BECAUSE OF THAT, YOU MADE IT MY THRUTH…YOU KEPT IT UP ABOUT MY JOB “WELL IF YOU GOT OUT YOU WOULDNT BE TREATED LIKE THAT” THATS A BOLD FACE FUCKING LIE, IVE BEEN TREATED LIKE THAT ALL MY LIFE, OUT OF SEX WORK! THAT WS YOU LIEING TO YOUR SELF AGAIN, CUZ YOU COLDNT OWN UP TO YOUR TRUTTH!! SO MUCH SO YOU MADE IT MY PROBLEM MY TRUTH AND YOUR BEHAVIOURS ..CHANGED…YOU BECAME THAT VERY MONSTER THAT WORK BECAME TO ME. YOU LOST SIGHT OF WHY I ACTUALLY LOVED YOU…THIS IS NOT MINE TO FUCKIGN OWN!!! THAT IS THE TRUTH…ONE MORE TIME I CALLED YOU OUT DIDNT I AND YOU NEVER LIKED ME DOING THAT…WELL…WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I SUGAR COAT TO YALL WHEN YOU DONT SUGAR COAT TO ME??!!! NOT GONNA HAPPEN
I need to ask YOU MEN A QUESTION….IF A WOMAN HAD THAT LIST…..
JUST WHAT THE FUCK WOULD YOU GROUP OF MEN BE SAYING…AND SEE SEE…YOU CANT LIE TO ME ABOUT THAT ANSWER LMAO SEE I KNOOOOOO THAT ANSWER…REMEMBER IVE ALWAYS BEEN “ONE OF THE GUYS” I KNOW WHAT YOU TALK ABOUT…NOT ONLY THAT BUT IVE BEEN TOLD ….
“EARN YOUR FUCKING KEEP BITCH AND STAY IN YOUR PLACE!”
HMMM AND IM CURIOUS WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU HAVE TO OFFER ME THAT MAKES YOU WORTH KEEPING AROUND??? THE ONLY THING IVE SEEN YOU GOOD FOR IS HURTING ME….HMMM,, SO IM GONNA TELL YOU THE EXACT SAME FUCKING THING…EARN YOUR FUCKING KEEP BITCH!!!!
I STayed humble, i turned my bruised beat up cheeks many o times, i stayed HUMBLE WHILE I ALLOWED YOU TO TAKE FOOD OUT OF MY HANDS, UNDERSTAND WHAT I JUST SAID, ….I STAYED HUMBLE WHILE I ALLOWED YU TO THINK YOU WERE BEING SNEAKY I ALLOWED YOU TO PLAY SNEAKY TAKING THE VERY FOOD OUT OF MY HANDS! I GOT UP EVERY FUCKING MORING AND GOT ON TWITTER AND LOOKED MY ABUSERS AND PREDATORS IN THE FUCKING FACES AND DEAD SQUARE IN THE EYES…AND SAID” “GOOD MORNING EVERYONE , HOW ARE YOU TODAY?”
I TOLD YOU WHEN I SPEAK, IM TO BE HEARD, THAT WHEN I SPEAK I SPEAK IN VOLUMES I HAVE LED BY EXAMPLE BEING HUMBLE…IMVE SWALLOWED YALLS SHIT THAT THREW DOWN MY THROAT LONG E FUCKING NUFF, I DONT WANT YOUR SHIT TO EAT ANYMORE!! YOU EAT IT, ITS YOURS TO EAT!!!
ONE LAST TIME IM GOING TO RE INTRODUCE MYSELF
I AM MICHELLE, I AM THE MICHELLE THAT I WAS BEFORE ASHTON FUCKED ME TOO,, I AM THAT MICHELLE IVE BEEN WARNING ABOUT I AM THE MICHELLE THAT YOU HAVE FORCED ME TO BECOME ONCE AGIAN…HOPE YOU ENJOY THAT MICHELLE. DONT FUCKING TEST THESE WATERS I WILL COME BACK TO BITE YOU ONE YOUR ASS WHILE IM BACKING UP MY FUCKING ASS I HOPE YOU NOW FUCKING UNDERSTAND THEE WORDS
IVE BEEN TELLING YOU ALL OF YOU ABOUT YOUR SELVES FOR 36 HRS NOW…
NOW IM TRULY DONE…..#DROPMIC *WALKS OFF*
I’m just giving you the heads-up cuz yesterday did something for me You notice that I just said FOR ME
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The wall of shame
Whipping post 1: work and personal
Whipping post 2: personal
Todays lesson: womens orgasms
Tis The Season: As The Insults Get Worse
A free spirit that longs to fly again
Lets get this untwisted
Its actually pretty simply really
The reasons why I no longer answering direct messages on social media
Mens logic is just not logical
Going back to basics lets go
Behind the scenes updates
New tumblr blog and about moving
Attn all hagglers, low ballers, barters, time wasters, entitled incels etc
“hey yall watch dis!” cajun style
….just here ya go….
Oct happenings part 2
Oct happenings part 1 sex work and mental health
Lets go on a journey
When your screamns for help are not heard or taken seriously
Healing from ptds/cptsd
All about comples ptsd
Where do I fit in, in my own business…just my mouth????
Who am I part 1
Right responisiblities and oath page
The original ground rules page
What it means to let go
Stds and sex work
New beginnings giving updates
The disappearnce of porn is not just our problem
Do yourselves a favor, just don’t do it part 1
This is what im doing
I want “me” back
Need to write
The never ending battle of wills
Midwest vs cajun he got cajunified!
Website updates 9-22
Free slave labor: why sex workers need decrim
The reasons for my verification process
My vent my rant
To amend to right an end
Understanding the basics of energy’
Cant see till you see parts 1-3
Escorting, porn, business formation and the law, what you don’t know
Making an offical statement
Yourve never been all alone until you filled my shoes
To fight and rise against all odds: those that wanted to see me fail part 2
When given the chance and enough rope part 1..goes with the one above
Having fear and distrust from pain
Sept happenings part 2 MY safety security and privacy
..and…then it all crashed down on me part part 1 and 2
To give me back life
August happenings : getting you preapred
Time for a reality check
Psa: about the rate increase
Are you being labeled as a time waster (was trying to put it nicely)
When giving your all is NOT ENOUGH
HOW DARE SHE
Its all in your approach
BEING AN EMPATH REVISED
July site news
An update for what I have planned
Taking on a serious endeavor
My name, my business my ass
Buying and selling references secrurity alert
Temp back paralysi reason 1
Somebidy that isnt somebody that isnt anybody: just a fictious name
Living in glass house and behind smoking mirrors
When boundaries arent respected and lines are crossed
My back explained
Whata a dick pic means to me (impressing me by catching a fish with you dick by a fishing rod….yea that one lol)
The oral specialist experrience (that was about answering to you and proving myself ..in reality)
Is your game on point (another one I was trying to be nice about)
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