Seeing The Value Of Life Through The Eyes Of An Outsider

Upon writing the blog “BDSM 101: Know Your Craft” When I had asked a friend of what he thought about the blog and how I wrote it, it led him to wonder this about me:

“So can I ask why you are putting yourself out like this?  …I worry people will try to use it against you. Just curious and want you to know what my first reaction was.”  

With that question asked above it has led to me adding in what is below:

to those of you who have openingly expressed to me:

You ask why I am like I am, and you wonder out loud to me why I do things the way I do them and why I have so many rules

So this is what came to mind in how I’m going to answer all of you that has ask me these kinds of questions, within this blog … But in order for you to grasp my answer to you, I want to take you out of the box for a little while. And since I’ve started this series on BDSM, this will be written within the concept of BDSM, With that concept Let’s your EXAND YOUR LIMITS, AND TAKE YOU OUT OF YOUR LITTLE COMFY ZONE FOR A LITTLE WHILE

…….For starters, I’m gonna tell you a story, something i haven’t spoken out loud to anyone about with the exception of a select few…..this is how I’m going to tell it…….


My Sight I Lend To Thee,

Considering I have been forced to walk in the darkness having no sight to see once before, I kinda don’t mind lending you my sight to see for a little while. For I no longer fear being in the darkness 

In order for you to fully grasp and understand, I am only doing the same thing that was done for me…… The Devil thought he to be clever as he stole my eyes from me! Made me fall flat on my face, what the devil didn’t realize, as he was boosting in pride in his self conned cleverness. As I was being dazed and confused, as I tried to rub the blurry sight that I had started to see away from my eyes. Being in that blurred state of confusion as I tried to steady myself. It was then that evil laugh I heard, as I leaned to grab the recline, As my face said hello to the bare floor, the laugh I heard more high pitched than just a few seconds before. Ya see, the devil thought that he had a brownie point up on me……and THAT’S EXACTLY WHERE HE WENT WRONG. he was thinking!!!!!

Unbeknowest to me, I had a friend looking out for me, and with in a split second, my sight TOOK FLIGHT!!! Shocked as could be, I was also blessed to be out and flying free. From the sight in flight, the side vision I couldn’t understand, then it was like a voice whispered in my ear that my savior friend was an owl watching over me!

Be in disbelief if you may, but it was the hands of my youngest son, Ashton who had helped me to my feet and can attest to this story!!!  Old enough to know and remember what was experienced and witnessed!!!!! As this was only just a few short years ago!!!!! So you see, very literally….I am only doing and giving back that which was given to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So With This gift I give to you, my sight that you may see from a different angle, in hopes that you begin to find the answers to the questions of which you seek. But let’s some do practicing, with this morning’s writing in mind. So your mind’s eye and perception should NOT be “on the inside, looking out”

For the eyes that you are borrowing, they can not see from that angle, It doesn’t exist at that angle, The only sight that is seen from the gifted eyes that you are given just for a little while can only see from the angle “of being on the outside, looking inside”

So within this writing, the answers you see I have given, have been copied and pasted, spoken the answers given the one that came to me with question….

You have to understand it’s always this so difficult for me to try to explain to anyone that’s who I am and why I am like I am you know I’m weird and different you know I’m not the norm the average person what makes me who I am there’s so many aspects of me it’s hard for me to explain always forever trying to have somebody one person in my life just to understand me and that I have not come to terms with yet accepting that I will never be understood

Secondly the dangers that are involved the importance of knowing the information and the amount of  misconceptions and the misinformation that is out there  is very fucking dangerous. and each time somebody makes the comment to me and was just mentioned the other day can I control you can I have control over you they do not know what this means and they’re taking what the beauty of this life is and twisting it into a predators fucking abusive ways and since the old life the old guard ways is dying out somebody needs to teach it

you have to understazand, im now 48 yrs old, i have lived my whole entire life, not being accepted, understood, shunned, being the outcast, fucked with and picked on my whole life, for once in my life before i die, it would be nice to actuallly BE UNDERSTAND AND ACCEPTED THE AMOUNT OF PAIN I LIVE WITH BECAUSE MY FAMILY …YOU AND NO ONE ELSE COULD EVER KNOW WHAT THAT ACTUALLY FEELS LIKE I PROMISE YOU

It’s important for you to know what my friend’s next comments, being that literally every one of you and through out my life this is exactly word for word what I always hear. ALL OF MY LIFE, THESE IS EXACTLY THE WORDS FROM EACH AND EVERY PERSON….

“I get you. Thanks for explaining that to me. I know when you talk about it it hurts. Painful remind....You’re still one of the strongest people I know….And craziest!

‘When you are left to be all alone and on your own, YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO FIND STRENGTH AND when you are left with nothing but the thoughts and the darkness that is your mind, you can not expect anything less than the craziness that your mind has made you to be think about it

expecting a lone wolf to be as the pack of wolves when that wolf has never been part of a pack and seeing insanity in what that wolf only knows to be sane…..is looked at as insanity in itself

why is there judgement on something that is only known because simply being raised with no pack????

and why in the hell is diversity seen as adversity???????

THE ONLY reason why humans  gave names like insanity and craziness….is only because it wasnt understood!!!!!!!!!!

CAN’T SEE TILL YOU CAN SEE” WHICH UNFORTUNATELY ALWAYS IS …..”HIND SIGHT BEING 20/20″

With this last quote that was spoken to him, The comment from him was “well said” What he wasn’t able to grasp is that FOR ME, IT WASN’T JUST A QUOTE , THIS HAD BEEN A LIFE LESSON, AND A VERY HARD LIFE LESSON FOR ME IT WAS!!! And In order for you to FULLY GRASP THIS LIFE’S LESSON i HAD LEARNED, I’m gonna bring to you my reality

thank you ….its called understanding why humans the feel to judge others, and that is ONLY BECAUSE HUMANS CAN NOT ACCEPT THEIR OWN IMPERFECTIONS, WHICH IS THE FUNDAMENTALS OF BDSM!!!

IN THE bdsm world the saying “my kink may not be your kink but it is all still kink” you must not pass judgement when you are in such an altertantive lifestyle that is about diveristy!!!

you can judge when your the smack dab in the middle of diveristy

thats called being a hypercrite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and which is the reason behind me not going to actual churchs is that very reason

my mother is best at it! catholics are best at it!

“Do NOT do as I do, Do as I say…..”??????”

Oh Really????? You like playing “opposite day” EVERY DAY, don’t you?????

As my friend agreed with me on that, he also pondered the words that flowed from m So I gave him more to ponder on.

now see, now that ive made these points im not so damn crazy after all huh

exactly but it is the main stream society

those that which can not ACCEPT WHAT THEY SEE IN THE MIRROR, and is VERY REASON WHY IM HATED SO MUCH INSTANTLY. It’s called “The Mirror Effort”

BECAUSE AS AN EMPATH, i am the exact mirror image of who you are..think about it ive been saying that this whole time

i have been made in the very mirror image of how you treat others ….but yet, im still the bad person cause those ppl can not accept their REAL TRUTHS…ALL COMES DOWN TO ….BDSM….IT ALL T IES TOGETHER, SPIRITUALITY AND SEXUALITY Aand when ppl can start to accept those are ONE IN THE SAME you will start to then grasp the REAL DYNAMIC OF BDSM

in all reality …its all very simple logic…..it is that of humans that can not help themselves its in the human nature to believe and make things to be more complicated than things actually are…if you grasp the universe and its simplicity within the complexity of the universe, you can start to clearly see if you go “with the grain” of what the universal laws are….things are very simplified…but “go against the grain” of the universal laws..you will get nothing but completxity think about it , my only company is myself, i was made and forced to look at myself and only myself i made and forced brutal realities you have to embrace yourself…that means ALL OF YOURSELF, NOT just some of your self

Is it that you feel like you are God, and you are entitled with the title of God to do such a huge job as His, and judge that of another?????

Aren’t we supposed to “Love Thy Neightbor?”

Is passing judgement what “Love” means to you?

Why do you cast the first stone, while you live in Glass Houses????

Here’s quite a few things to ponder on; Wasn’t it lucifer who God had cast out of Heaven and cast in to hell for this same reason??? lucifer thought himself to be superior over God????? How is it that you can pass judgement, preach the word of God, Christianity, and Religion? You are preaching by the tongue of the devil himself!!!!

Again, I ask you….Is it that you feel like you are God and that you are entitled to judge and cast out just because …wellll…just because ….

just because you just want to??? for any and all reasons that you can and may find??? Hell, looking for reasons to be God and TAKE ON AND DO SUCH A JOB AS GOD’S????

Wasn’t it God that has the Title therefore being entitled to “cast” lucifer out of Heaven and “cast” him into hell??? From what I was taught, God is the ONLY ONE THAT HAS ANY RIGHT TO CAST ANY TO THE SIDE,

You even twist the words of God Himself to con….in the “middle arranging outcomes”

Call me crazy if you may, “I can not control another, I can ONLY control myself”

By calling me crazy and telling me I’m ugly….Here’s what I see in you, ….

I SEE STRAIGHT THROUGH YOU, I SEE ….THE DEVIL HIMSELF…CONSIDERING, WE HAVE GONE ‘ROUND AND ‘ROUND ALL OF MY LIFE!!! STILL STICKING TO THE SAME OLE TRICKERY, ONLY TRICKING HIMSELF!

Seems to me, the only person who you have conned, is ONLY YOURSELVES.

Story Time….

Ya see, it was by the world’s default that I’ve never had the snow ball’s chance in hell, by world’s default, …oh and YES, pun IS intended. By the world’s default, I was kicked out of hell when I was born!!! And to know the paradox within this irony, that is seen. I can not help the sly crooked wicked grin that is now on my face.

Though she would never admit, I always knew. I was not the children of her second husband. Even though, different name had been given, truth has always stared my mother in her face, Wtih having the exact same image of her. As a teen In stores, we were seen as sisters, and had not been for the difference in age, her twin i could’ve been.

Her the Lion, and me the Goat, FOREVER AND A DAY, we had butted heads. She never understood what the stars in the zodiac was trying to tell us. And while both of us stood, in our hard headed, strong willed, determinded state. She too, had passed judgement in her hypocrisy, But what she judged was a troubled teen at the age of 14. And more again as I became “a woman child” even more troubled than before, as I had went abroad and met my real dad, becoming his wife child in reality. A woman child, wife child losing custody of her child. during that age. And truth be known, 10 days into being the age of 19, it was by the fist and punches of a man, as i was held to the wall by hand around my throat, with these exacts words did he threatened me, telling me he was going to deskin me and pour clorex over me, cause I was not worth the piss he made! He too swore, I would not have that child to be, that came true in the realization came when i miscarried at 8 weeks, my baby being 6 weeks. See, what she never understood, the pain I caused in my self destructive states, as I punished myself, as others punished me. Ya see, beling left all to my own, never have I been understood,I was I too, tried to bend the truth and twist the pain away. And from the twisted darkness within my mind, a freak a true freak was born, it was from those dark twists how the freak in me came to be.

See things for what they REALLY are,

NOT what YOU WANT TO SEE!!!

TRUTH IS NOT MY TRUTH, NOR YOUR TRUTH, IT IS “THE TRUTH”

“IT IS WHAT IT IS”

She was always telling me I needed help to fix what was broken in me, and picking up where I left off in the blog before thee, with that sled ride down the hill while in Indiana, when I allowed my life to be in irresponisble hands, did I make the promise that she PUSHED UNTO ME, to have the evil devil that “was supposed to be inside” be excorised and taken out of me. it was 17 years in the diocese that she worked. With the intent on keeping to my promise made, when she sent $200 to come home and get fixed. As she hid the truth about the money she slid to me as she pushed the ultimatium onto me. A retired priest is who I spoke with, retired and couldnt “sign a document” that would hold stating was exorcsied being deemed and clean and pure in the catholics eyes once again. that thre were both a male and female priest (priestess).

(2-11-2020 8:27 pm, i’ve waited to write this last cause you should know, it’s not easy for me to speak about my pain so to finish the sentence from above and this story of my life that’s filled with nothing but hurt and pain)….From what the retired priest had told, I was expected to RE FORGIVE EVERYONE THAT I HAD FORGIVEN, I was also going to be expected to tell this retired priest, in front of a young priest and what the catholic church refuses to see “as is” a young “priestess” (feminine divine) all of my sexual partners that I have had in my life.. Welp that’s when I told the retired priest, “Good night and hung up the phone as I thanked him for taking the time to explain to me what the catholics saw as what was important when it comes to demonology!!!!!!!!!!!!

And just so that you know, my 9th grade term paper, for the end of the year final grade, I was 15, when I wrote my report ON DEMONOLOGY!!!! In the 10th grade for my end of the report written, was on the Shroud of Turin! I just kinda threw the last sentence in here for you as lagniappe, meaning extra, just so you can see,the age and the knowledge that i posses, the pattern I’m showing you. (if you are curious and want the gaps of my life filled in completely, click here and read.)

You see, for me to give someone a list of names that this retired priest told me that was required,my list started at the age of 7!!! And with my dark twisted mind that made me into the TRUE freak that i am, which made the TRUE slut…ummm there is no way i can remember any of this being that, my numbers are anywhere from 2000 to 4000, and i would be more than likely to guess, its closure to the higher number, maybe, i dunno have no clue. Secondly, ummm THE MEANING OF HAVING TO RE-FORGIVE, when i left just all of my pain in the hole that I had dug and buried in the Smokey Mountains, while I was living in Tenn. to BACK TRACK AND RE FORGIVE??? to have to go back and RELIVE AGAIN WHAT I HAD JUST RE LIVED, THAT I COULD NOT DO, THAT WAS PAINFUL TO ACTUALLY REALLY GO THROUGH, I HAD JUST DONE THAT, I was way ahead of her in what she was thinking….so with this, i had made a consious desicison for the first time in my life, i consciously broke my word and promise ON PURPOSE. that wasnt easy for me to do. i always kinda figured that this retired priest, my mother had conditioned over the years working for the dioceses.

To know now, that there would be such irony with what i’m about to tell, wow…when I left home, i went to live in Pa, Lord what a mess that was. An alcoholic that was major bi polar, come to find out, wow, what my mother had thought to be in me, was the FIRST THING THAT I WAS FACED WITH AS LOOKED EYE TO EYE TO THE DEMON, THE LEGION INSIDE OF ANOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!! I found myself, with the help of my Mentor, I actually did and went through doing an excorism, How ironic was that???? my mother has judged me to have a demon inside me, that I DO NOT, turned around just a few months after that happened and did an excorsim…..see….i was judged by someone’s thoughts, beliefs, and what they saw on the surface and CAST ME ASIDE, TOLD ME IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH, LEFT ME ALONE, THREW ME AWAY…BUT SHE JUDGED WAS WRONG

Ya see, I’ve lived my life being made to prove my worth, putting me though hoops for the worlds fun, only to be judged, and like last year, i was deemed to be in hell still being on this earth. When the fun for everyone is over, or can’t handle me anymore, it’s always been that i was cast out not being worthy in the worlds eyes. Again, left to be all alone, making me to bleive that sometihng was wrong with me, and that i was it rightly mine that i held your accountability, that i was not good enough to have someone special to me, as this dark pain inside, eats me whole fighting the loniness i alwasy feel, fighting the death you as the world have caused on the inside.

With looking back through out my life, in reality the only thing that is really wrong with me, is i was different by society’s defaults and then judged by what was seen in me after kicked down and fucked over so many times….seems like there’s really nothing wrong with me, im not sick, i dont have a demon in me, ummm ya know all this that you all as society has thrown at me, it’s not me….

Do you know what’s lesson’s in this story that i have just taught???

It would be wrong of me, to let you ponder and think on what i’ve just taught, understanding the depth and the complexity of it, leaving you to wonder, and speculate on your own, is exactly the reason why us as humans are in this mess that we are in today!!! so here’s the answers:

We Are Governed By Two Different Set of Laws…Acutally There’s Three Set of Laws

The Law of The Land: the laws that we as humans see as to be truth and fact and therefore make into law and the differences..here’s an example ….My cousin in law made the comment one time, that she was the highest paid whore that was that she knew around the vicienty of where she lived, and she was in all actuality, being that my cousin, the carpet store he worked for before he bought of fanchise. His bounses were capped off at a million per year! but she was married…so by the law of the Land, she wasn’t a whore, she was married! To understand that WE ALL SELL OURSELVES IN ONE WAY OR THE OTHER AND JUST BECAUSE WHAT THE LAWS SAY IS RIGHT OR WRONG, IT STILL IS!!!…. IT MAKES NO DIFFERENCE IS REALITY, it doesn’t make one person better than the next! …NOT WHEN IT STILL IS!! State Laws are always changing, to adapt,

The Law of The Church: to understand, the catholics believe that the pentacle is a devil worshipping sign! and is the very reason that my mother swore up and down that i was following the devil and that i had one inside of me! Only because the pentacle that I wore, slipped out of shirt where i hid one day as I bent down to pick up something and she saw it when it came it out my shirt….the pentacle has NO MEANNG OF THE WHAT THE CHURCH TEACHES WHAT SO EVER, To know the five points of the pentacle are: the top of the star, AKASHA OR SOUL/SPIRIT, EARTH, WATER, FIRE AND AIR!!!! ALL OF WHAT WE AS HUMANS NEED TO LIVE IN THIS PHYSICAL REALM!!!

to go into more depth the words like “church” or “religion” is part of the law of the land,Case in point, my mother, reads the gospel readings during mass, and as well as worked i think a total of 20 years, i think in the dicoses, but yet, she had no clue about who Litlth was. NONE and we actually had a big arugment of this knowledge! seriously. She had no idea that Litlth was Adams first wife, because theres only two sentences that give reference to who Lilith was in the Bible, located in the very beginning of Genesis, and i never been good at remembering to quote things like this, and telling what verses they’re located, its the very first couple of pages in the Bible. Here is the point: what is FACTUAL and TRUTH and WHAT THE CHURCH HAS TAUGHT US TO BE TRUTH…are very two different things

The Law of the Cosmos/Akasha/Soul/Primal/Prana/The Etheric or Spritual Plane: (more specifically the Universal Laws or the Laws of the Universe): In all of my studies and research in Mythology and Religions, there’s only less than a handful of religions that I haven’t studied. for example Islam i have not studied ok..just so you grasp. To have a broad specturm and understanding that taken each mythology and relgion that i have studied, there were some things in the stories written that was the same, no matter how it is worded or taught, The two main stories that I saw right off the top of my head that were the same was the Virgin Mary and Baby Jesus born but the one I want to speak about is what we know as the Ten Commandments… and i’m gonna show you what I mean…

Seeing Thru My Eyes, Having The Gift of Sight

Again that’s right you are I’ve given you the gift of my sight oh well I forgot let’s go even further in depth of what I see an understanding the eyes I look through

With the gift of sight that was given to me it was 6 years ago on Samhain/ Halloween a vision was seen. And very honestly it scares the shit out of me. Because I look around and I see exactly what is coming to be in the vision given to me. And it’s by the wool that has been pulled over your eyes that greatly saddens me because you think I am nobody and have been cast out and therefore won’t hear the words I speak to warn you about what’s to come that is already here. You won’t heed my warnings and believe the words I speak because they are not understanding to you and therefore you judge me to be crazy. But remember you are seeing through enlightened eyes. The only way I can explain what I had seen in a flicker that day comes in the form of Terminator is the only way I can explain. As you look around in my eyes look like what Amazon’s artificial intelligence now can sense emotions, ALL the emotions. Look at the facial recognition that is being talked about today robots artificial intelligence governed by the state controlled BY humans wanting power and to control. By people who have no concept of what control and power really is. What’s going to come to be very soon matter-of-factly its destruction in a way there is no home and by the fire in the streets there will be, uncontained and rampant. The only fire I saw contained was at night in a barrell for warmth. No food going hungry this is what life as we know become. Terminator kind of funny and scary the fact there’s a new Terminator movie out. I cannot watch I can’t even see the commercials without freaking out from the vision I was given and believe me in the flicker that I saw literally scares the shit out of me this is the first time in detail I’ve expressed when I’ve seen.   EVER!!!

Colletarl Damage

In my life I’ve been made to pay for others and it was fine others mistakes wrongdoings and not wanting to take accountability that I have had to pay my whole life for everybody else’s fuk UPS they don’t want to pay for I have had my own share of own four cups that I have had to face and pay for I cannot pay Norton I’m willing to be paying extra for other lives but my own. My mother decided to disown me because she did not understand and neither one of us could force the what I went through in Pennsylvania and her misunderstandings and her teachings in the church she judged me and in reality they strengthen my spiritual self and what she thought to be true they need collateral damage she blamed my my breaking the promise I made on her keeping from her husband the $200 she sent me the only difference that my promise would have made was having the motivation to keep it silent and not let it be known she go even further with collateral damage my sister blames me that she had to pay the $200 for my mother’s not being truthful to my dad I thought the $200. All because my mother told me I was broke and needed to be fixed because the way she was taught it looked a hard that I had a devil inside me. So therefore if I didn’t get the devil out of me and I wouldn’t go get fixed poet a priest with sign into dimming that I’m purified and cleaned. Therefore I was cast out cast aside my favorite aunt jumped away from me at my grandma’s funeral literally scared of me my favorite aunt. All because the church teaches

The church teaches: The WAY OF THE OLD ARE DEVISH WAYS…

let me point out the words I speak the ways of the old…BDSM THE OLD GUARD WAYS! The core of BDSM…of Life and the Universe, It’s ALL THE SAME, IT NEVER CHANGES IT NEVER WAIVERS, THE DYNAMIC STILL STAYS THE SAME!

You look through my eyes the eyes have an outsider there’s one question that’s going to be asked that will come to you and it will be what have I done to you to hurt me like you have. I promise you the amount of pain I feel in the depth of my soul that it kills in a split-second and looking through my eyes it should humble the fuck out of you. To see what is about to come when is actually here would humans refuse to see when you look around in a room and know that you see two different realms is seeing through my eyes. I have literally in Pennsylvania experience being so far on the spiritual realm that I knew that the items in my apartment I recognized I knew but you feeling to touch them with a sensation ice I still can’t try to explain because it is unexplainable I knew that I was touching my dresser but it is different it was not recognized as a dresser it was shadowing scene I guess be yet even in its shadows I saw more clearly unexplainable like I said but I’ve experienced it.

Crazy the word crazy when my son at 7 years old decided to show me that his natural gift was the gift of astral projection out of body experiences the l word to explain that obe my son I had to tell him that when he went to mental health that when I took him to the doctor to never speak about this he was already on Adderall. And I had to teach him the hand signal that if we were around others in public somewhere that to touch his temple with his fingers to tell me something that humans and nature I would think to be crazy said that if he saw a spirit or was aware of things that enlightenment or aware of that he and he could tell me and not be scrutinized.

If you wanted me to be weak, why did you leave all alone to be strong *important to know* it’s been the most hurtful to me

you have no idea the stinging slap in the face that is felt when said to me, “you are teh strongest person I know” You have no idea that pain that wells up that comes with the knot in my throat when i read those words said to me, “you are the strongest person I know” and “your strong, you can handle it, you can’t anything” When those words are spoken to me, THAT ONLY TELLS ME, THAT ONE MORE TIME TO BRACE MYSELF AGAIN, TO PREPARE AS THE KNOT THRAOT, FORMS ANOTHER IN THE PIT OF MY STOMACH, KNOWING ILL BE LEFT TO BE ALL ALONE AND THAT I HAVE FIGHT AND STRUGGLE IN MY LONELINESS ALONE ALL TO MYSELF AND MY WICKED MIND THAT I HAVE ANY COMPANY WITH ME.

BEING FORCED INTO THE STRENGTH YOU SEE IN ME, WHEN THE ONLY THING THAT I WISH MOST FOR IN THIS WORLD IS TO BE ABLE TO LET MY SHOULDERS GO AND DROP, AND TO JUST FALL AND FOR ONCE HAVE SOMEONE CATCH MY STUMBLE AND FALL, WITH STRONG ARMS I CAN TRUST THAT WONT TAKE ADVANTAGE TO VIOLATE AND RAPE MY BODY WHILE BEING WEAK ….IN MY LETTING GO STATE.

there’s ONLY ONE thing left in my left that i claim and hold very dear to me. the lifestyle of bdsm, and what the meaning of bdsm holds, the very core and value of this life, is the only hope in my life left to me!!!! and how dare for anyone to claim this life of bdsm and disgrace it as i have been disgraced. With popularity as this life brings, With some many that are seeking Power and gaining that power by contoling another human being. To know that all you seek is the predator hunt, and NOT THE REAL LIFE WITHIN TURNS MY STOMACH INTO ROLLER COASTERS.

Knowing what power and control really means

Because you see, if you REALLY KNEW WHERE THE POWER LIES, WHAT HAVING POWER TRULY IS, IF YOU UNDERSTAND POWER IN ITSELF,

YOU WOULD ALREADY KNOW THEREFORE NOT EVEN BE MENTIONED, HAVING TRUE POWER IS FROM WITHIN, TO UNDERSTAND WHAT MAKES THAT POWER IN ORDER FOR YOU TO BE POWERFUL

You MUST know the devil has played his same ole trickery, pulled the wool over you eyes, being blinded and can’t see, covering your ears. It is this blindness and deaf that has caused this treachery, as you preach by the tongue of lucifer.

Follow in Society’s Ways, you will ONLY fall with Society

TRUE POWER, is for example, those that came in my home, sight unseen, is knowing that if i wanted to and i choose to, i could have snuck up, tapped your shoulder and then snapping you like a fucking twing, sight unseen, …it’s knowing that i can do this, AND CHOOSING NOT TO!!!

POWER IS SELF CONTROL, I ALLOWED YOU TO DO AS YOU PLEASED, I GAVE YOU YOUR OWN ROPE, I ALLOWED YOU YOUR OWN FATE, YOUR OWN DESTINY,

POWER IS KNOWING YOUR PLACE AND STAYING IN IT, I STAYED IN MY PLACE, I WAS NOT IN THE MIDDLE ARRANING OUTCOMES, FOR I CAN NOT CONTROL ANOTHER, I CAN ONLY CONTROL MYSELF

AND WHEN YOU WALKED INTO MY HOME, DISRAGDING MY PRIVACY, SAFETY AND SECURITY, DISSECRATION MY HOME IN BOTH PLACES, VIOLATING ME AND RAPING ME AND STRIPPING AWAY FROM THE ABILITY TO EVER FEEL PEACE IN MY HOME AGAIN.

WHEN I WAS DEEMED TO EXPEIRENCE HELL ON EARTH, THAT WAS SEALING YOUR OWN FATE, I WASNT IN THE MIDDLE, MY PLACE, I STAYED IN MY PLACE.

WHEN YOU CHOOSE TO TAKE FREE WILL …

The kicker of it all about last year is this: The fact that i had to be in a weakened state, who ever it was i was brought DOWN TO THAT PERSONS LEVEL….UMMMM

I had to be brought down to that level, WHEN IT SHOULD BE “BROUGHT UP” WELL, THAT SAYS ALOT ON HOW WEAK THAPT PERSON IS

TRUE POWER: is the skill that i posses with tongue, mouth and throat! knowing just when i want your soul, when to pull it out, your primal, and because not many of you have been allowed your primal to come out, the power is knowing when you’ve lost your senses is me being responisble of bringing you back to reality…no words spoken, manipulating by just tongue…but do i harm you with the skill i posses or do i choose to give pleasure instead?

TRUE POWER: i know how to lie, which those of you that choose to lie, dont understand, you dont know how to lie, hence why i bust you and know even before i start your screening but see, i choose NOT TO LIE, I DONT FEEL THE NEED TO

What Is The Moral As I End This Story?

For any one person to find fault and place so much blame unto another, casting a VALUABLE LIFE to the side, believing that life to be “INVALUABLE” IS EXACTLY WHEN YOU SHOULD TAKE SELF INVENTORY FROM WITHIN.

Finding imperfections and fault, it is those imperfection and faults that is seen from the Higher Power From Up Above, that brings more value in the orginiality. You will find that once you wash the dirt and do a lil spit shine, that what you found to be invaluable was a natural diamond that shines brightly and worth more than you knew.

One only has to look to the universe to see, follow the laws that Akasha has placed long before ruling this land.

As You sand the wood that came from this land, you only have to look into the grain to see,

Life in all it’s complexity, has actually been very simplied. humans in their lazy state, thinking that by taking the will, being sneaky and sly is power that holds the key. stay in that lazy state, being forever stuck in the chakra root, that lies in the organ of sex, thinking it is the powerful to be……(hence those that send dick pics, when you do this i know that you are stuck in root chakra lmao)

…… it is this ignorance that holds you back that to have and hold what is the most of powerful is knowledge that you must seek, to have. KNOWLEDGE IS POWER .

How can you see to understand that which has been enlightened in me, by walking in the darkness. I walk in the light, i will only claim and walk in the light!!! that light is only blinding when you try to see thru black coal eyes, you will always find yourselves shading that light in this darkness that you stay!!!

As I end this tale of life’s lesson’s learned, I hope that with this gift of sight that i’ve leant to you in the begin, by seeing with enlightened eyes that you found the answers that you had saught. But now the time come that those enlightened eyes in the place of the rightful owner, so I here it is, normal sight is regained, all being in proper places and rightful owners.

But understand I have not left you to be empty of hand, in this writing, you will find that i left two secret keys to becoming enlightened to see, in those pics, practice and work , it will take, but you too , can take those blinders off your eyes so you to can see!

Take care and blessed be,

Rogue 2-11 9:01 am

Do you have a clue the BDSM Lesson taught today???

If you can not answer this question, then this here is what I’m gonna state, the ONLY place in this world of BDSM that you can RIGHTFULLY claim, is that you are a pupil, under the mentorship of another!

KNOW YOUR PLACE AND WHAT IS RIGHTFULLY YOURS TO CLAIM

AND YET ANOTHER BASIC FUNDAMENTAL IS WHAT I TEACH TODAY,

KNOWING YOUR PLACE, STAYING IN YOUR PLACE, RESPECTING THAT PLACE, BEING RIGHT WITH THE ONE ABOVE, TRUTH IS NOT WHAT YOU TWIST TO BE, PRACTICING WHAT YOU PREACH AND KNOW WHAT YOU CLAIM WHEN CLAIMING THIS LIFE! WHAT YOU JUDGE TO KNOW, YOU DON’T KNOW AND IT’S NOT FOR YOU TO KNOW, ITS NOT THE RIGHT TIME! AND PATIENCE

THESE THINGS YOU MUST KNOW IN BDSM!!!

AND IF YOU EXPECTED TO KNOW IN THE TITLE OF WHAT WAS BEING TAUGHT, THEN YOUR EXECPTATIONS ARE VERY UNREALITSIC, LIFE DOES NOT GIVE A HEADS UP OF WHAT IT’S ABOUT TO TEACH!!!

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