(just for you to know, you are not gonna really fully understand in this ONE BLOG, it’s gotten too long, so this is gonna be done in many blogs, its way too too much, also its not going to have “a flow” to this either, im putting all the events in the order that it all has happened to me, by dates, im not gonna give you the answers right away, this is going to be exactly how ive gone thru it, the desparation, all of it, you will see alot of different screenshots with the same things, this means im desparately asking everyoen for help and being left all alone to be terriorized and to try to figure things out as i go and i will be explaining as i go,. So nothing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING SHOULD BE UNDERSTOOD RIGHT NOW, BEING I HAVE NOT EVEN TOUCHED THE TIP OF THE ICE BERG YET I WISH TO GOD I COULD PUT THALL OF THIS IN ONE BLOG, SOOOOOOOOO MUCH HAS HAPPENED THAT ITS NOT POSSIBLE AND ITS NOT POSSIBLE TO EXPLAIN IN WORDS, IT HAS TO BE SHOWN, EVEN TO A COUNSLER, THERE’S JUST NO WAY),NOT ONE FUCKING PERSON NCAN EVER HAVE A CLUE OF JUST HOW HARD THIS IS FOR ME TO FACE, TO DO , TO FACE THESE FUCKING DEMONS, VERY LITERALLY DEMONS, CUZ IT HAS TO BE SOMEONE DOIONG BALCK MAGIC OR SOMETHING …ITS FUCKING BAD WHAT IVE GONE THRU) ITS GOING TO BE OF THE UPMOST IMPORTANCE TO ACTUALLY READ THE SCREAN SHOTS, OR YOU WILL MISS IMPORTANT PARTS, IT WAS SOOO AND HAS BEEN AND IT STILL SOOOO MUCH GOING ON VERY FUCKING LITERALLY ALL AT FUCKING ONE TIME….I MEAN LIKE BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM LIEK 10 15 THINGS NO EXAGGATION HITTING ME ALL AT ONCE SO NOW ITS NOT GOING TO BE FLUINT ILL EXPLAIN TO PART TO YOU, WHEN I GET TO THE DATE THAT I FIGURED IT OUT! THIS IS THE BEST RECOUNT OF EVERYTHINGN THAT I CAN POSSIBLY DO AND IT DOESNT COME CLOSE …PS THOSE OF YOU THAT DID HELP THRU THIS, IF YOU CAN PUT YOUR PART IN IT MIGHT HELP ME SOME LOL …THIS TOPPED WHAT MY SON BY AT LEAST 10 TIMES!!!
the first 3 months of last year, i took OVER 3000 SCREENSHOTS, BECAUSE I KNEW THIS SHIT IS NOT BELIEVEABLE HELL I COULDNT EVEN BELIEVE THIS SHT!! THAT WAS JUST IN THE FIRST 3 MONTHS, IM STILL TAKING SCREENSHOTS TODAY, IT’S SOOOOOO VAST SO MUCH ITS NOT BELIEVABLE
So what I’ve done the last 3 blog is set the stage, so to speak. Even though most of you know of these stories, or at least bits and pieces of them. Hearing the full story and in all actuality it needed to be all on one page. To you, the reader, looks like im “rambling” or that “im bitching’ or that “I’m nagging.” That is by far what’s going on here. The reader needs to take quite a few steps out of your own perspection ok. This really needs to be looked at in a whole different light. Especially being that my readers are men, Here’s the fact of the matter, the body can only so much, then the physical body starts to disfunction. It’s not rocket science. You know that being a man, you’re supposed to be “the bread winner” of the household. There’s a lot that’s placed on a man’s shoulder’s, cause simply you are a man. So I know that most of you whether you will admit it or not, know about the pressure and stress of which I speak of.
Just like for whatever reason you may be seeking out a provider, makes you no less of a person just because you, as a human are craving just simply to be hugged, or someone to listen to, or to be able to experience a once in a lifetime opporutnity. Providers come to this for various reasons. More specificially speaking ME. And to tell you the whole truth, no more “lieing by omission.” A new state, EVERTHING but the clothes on my back was now gone, ALL OF IT,….I can’t even think about just exactly what i lost, I haven’t been able to deal with all that yet. Ya know baby books, baby pictures, just things that have no value, but have all the value in the world, just gone. As I’m typing these words, im crying cause it’s so much pain, it hurts so fucking bad. To just have your life just ripped apart, ripped right away from just because whatever reasons it is, simply put, just because someone is out to harm you in whatever way possible for their amusment. I have to admit, this wears me the fuck out just writing this, it’s taking everything that i got from me, to face all this in such details in my mind, i don’t want see these in my mind again, i dont wanna relive these nightmares,
Fuckk, im crying so hard, i can’t even see now, the tears they don’t ever come close to the amount of hurt and pain inside me. I can’t even accept the fact that absolutely no one will ever ever know the full depth of my trauma yet. That’s such a hard one for me. the reasons that no one can really grasp what all has gone on, it’s because it has literally all taken place at the exact same moments, There’s 5 different parts that play in this. Just for some kind of idea, take for example, Something may hit me about my son on tv real quicklike….i start balling cause of the ptsd, and at that exact same moment, 5 people calling all at one time, then on top on that, i got my best friend, wanting to talk, needing to talk, the manager knocking at the door, the fire alarm going off because they are testing the alarms that day, and then there’s supper on the stove that’s now burning …and you just want to scream. All you wanted all day long, was what you had on the stove. Compound all of that plus ten other things and compound all of that TWENTY-FOUR/SEVEN …NON STOP….ALL OUTSIDE “NOISE’, NEVER ANY PEACE, NEVER EVER. IT’S SO MUCH OUTSIDE NOISE YOU GET TO A POINT YOU CAN’T EVEN HEAR YOURSELF THINK .
So with no clothes, no money, no ID, just barely out of counsling when you move here, knowing that you are only on SSI, Can’t really stand on your feet anymore for more than 10-15 mins, can’t sit up straight more than 30 mins, have been bed ridden for most of the time you lived up north, mainly during the 6 mths of cold weather, and really no work skills, so to speak, been cashier for restuarants all your life, and your sure in the hell not good at selling a damn thing, can’t hardly be around anyone, cant go near a walmart or anything like that without freaking out and panicking, there’s so many changes in your body and mind that your not aware of yet, the trauma from your kid wanting to kill you still hasnt really sunk in yet, and now….you found yourself in spring branch, tx trying desparately to escape being sold into the cartel. i mean where do you go from here…don’t know anyone, you are already broken inside trying to continue on the same path that your counsler put you on….all to i cant do this…i can’t do this..…..shit is happneing so quick around you, and you’re a woman that’s already hurt beyond belief and desparate not knowing what to do, not knowing anything just desparate not to be in 100% plus heat. just trying to make the best of a sitation and you’re asking yourself, “how the living fuck man?”
it’s bad enuff that that i was open season from get go to all the predators pulling down to $5 fucks for a days rent for one day, all that just to have it all stolen, to have everything stolen from you time and time again, but to use social media as a portal gateway and to use spiritual exploitation as a tool, YOU FUCKING RUIN A PERSON, TO INSTILL FEAR LIKE NO ONE HAS EVER KNOWN BEFORE, TO JUMP OUT OF YOUR SKIN BECAUSE EVERY TIME YOU TURN AROUND SOMETHING IN YOUR HOME HAS BEEN MESSED WITH, DESECRATED, CHANGED, KNOWING FULL WELL THAT NO ONE IS YOUR HOME, OR AT LEAST YOU THOUGHT. AFTER ENDURING SPIRITUAL EXPLOITATION FOR OVER A YEAR AND A HALF NOW, IT CHANGES THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, IT CHANGES YOUR BODILY FUNCTIONS, AND ESSENTIALLY YOU ARE ACTUALLY DRIVEN CRAZY, SCARED OUT OF YOUR SKIN, WHEN YOU NEVER WILL EVER KNOW WHO ALL YOUR ATTACKERS HAVE BEEN,
YA HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ITS DOING TO ME RIGHT NOW TO WRITE THIS, TO LOOK AT ALL OF THIS,
From The Beginning
LOOKING BACK, THINGS STARTED HAPPENING BACK WHEN I HAD MY FIRST WEBSITE, “MSROGUESA.COM” I HAD NO CLUE, YOU CAN’T TELL. YOU ARE SO CLUESSLESS AS TO WHAT IS GOING ON, ALL YOU KNOW IS SOMETHING ISNT RIGHT, YOU DONT KNOW WHAT JUST YET, BUT YA KNOW DEEP IN YOUR HEART SOMETHING IS SOOOO WRONG AND ITS NOT YOU!
it started back in oct/nov 2018, i started getting these hot flashes, like im prime menapause age right, so that’s when you saw me started writing blogs about menapuse and how it knocked me off my feet, made me weak. you don’t notice of these small things at first happening to you. , i noticed my stats going down on the traffic. then in dec it was “jason” the stalker that i had eventually out, spending damn near $2000 for everyone on Christmas giving out content, just to get nothing but entitlements, disrespect and lies for Christmas, thats when i made the “ground rules page.” (oh just so that everyone knows, the Christmas before this one, i gave out free sessionsn
it was dec 2018 when my eyes had started bothering me. it was like dry patches that burned. it wasnt until jan right around my birthday, when i got out of the shower and dried that my eyes hurt so bad on top of my eye lids that i had noticed the dry patches were bad and thas when i started putting vaseline on my eyelids so it wouldnt be so dry. so i had started taking pictures of my eyes. and i started noticing that within a 3 month period time frame, my eyes were looking REALLY OLD, THEY WERE REALLY TIRED ALSO. BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND, THINGS WERE HAPPENING ALL AT THE TIME AT SUCH A SPEED YOU JUST CANT KEEP UP, AND IT NEVER STOPPED, IT STILL NEVER STOPS
then jan on my birfthday i had a visitor, which i was thankful for, but he had taken particularly close notice of my altar, VERY! i had two sets of chakra stones, i had planned offering that as a service, there was a small black velvet bag of chakra stones that i had intended on those being used for others, keeping the stones separate from mine i had kinda dozed off which i was going thru so much i was tired, and the dude had shortchanged me anyways, . ….so i went about life right, having problems with clients all the time just a whole bunch of “mess” always being degraded and humilated on twitter all of it…then i had went to clean my alter, which was simply a dresser top lol..and when i went to start taking things off, i noticed something was missing…then i went to REALLY looking and it was that balck velevt bag, well i didnt say anything about to anyone.
These screenshots right below were feb 14th valentines day last year, Dallas Rain had approached me about doing Doubles with her for a couple days thru 14th thru the 16th. During this time is when i had written ‘to see thru the eyes of an empath” and honestly speaking thats exactly what i had thought it was….
….and see here you need to know that when the phone started up, it was be totally out of of the blue, and for like an hr or two, the phone never stopped, , not to mention EVERY OTHER PLATFORM, I WAS EXAGGARTING WHEN I TOLD YALL 15 PEOPLE ON TUMBLR, I DONT KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE ON TWITTER, WHEN I TELL I WAS HOLDING 7 AND 8 CONVERSATIONS ALL AT ONCE, IM NOT JOKING AT ALL!!!….LITERALLY SPEAKING NOTHING BUT CONSTANT CONSTANT TORNADOS OF NOTHING BUT CHOAS BEING BROUGHT TO ME, SWIRLING AROUND ME AT ALL…..
this part here is what is REALLY WEIRD TO ME. it happened in feb, there was something on the floor in between the counter and the fridge, it was the cloud that i was in becausethis just flat is NOT me, for some reason i dont know why, but for five days i swept the floor in the kitchen, noticing something there, but NOT REALLY NOTICING….and i dont know why as ocd as i am, i never went to look, to pick up or anything …whats even more strange is in my head im thinking to myself, “oh well maybe it’s coffee grounds that i spilt while putting it in the trash” i wouldve NEVER JUST LEFT IT THERE. well on the 5th day, it was evening time i sweeping again, and something just struck me to REALLY LOOK AT WHAT WAS DOWN ON THE FLOOR….AND WHEN I DID, I ABSOLUTELY FLIPPED THE FUCK OUT!
What i found was that black velvet bag, ripped, it was brand never used, i only opened the bag, once,,,,it was ripped and the stones were on the floor underneath the bag and farther back in the cubby hole…that’s when i tripped and got on twitter and talked about it, so when i found the bag, im thinking this dude on my birthday, i mean i dont know…im thinking he is the messing around with it…i dont know i cant tell you
Now here is where you need to know that unbeknowest to me that from Feburary through out the year last year was going to be one HUGE NIGHTMARE THAT LASTED ALL YEAR, IT NEVER STOPPED. ….i guess let me to get to this part first….
to explain the significance to everything. So at first without me really realizing what was going on. i started having this total obsession of vaccuming my floor early in the morning. it was later on that i realized i had felt like the floor was shifting beneath my feet. to understand that i was going and talking to eveyone desparately i was screaming out for help all over on twitter, only to be met with nothing but resistence, told im crazy, bat shit crazy, constantly getting my hopes up only to be let down, time and time and time again. To know that with each let down, i was totally crushed, especially when i was so excited to see someone from Houston, and to recieve an email “The Girlfrind Experience VS The Bitchy Wife Experience” i can’t tell you what that did to me. literally i was screaming my lungs out for help. just screaming i need help, please help me…only to be told, im rambling and this shit here. And the whole time im being made to beg and plead for food and rent. to be disgraced, and everything ….ohhhh god, you have no idea what that did to me. Was left alone, abandoned, desparate for help, ……and NOTHING BUT MY HOPES LET DOWN FOR THE MOST PART....IT’S SO BAD THAT BEING TOLD “MAYBE WE SHOULD WAIT TILL YOU FEEL BETTER” WHEN I WAS CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF BEING SHOCKED ALL THE TIME AND FREAKING OUT…IS NOW A TRIGGER FOR ME….TELLING ME THAT IS DAGGLING A CARROT IN FRONT OF MY FACE, AND GETTING MY HOPES UP ONLY TO BE LET DOWN AND CRUSHED, THATS EXACTLY WHAT THAT IS TO ME....ITS LEAVING ME FUCKING TERRORFIED AND ALL ALONE FUCKIGN STONE COLD FROZE FEEARRRRR ….AND ALL ALONE TOTALLY ABANDONING ME WHEN I NEEDED HELP THE FUCK MOST EVER IN MY WHOOOLE LIFE
THESE ARE THE ACTUAL PICTURES OF WHAT I FOUND WHEN I CLEANED THE DRESSER TOP OFF, MY ALTAR, THIS PERFUME BOTTLE WAS GIVEN AS A BIRTHDAY PRESENT FROM THE MARRIED MAN, AND YOU SEE EXACTLY HOW THE FOUND TOP TO THAT BOTTLE. NEEDLESS TO SAY I WAS BLOWN AWAY TRIPPED OUT FREAKED OUT YOU NAME IT EVERYTHING. AND HERE WE ARE THE VERY BEGINNING OF BEINGN TERRORIZED AND NOT EVEN REALIZING NONE OF IT, WHAT WAS REALLY ACTUALLY TAKING PLACE. I WAS INTO TOAL SHOCK, DISBELIEF….LIKE ….WTF …ya know…i couldnt understand it. all i know is that top there is no possible way that top being split in exact half like it was that couldnve happened all by itself or even by dropping it, which none of that was ever touched….or so i thought… this is the day i cleaned my altar and found everything fucked up.
I had found,…and it was strangely enough, finding a plastic knife under the couch. i thought that to be weird as hell. I didnt know the significance to that until later, I simply just was like “huh” and grabbed it and threw it in the garbage. And i kept thinking to myself “why was that there” “how did it even get there” I had all my ketchups and plastic forks and stuff in a grocery bag from ordering in put up. There was no way a plastic knife should have been under the couch.
Also during this time, i would put things a certain way, only to find it moved, like my wolf egg, i would place it staight in the middle, and here it is i would be up thru the night, but all of sudden in the morning time, i would find my wolf egg “off” not centered at all. it was just fucked up feeling to not know what’s going on in your home. with your stuff. it makes you feel helpless for one, desparate for it to stop. just horrible, spooked, eveyrthing just PLAIN FUCKING FEAR
I was also noticing that my fan would “speed up” like someone had passed it…and i would feel breath or air on my arm. talk about wigging somebody out, fucking have me shooting straight up in the air off the bed. i mean i would turn the AC completely off, and the fan off, it would be totally still in my room…annnnd then all of sudden, i would feel air being blown on my freaking arm, while wearing a tank top. that would make anyone just totally frantic over this shit.
it wasnt until someone i had seen a client only once, contacted to check up on me, that things were kinda beginning to be figured out. After TWO MONTHS OF FRANTICALLY DESPARATELY TRYING TO GET HELP. He came by to talk with me and i was so thankful. he layed down on the bed and he said “have you noticed something looks a little off” i said no. He said, “come here, walk over here toward the door” which was to the left side. He said, “go over there and look closer, there is something off centered or something”
Low and behold, “HOLY SHIT!!!!!: WAS ALL THAT I COULD FUCKING SAY…. i had goose bumps and freaked out to the max
ya know im REALLY FUCKING TRIPPING RIGHT! he was gonna help me out with my logo at that time. All of sudden he notices (and ill never get it out of my mind either) …and “X” OR “T” mark (depending on how you looked at it..) on the top of my computer. UMMMMM
well, i am always on my computer lap top, it NEVER GETS SHUT! AND ABSOLUTELY GETS NEAR IT AT ALL…HOW THE FUCK???!!!! it was like someone had taken a pencil with an earser and marked an “X” STRAIGHT IN THE CENTER OF THE TOP OF LAPTOP….SO im sure you can guess, IM NOW REALLY FREAKED THE FUCK OUT
so to understand all these screenshots, i am desparately despartely trying to figure out what the fuck is going on, things are happening so quick, all i can do is take the screenshots, i didnt know how to explain it, and i still dont. all i can do is try to put things things togther for me so that i can explain to the a counsler, and now i realize that the terrorizing wont stop until i make it all known, EVERY LAST BIT OF EVERYTHING KNOWN! ILL NEVER BE ABLE TO HAVE A LIFE IF I DONT! ….so anyways….
this is the conversation im having with the married man showing him what i had found. just blown away. but as im looking back over these. and knowing now certain things he would ask me. like i just noticed me speaking to him in this screenshot about binding spells…he had asked me what a binding spell was…dumb me didnt know…i explained smh ….and i noticed he is also playing kind of dumb here also. but still the fact of the matter is, this shit would trip anyone out, blowing the fuck out of your minds, unless they were doing it, or knew about it.
oh yea during this time things in my gallary on my computer were started to disappeaaring…i really cant even recall this part, but you can see i was tripping
So during this time, i knew about physic vampires, i had come across when i was felt exhausted a time or two in my life before. so i knew of them. I have NEVER EVER expereienced something so intense as all of this was. and i had no idea, NONE! OF WHAT ALL WAS GOING ON. but it seemed like i eneded up being like physic vampires fraking feeding ground, it was happening at least twice a day if not more….draining every bit of me completely out. just sucking me dry.
matter a fact there was an older client that i was seeing in his 70’s i want to say. had cancer and had a second chance at life, well i started noticing that i was saw, and he was going down below, that he was literally be “lapping at me” like a cat with, fucking firecely and he would leave me wicked stupid totally drained, i had to eventually quit seeing him, and i brought that situation in my blog abotu the signs and sypmtoms of an physic vampire attack.
which btw, this is the time that i started doing more tstudies with physic vampires and all because i didnt have clue about all of THIS MUCH STUFF about the vampires…
PERSON NUMBER ONE: STATING THAT SOMEONE HAS HAD IT OUT FOR ME BAD…THIRD ROW, LEFT SCREENSHOT HE SAYS IT AND MAKE SURE YOU READ THE SCREEN SHOT WHERE YOU SEE THE ARROW
a whole lot more to come just trying to get all of it in order and cry and fucking deal with all of this that im facing so …. THIS IS BLOG ONE OF IT ALL AND I DONT KNOW HOW MANY THERE IS GONNA BE
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