an extension of the two i wrote yesterday
Have you had contact with your family?? do you know if they’re okay ??? do you know if they’re sick and they need help???? do you know if they’re dead or alive.??? What about your nieces??? maybe, your nephews??? your aunts and uncles??? your cousins???… do you know that they are okay.??? Well if you don’t and you have the luxury of finding out. Make sure you put this down immediately and make sure to get in touch with them. I want to tell you a little story maybe a long one I don’t know I need to get it off my chest
Can you imagine not knowing anything about your family??? can you imagine having to screen your own family members just to find out if they’re dead or alive???
Can you imagine looking up your mother’s name on Google and the first thing you see is the obituary???? can you imagine your heart pounding and your can’t breathe because you just know thats your mother and nobody called to tell you or try to get in touch????
Well this is what I just went through and I’m still going through it with the sigh relief thank God it wasn’t her but yet I’m just finding a cousin that’s passed last year that I am barely looking at I just found it, I just found the obituary
I looked at my mother’s name I found some pictures on Flickr with her two sisters my aunts and you know that deal about where I was raised the urban legend well my mother’s found my pentacle when it fell out my shirt as I was wearing it one day and she swore up and down I was a devil worshiper and because of that my family turned their back on me
Saying that I’d never change.
When my grandmother died my favorite aunt she wouldn’t even get next to me she was scared of me she was scared to get next to me because I was supposedly a double worshiper and all this time this judgment that’s been cast and I’m dying pain I’ve never worshiped no devil but because of misconceptions and her fucking whatever’s she found a way to separate me and my family and I’m falling in tears right now because I just can’t fathom what I’ve been j7dged agaibst. any kills me to my fucking goddamn soul but my family turned their back on me for no reason at all and no no rightful reason anyways
LOOK WHAT YOUR FALSE MOTHERFUCkiNG got damn HAS DONE TO A FUCKING HUMAN LIFE THAT’S TURNED ON FALSE GOD DAMN MISCONCEPTIONS AND NOT IN BELIEFS YOU FOOOOOOOOLS
AND NOW YOU’RE FUCKING LIVES WITH SO MUCH VALUABLE MAN GOD DAMN MINE IS AGAIN YOU FOOLS I KEEP HARDLY NOT HATE AT THE MOMENT IS I SIT HERE IN MY TEARS AND I FOREVER FEEL GUILTY OVER YOUR FOOLISH JUDGMENT AND HATE HOW CAN YOU I WANT TO SCREAM I WANT TO SCREAM SO LOUD HOW CAN YOU I CAN’T BELIEVE WHAT YOU’VE DONE TO ME YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO LEAVE ME LIKE THIS AND LOOKING MY OWN MOTHER DID NOT SEE VALUE IN MY LIFE MY OWN SON DIDN’T SEE VALUE IN MY LIFE
HOW MITHERFUVKING COULD YOU
YOU MOTHERFUCKING GOT DAMN HYPOCRITES GO TO CHURCH LIKE SHE DOES SHE WORKS FOR THE DIOCESE OR DID FOR 20 YEARS OR SO AND READS THE RIGHT READINGS IN THE MASS HOW CAN YOU MOTHERFUCKING BITCHES IN YOUR FUCKING HYPOCRITE WAYS JUDGE ME ON FALSE FUCKING BELIEFS AND WRONGS AND THINK YOU’RE GOING TO HAVE IT ABOVE I WANT TO DISPUTE SO BAD BUT YOU KNOW I’M BETTER THAN ALL OF YOU MOTHERFUCKING LOW LIFE I SWEAR I AM
From day I was born I didn’t have a chance in fucking hell I never have had help not to the degree of her and my dad buying my sister a fucking brand new fucking cars and shit or my little brother fucking staying at home till he was 30 fucking years old no I didn’t have none of that I didn’t have a chance in fucking hell to have any kind of life but just life and a fucking mother fucking prison look what your hate and green and judgment has done to me I have never right destroying this I am a product of your goddamn hates and your judgments and your own money motherfucking God You’re holier than mother fucking doubt how fucking can you think when you judge and you turn your backs against those you’re supposed to love your own fucking blood how can you mother fucking double-edged sword and bitches punks think you’re going to heaven I cannot believe I am falsely fucking accused and judged to motherfucking love lives but I’ll stand I’ll stand with my hell high just like I always do and I will survive just like I always have but nobody and no help I cannot believe you did this to me I can’t believe I don’t have no one because you judged me you fall asleep The pain is just something guilt and you made me feel that you should be accounted for I didn’t do this to me you are to be accountable but yet you slung it on me and you blamed it to me you cursed me and your righteous fucking false ways how can you my children my family all of you motherfuckers all of you how can you and then be holier than fucking fake thou
Oh but you’ll burn in your house for what you’ve done you will burn in hell for what you’ve done for your wickedness and your double-edged sword lives falsely accusing one that God’s job to do acting like God by the tongue of the serpent though falsely double-edged slides right just like I have been made to rot in this fucking apartment rot and burn and I don’t mean that in a bad way but that’s what’s going to happen in your judged ways that’s what you will come across what I have already experienced on this earth and it ain’t fun it ain’t the fire you think it is it’s not how can you do this to me
Yeah she’s happy with her two kids and her three grandkids three granddaughters said on my three nieces that I have never in my life net I never got to hold and I never got to see a picture of Hope she’s happy when she burns in the hell that she’s caused herself all of them earlier than thou and their Catholic fucking demonic ways and call me the demon
I DARE THE NEXT PERSON TO EVER COME TO ME WITH ENTITLEMENTS JUST LIKE MY YOUNGEST FELT WHEN HE WAS TRYING TO KILL ME…I DARE YOU TO JUDGE ME LIKE YOU HAVE. I FUCKING DARE YOU TO PUT MORE VALUE IN YOUR SICKENING LIVES IN THIS PANDEMIC WHEN YOU HAD NO FUCKING VALUE OF LIFE BEFORE. WITH YOU FUCKING BAREBACK, AND THEN CALLING ME A WHORE…YOU ARE NO FUCKING BETTER WHEN YOU TRASH A HUMANS LIFE AND NOT CARE ABOUT THE VALUE ANOTHER HUMAN IS YOU FUCKING DOUBLE STANDARD MOTHERFUCKING HYPRRICRITS!!! GO TO CHUCH AND LIE TO GOD, HE SEES IT ALL, WHILE YOU CALL ME A DEMON WITH YOUR SERPANT TONGUES!! ….DONT COME TO ME EXPECTING SPECIALITIES AND VALUE IN YOUR LIVES…YOU FOUND NO VALUE IN MINE MOTHERFUCKERS!!!! YOU MADE ME BE ACCOUNTABLE FOR ALL OF YOUR SINS MADE ME SIT ALL ALONE AND WALLOW IN YOUR GUILTS ….YOU ARE ALL ARE SO FUCKED UP TWISTED AND WICKED!!!!!! FUCK YOU!! BETTERER YET UNFUCK YOU…I DONT JUDGE YOU…HURT AND PAIN IS WHAT YOU ARE READING NOW, THAT’S NOT MY JOB THAT’S GOD’S AND IM NOT HOLIER THAN THOU AND I DONT TAKE GODS JOB….BECAUSE IT’S EXACTLY WHAT YOU ALL HAVE DONE TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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