i would like you to just close your eyes and imagine yourself outside, and its raining, sprinkling at first, you dont have an umbrella, then it starts to rain a little harder…at that point its still oik,,, like playing in the rain when you were a kid right…then all of a sudden the bottom just falls out and its like a hard really hard….and the drops are so hard that they are hurting your skin to the feel those drips hit you….yea….now imagine all those tiny rain drops being people
its like a swarm of people ALLL LITERALLY ALLLL THE TIME ALL THE TIME ALL THE TIME no break from people at all, just its so bad sometimes that im just looking back scared so many people so many feelings that i cant process none of it . when i say im cursed i am, the feelings the people its such a needy world out theree, when people gravate to an empath its the attraction i cant get it to stop its like fly tape, thats what its just sticking to me yea…thats how i can describe it maybe
ok so your in that storm right and you end up being that eye in that storm and you find your self just literally spinning in cicrles thats all you can do, just all those drops of rain hitting you all at one time, hurting your skin and this rain, they have voices and alll at one time all these drops of rain all one time start long horrible song off key cant understand nothing just start telling you their problems thier needs their wants their everythings and everything just all drowns out blurs and your blinded ….you just become a huge of puddle of water and you just sink you become a puidddle that cant think so much coming at you one time that you cant keep up and so you give up you cant focus on just one rain drop at time your expected to fix all those rain drops all one time and you cant there s soooo many rain drops in that storm….
then you just feel helpless….imagine that
THIS SCENERIO IS MY LIFE IM ALWAYS THE EYE OF EVERYONES STORM BEING BROUGHT TO ME…THIS IS WHY I GET TO THE POINT I CANT THINK ITS ALL GETS SO LOUD FOR ME THAT I SINK BACK AND I GET SCARED…IMAGINE FEELING THIS LITERALLY ALL THE TIME YEA…THEN YOU WOULD KNOW MY PLACE