What It Means To Let Go

In light of what took place today. think this is the most appropiate at this given time. I mentioned Patty in Ca, who I credit given me “new life 10 yrs ago now. She is the one who handed me a piece of paper with this poen on it. It was then that I had actually started to practice this in my everyday life. I had made copies of it and had taped it to every wall that would look at on a regular basis.Therefore always reminding me of these sentences. At that point and time in my life, I had sticky notes and all kinds of affirmations stuck on the walls everywhere, reminding me, telling me, teaching me…changing my thought patterns. These little affirmations are priceless…

Poem: To Let Go



 To let go does not mean to stop caring,
 it means I can’t do it for someone else.
 
 To let go is not to cut myself off,
 it’s the realization I can’t control another.
 
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
 
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
 
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
 it’s to make the most of myself.
  
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
 
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
 
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
 
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
 
To let go is not to be protective,
it’s to permit another to face reality.
 
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
 
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
 
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
 
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
 
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future. 
 
To let go is to fear less and love more
 and
To let go and to let God, is to find peace!
 
Remember: The time to love is short.  
 
 
 
 
 

Now….To Take & Apply Each One Into Our Own Lives

I firmly believe that if every one on this planet was to take this poem and do exactly what I have done in my life, and actually WORK TO APPLY THIS INTO OUR OWN LIVES. AND STOP BLAMING OTHERS FOR OUR OWN FAULTS, AND REALLY AND ACTUALLY VERY LITERALLY APPLY THIS INTO OUR LIVES, THE WORLD WOULD KNOW OUR OWN SELVES, INSTEAD OF WHAT WE FAKE OUT TO THE WORLD, PERTRAYING TO OTHERS, WHO WE ARE REALLY NOT. WE WOULD FIND OUR OWN INNER PEACE, AND SERENITY…AND GUESS WHAT….THIS IS HOW I HAD OBTAINED MY PORTRAIT THAT I MEANTION BEFORE OF MYSELF, I PRACTICED THIS INTO MY LIFE AND BELIEVE YOU ME, I WOULD SIT THERE, AND JUST GO OVER AND OVER AND OVER, I CAN NOT CONTROL ANOTHER, i can ONLY CONTROL MYSELF” OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN, AND IT’S HARD, BUT IT’S WORTH IT!! IT CAN BE DONE IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE AND GUESS WHAT, IM TIRED….I REALLY AND TRULY AM…IM TIRED….I AM THAT TIRED, IM JUST FLAT OUT TIRED, IM EXHAUSTED AND I STILL HAVE SO MUCH TO DO AND ACCOMPLISH…IM TOO TIRED TO CARRY THE WORLD ANY LONGER!!!!

The True Definition To The Word Insanity Is:

Doing The exact Same Things And Expecting Different Results!!!!

It is when we stop “fearing what is unknown” to us, and the pain becomes greater than fear of change, it is then that we have a choice, we can go right or we can go l eft, we can take that left turn again and continue hitting those stop signs and all them brick walls, or we can finally swing to the right and stop our own insanities by expecting different results, still doing the same things, and change our directions and ways, not knowing what to expect, that’s when you start on a whole brand journey some good some bad, but it;s ALL brand new, like a baby!!! it’s exciting adventure, no denstination in sight!!!

(I love Patty, These were her that she told me in California) she also told me:

Can’t See Till You Can SEE!!!

That one, yea that one took me awhile to be able to understand, but when it hit, IT HIT LIKE 10 TONS OF BRICKS.!!!!

Here’s a secret though:

“Your Brain Is In A State Of Constant Evolution, Constantly Changing”

It’s A Sponge, As It Takes In, It Also Has To Process Everything, This Is Called:

“Identifying and Recongnizing”

So Point Blank,,,yes you CAN TEACH AN OLD DOG NEW TRICKS!!!
So Therefore if you actually apply all of these, you can get in the habits of better ways!!!

Here’s where I’m at these describe ME EXACTLY right now, what i feel and where im at


Looking At Each Section As I Apply ThemInto My life

So, Let’s over each section and see. and i know that you have seen these charastics in me already especially when I talk about looking our own selves in the mirror, and pointing the finger at others, admitting the truths….me being “real” THIS IS EXACTLY WHERE IT COMES FROM …RIGHT HERE!!!

 “To let go does not mean to stop caring,
 it means I can’t do it for someone else.”

For me…..This means…. right now, 9-27-19….i can’t do it no more, i can’t carry anyone else, i can’t take care of myself anymore.

it means, I’M ALLOWING OTHERS TO DROWN ME, AND I CANT DO THAT NO MORE.!!! IT MEANS, I STILL CARE, BUT I GOTTA TAKE CARE OF ME, IT MEANS….TAKING CARE OF ME….WELL….THATS HARD ENOUGH, I CANT DO BE THAT GIVING EMPATH ANYMORE, IT MEANS I HAVE TO BE SELFISH FOR A CHANGE.

 “To let go is not to cut myself off,
 it’s the realization I can’t control another”

WELL, I CAN’T CONTROL ANOTHER, WE’VE SEEN THAT ON TWITTER, WITH THE DIRECT MESSAGING. BUT I CAN CONTROL THAT IT DOESN’T HAPPEN ANYMORE….IT MEANS, THAT HAD I been able to delete twitter tonight completely, i was trying to. it would’ve been done. This means, that i may not be able to control your actions, BUT ……I CAN CONTROL THAT I WILL NOT RE ACTIVATE IT AGAIN!!! IT MEANS, IM NOT GONNA CUT MYSELF OFF ANYMORE, AND THAT I CAN NOT CONTROL ANY OF YALL… BUT I CAN CONTROL MYSELF AND DO BETTER!

“To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences”

for me, this means, I WILL NO LONGER ENABLE TWITTER ANYMORE TO HUMILIATE ME, DISGRACE ME, ABUSE ME, HURT ME. tHIS MEANS THAT I AM NOT CARRYING THIS ON MY SHOULDERS ANY LONGER, THIS MEANS I WILL NO LONGER BE A WILLING PARTICAPTANT IN THIS MOVIE…NO MORE….

THIS MEANS, MY NATURAL CONSEQUENCES…WELLL….THEY HAVE BEEN COSTLY….ALOT OF COMPLEX PTSD HAS CAME FROM LEARNING FROM “MY OWN” NATURAL CONSEQUENCES….(notice what i’m saying)……NOTICE THIS IS ME AND MY AND MINE THAT IM ADMITTING, AND GUESS WHAT, I AM GONNA ALLOW OTHERS TO LEARN FROM THEIR OWN NATURAL CONSEQUENCES

This means, that if i may to seem to be being a bitch to you, because you are used to me being a certain way, IT IS NOT ABOUT YOU!!! I AM NOT GONNA ENABLE ANY LONGER, I AM NOT A WILLING PARTICAPANT ANY LONGER TO BE HURT ANY MORE THAN WHAT I HAVE BEEN. THIS MEANS, IM GOING TO ALLOW YOU TO LEARN FROM THE NATURAL CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS, CAUSE IM HAVING TO LEARN FROM MY OWN NATURAL CONSEQUENCES OF ALLOWING THIS TO CONTINUE TO HAPPEN FOR WAY TO LONG NOW, IT’S COST EVERYTHING, AND IF I DON’T STOP ALLOWING OTHERS TO DRAG ME DOWN ….IM GONNA BE DRUG DOWN TO NOTHING LIKE WHAT THEY WANT TO SEE HAPPEN…THIS MEANS….IM NO LONGER ENABLING NOR ALLOWING ANYONE TO DRAG ME DOWN ANY FARTHER IM GOING ….UPPPPPP!!!!

“To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands”

FOR ME…THIS MEANS, I AM POWERLESS, I DO NOT HAVE ANY POWER OF THE OUTCOME, ITS NOT FOR ME TO CARRY ON MY SHOULDERS ANY LONGER, THIS MEANS, I NO LONGER OWN ANY ONE ELSES CONSENQUENCES, FROM ACTIONS, I AM POWERLESS AND I CAN NOT SAVE T HE WORLD LIKE I WOULD LIKE TO!!!

I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER ANYONE ELSE, I AM POWERLESS TO WHATS ANYONE ELSES OUTCOMES, I CAN NOT DO IT FOR ANOTHER ANY LONGER, I CAN’T DO IT FOR MYSELF HOW CAN I EXPECT TO HELP ANYONE ELSES OUT COMES ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY SHOW THAT T HEY CARE ABOUT THEIR OWN CONSENQUENCES AND OUT COMES, THAT IS NOT FOR ME TO CARRY!!!!

“To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
 it’s to make the most of myself

ok so i lost myself and im trying to change the public….the world….only because ive been carrying all of the worlds problems ontop of my shoulders as my problems, therefore “i was trying to change the public” “i was trying to change the world when the world sees nothing but hatred” THIS IS NOT MINE TO CARRY I HAVE TO TELL MYSELF AND GUESS WHAT, I LET GO OF IT!!!!!

“i WILL NOT ENABLE, I ADMIT IM POWERLESS OVER THE WORLDS HATRED, I CAN NOT CHANGE TWITTER AND THE PUBLIC/WORLD, BUT I CAN CHANGE WHAT I WILL ALLOW!!! I CAN LEARN FROM WHAT I HAVE ALLOWED OF WHICH HAS BEEN VERY VERY COSTLY FOR ME!!! I WILL NOT OWN THE WOLRDS DRAMAS AND ISSUES NO LONGER!!!!!”

To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.

i still care, im still an activist, i still care about you, BUT GUESS WHAT, I HAVE TO CARE FOR MYSELF, I HAVE CARED FOR OTHERS FOR WAY WAY TOO LONG, AND IN THE PROCESS I REALLY LOSE MYSELF AND NOW IM LOOKING AT WHERE IM AT, IM PRETTY MUCH BACK WHERE I STARTED ….THE BOTTOM!!! HOMELESS!!! BECAUSE I CARED FOR OTHERS FOR WAY TO LONG, AND I ALLOWED OTHERS TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME MY TIME, STEAL FROM ME BY ME TAKING THE WORLD ONTO MY SHOULDERS AND TRYING TO PLEASE EVERYONE…BUT GURESS WHAT NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED, I COULDNT PLEASE ANYONE AND THEN I LEFT MYSELF OUT I CAN NOT DO THAT ANYMORE

I STILL CARE ABOUT ALL OF YOU, BUT I CAN NOT CARE FOR YOU ANY LONGER I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF BECAUSE NO ONE IS HERE FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT HAS JUST BEEN PROVEN RECENTLY

“To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive”

AS AN EMPATH I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO SET LIMITS, BECAUSE TAKERS DO NOT HAVE ANY LIMITS, THEY DONT KNOW WHAT BOUNDARIES ARE, AND I HAVE TO STAND MY GROUND, I AM TRYING TO FIX MY OWN SHIT, I CAN NOT FIX ANY BODYS “STUFF”. i CAN SUPPORT YOU, BUT DO NOT COME TO ME WITH YOUR PROBLEMS, I CAN NOT FIX THEM, THEY ARE NOT MINE TO FIX!!!

“To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.”

This is where I’ve been fighting the world about allowing me to be a human, the world is sooo “DEHUMANIZED” THAT NO ONE CAN RECOGNIZE BEING HUMAN ANYMORE. Well, i am a human, i am a person, i am a person that has feelings and because i have cared to much “FOR” i HAVE FELT DEEPLY FOR THE WORLD, you can be human if you want, IT IS NOT MY JOB TO JUDGE ANYONE, THAT IS GODS JOB, THAT JOB I DON’T WANT TO BE RESPONISBLE FOR, YOU CAN TAKE ON GODS IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO, BUT I HAVE BE AN HUMAN BEING A PERSON THAT IS VERY HURT AND HAS ALOT OF PAIN TO WORK THROUGH, SO IM JUST GONNA BE A HUMAN BEING THAT’S A WORKING PROGRESS TO GET THROUGH 5 YEARS OF SOME FUCKED OFF HELLISH PAIN I CANT DO NO MORE THAN THAT!!!!

IN OTHER WORDS, I CAN ONLY DO ME AND ALOT OF TIMES EVEN THAT IS WAY TO MUCH TO DO FOR ME, SO IF I CAN’T DO ME THAT DAY OR THAT MINUTE, I SURE CANT DO ANY ONE ELSE!!!

To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
 

To let go is not to be protective,
it’s to permit another to face reality.

To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.

To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it


To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.

 
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future. 

To let go is to fear less and love more
 and
To let go and to let God, is to find peace!
 

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