What’s the difference

I want to know what is the difference The world doesn’t like what Trump’s doing but what the world doesn’t understand is for 3 years what the world don’t like Trump doing to you you’ve done to me what’s the difference

I’ve been quarantined for 3 years you can’t stand you can’t handle being quarantined for 3 months I don’t understand the difference I’m supposed to like it you don’t like it how am I supposed to be feeling like I have to like it I don’t think that’s fair what’s the difference

Somebody got killed He’s black okay I’m not prejudice but what’s the difference

All lives matter with the exception of sex workers just becausee I’m disabled I can’t go get a job and I’m trying to at least make some kind of ends meet oh and get more being debt I never had debt before being debt by having this job but my life don’t matter

What’s the difference

You are rioting because it was wrong that somebody got killed like that it’s totally fucked up and wrong

But yet it ain’t wrong to kill a sex worker go figure what is the fucking difference

this is how sick and demented and Topsy turvy and everything the world is today

 Is subject to judgment is what it is

when it happens to you you don’t like it but you don’t mind doing it to others cuz you don’t get to feel it

That’s the difference

what I’m going through today what I am being what I am going through here’s what I’m going through

Not that you care but here it is

You men want to know why girls feel like that should feel like they are a 10 feel less than a 4 or 5

You dey value us

you men keep asking I keep seeing this question all the time why do providers start to begin to hate men well

we don’t actually hate men or at least I’m trying not to what I hate personally is what you do to me and you don’t want to see it you don’t care to see it you care to just continually do it to me

That’s called ritual abuse

What is ritual abuse ritual let’s break that down first what is a ritual

a ritual is doing something over and over again all the time and it becomes clockwork becomes habit what that is is programming

We don’t I don’t feel like I’m good enough or anything because I’m constantly told I’m stupid I’m constantly told I’m insane I’m constantly telling I’m crazy I’m constantly not the valued

My life don’t matter

I’ve been dating somebody for 3 years now that I met in sex work 3 years

He cannot show me and give me some kind of comfort of what his name really is when I’m constantly lied to three years he cannot trust me enough cannot does not value me enough to include me into his life in some degree not much but something at least to comfort me on that level because I have been programmed by ritual by repetitively being called stupid crazy dumb told I should die when you go through such inhumane shit all the time you don’t want to see what the problem is and you keep continually telling me I’m the problem well you know what

That’s when I become defensive That’s when I become angry because I get tired of it I’m sick of being told I’m crazy I’m not crazy I’m tired of being told I’m fucking crazy stop calling me that!

 you trigger me

I’m not crazy it’s a fucking trigger

 but yet you make me prove myself time and time again you invalidate everything I say you talk to me in a condescending way you talk down to me you talk down at me you downplay my intelligence levels you humiliate me on every fucking platform there is you stop me on every platform there is

What the fucking difference what

You don’t like how it feels

But you tell me to choke on it Make sure I enjoy the fuck out of it

What’s the difference

When you are constantly having to fight for your boundaries not to be crossed, you become very defensive.

 you become oh my God that’s mine don’t touch it it’s like a kid but yet I’m stupid and crazy just because I’m acting out from you taking my boundaries and enforcing your way in and taking my free will away

This man I’ve been seeing three years he expects me to leave and cutting myself open and be vulnerable as his submissive taking all my vulnerability and he yet he doesn’t see anything wrong with leaving myself wide open and it being okay That’s not BDSM

BDSM is a give and take it’s not all take and no give

This is what I’m talking about this world is so topsy-turvy it’s all on judgment when it doesn’t feel good to you it’s not right then you begin to fight for your rights what’s the differenc

you talk all my rights away you said I didn’t deserve to eat I didn’t deserve a house I didn’t deserve this that and the other

what’s the difference

why is it okay for me to go through this and not you why is it I get beat down every time I fight from my rights

what’s the difference

Why are you angry at what Trump is doing to you when you’ve been doing the same exact thing to me

 what the fuck

I get punished when I get and stand up for myself I get beat down until I’m more crazy I get hurt and punished

Why aren’t you getting fucking punished for standing up for yourself

What’s the fucking difference

I’m tired I’m piss ed I’m angry I’m fucking sick of it I’m sick of going hungry just because you’ve devalued me because I’m just a sex worker

What’s the fucking difference I’m angry so this is what I’m going to say

I went 3 days hungry for Christmas day was my second day hungry what I got for Christmas was an email telling me I need to be ready in 15 minutes to fuck him good to be ready when my stomach was hurting and I was not even bothered nobody bothered to worry about nothing while they were eating their fake meals at home with their fake families

 I got my hopes up that I would make a little money so I can get some food for Christmas but instead what I got was my hopes let down told too late it is 15 minutes I I wouldn’t good enough I wasn’t quick enough to get ready in 15 minutes while my stomach was hurting and I was crying

I went hungry I begged I plead on Twitter I humiliated myself I was degraded I didn’t matter

Why are you acting like it’s a big deal when you go hungry when you didn’t act like it’s a big deal that I went hungry

What’s the fucking difference

I’m told I have to choke and gag on it I have to fucking like it I have to fucking love it that you are forcing yourselves on me that you were degrading me that you are hurting me that you are harming me I am told I have to trust blindly

And you can’t do it either what’s the fucking difference

Karma bitches, karma

and this is what’s wrong with the world today your judgments

Rights became an option You’re right matters but the next person’s right doesn’t matter

your beliefs matter but the next person’s beliefs don’t matter

You’re free speech matters but the next person’s free speech doesn’t matter because you don’t like it

That’s the fucking difference

and that’s just anger coming out right now I’m letting it loose right now and I really don’t mean that but I’m wanting to show you something

You and you stalk me everywhere to where I’m scared to go anywhere you instilled fear in me but yeah you tell me to go out by myself why just so you can hurt me some more so I get stuck in my jail I’m not valued enough to be taken out of here so I will feel safe nobody wants to just comfort me just a little bitty bit right everybody says I’m crazy and abandons me makes me just be alone in my fear even more devaluing me not telling telling me I’m not good enough for shit I’m not even good enough for a fucking blowjob most times when y’all get angry at me I’m too valued all the time and I’m okay I’m supposed to be okay being in this jail for three fucking years and now somebody’s texting my phone at 6:45 in the morning two boundaries crossed at one time lovely fuck y’all

TWO BOUNDARIES CROSSED AT ONE MOTHERFUCKING TIME AND YOU SAY I’M CRAZY FOR BEING ANGRY FOR YOU FORCING YOUR ASSES ON ME AND NOT RESPECTING MY BOUNDARIES AT ALL TAKING MY FREE WILL BE YET IT’S OKAY FOR MY FREE WILL TO BE TAKEN AND IT’S NOT OKAY FOR YOURS CHOKE ON THAT SHIT BITCHES IT PISSES ME OFF

I HOPE THAT MOTHER FUCKER ENJOYS GETTING A PHONE CALL AT 3:00 IN THE MORNING TOMORROW MORNING TONIGHT BECAUSE I’M DOING IT I’M SICK OF MY BOUNDARIES BEING CROSSED AND YOU THINK IT’S SO GOD DAMN K

AND I’M CRAZY YES I’M FUCKING CRAZY PISSED IS WHAT I AM IT’S ALL ONE-SIDED YOU BITCHES EVERY ONE OF YOU TAKE EXPECT FUCKING WANT ME TO GIVE IT ALL AND DON’T SEE NOTHING WRONG WITH NOT GIVING NOTHING BACK AND ME BEING HURT OR UPSET ABOUT IT I’M CRAZY BECAUSE I’M UPSET ABOUT IT BECAUSE YOU TAKE AWAY FROM ME AND IT’S OKAY FOR YOU TO DO SO AND YOU DON’T SEE NOTHING WRONG WITH THIS YES I AM FUCKING CRAZY I’M FUCKING CRAZY PISSED OFF

HOW DARE I HUH HOW DARE I GET ANGRY OVER MY RIGHT S BEING TAKEN FROM ME HOW FUCKING DARE I HOW DARE I IM BELOW RIGHT

YOUR ARE ENTITLED I FORGOT EXSCUSE THE LIVING FUCK OUT OF ME

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