You Choose…

here’s how I can explain it that last blog I put out has all the list and I went through all the ABCs and started doubling the ABCs that whole list is triggers That’s more than 30 of them that’s been programmed in me to instill Terror a lifelong of Terror in me All the games you motherfucking men play with us women because we’re whores or what the fuck ever All the games y’all have played has become triggers to me pushing and crossing boundaries the phone all of it disrespecting me just because I’m disabled and I can’t work a real job.

I do intend on getting a tattoo I need somebody to draw it up

that black rose with the hand holding it on the bottom it’s going to say

From men’s weakness I fell

By my strength i rose

The black rose represents this black time.

And here’s where I’m going to state this no one has a right to judge me during this healing. No one not one fucking person better because I have held all this in for three goddamn years more than three years The hate I feel right now the anger I feel right now It has to come out it comes out in my blogs it’s my only out you are not to judge me just because of this. I have a right to be angry I have a right to be hurt I have a right to fucking be able to get this out of me I have a right to fucking heal. If you men did not abuse people Just because you feel like it maybe I would not be feeling like this this strongly I’ve got to get through it I’ve got to get past it and I’ve got to do this the way the only way I can because I’m boxed in everywhere else

There will be no man ever again that will ever get my honor ever in my life again after with this one pulled on me he did me in well fucking too good He’s scary as fuck He’s dangerous as fuck.

Another words I see men as cowards because they hide behind a fucking keyboard and a snake screen to fucking bring down a woman like me. All because you don’t like me or what the fuck ever it is That’s a cowardly way to fucking do it. And no I’m not sorry. I don’t hate all men I hate the abuse I hate this shit that I’ve been put through for no fucking reason because I treat everybody’s too damn good for this shit

You chose to fucking not hear me screaming out for God damn help you chose this you made fun of me You’ve downed me and you dissed me you devalued me and you devalidated me on top of all of it you chose to fucking ignore my screaming out for God damn help you motherfuckers. And the fact that you men chose to fucking ignore all of my screaming out for help for two fucking years you chose to close your ears and eyes for me screaming out for help is what you chose to fucking do

The fact that you chose

I’m going to repeat that

YOU CHOSE TO IGNORE MY SCREAMING OUT FOR HELP

YOU ARE ALL A THREAT TO ME NOW

BECAUSE YOU IGNORED MY SCREAMING OUT FOR HELP

YOU CHOSE TO DO MORE DAMAGE TO ME INSTEAD OF HELPING ME

AGAIN YOU FUCKING CHOSE

YOU MADE THE CONSCIOUS DECISION TO NOT HELP SOMEBODY SCREAMING OUT FOR HELP FOR TWO FUCKING YEARS PLUS

YOU CHOSE THIS

DO NOT FUCKING TELL ME YOU’RE SORRY BECAUSE YOU’RE FUCKING NOT

There’s only a handful of men that have stood by and watched everyone else abuse me while I’m screaming out for help those few people helped me out throughout the way I think them greatly That’s the only thing that has saved what lil hope bit I have left which is none in humanity

IT IS EVERY GODDAMN BIT OF ALL OF YOU MEN THAT HAVE DONE THIS TO ME

EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU FOR THE LAST 3 YEARS

IT’S YOU’RE FUCKING FAULT OWN IT

FUCKING TAKE IT HOLD YOUR ASSES FUCKING ACCOUNTABLE

BECAUSE I DON’T OWN THAT SHIT

Instead of respecting my boundaries so that I could try to figure out who the fuck was doing this to me

YOU CHOSE TO IGNORE MY BOUNDARIES

YOU MADE MY TRIGGERS WORSE

YOU CHOSE

YOU MADE THE TRIGGERS

YOU MADE THE CONSCIOUS DECISIONS TO DO SO

THIS IS NOT MY FUCKING FAULT

YOU FUCKING CHOSE TO BE COWARDS

INSTEAD OF CHOOSING TO BE A GENTLEMAN

YOU CHOSE TO BECOME A MONSTER IN MY EYES

INSTEAD OF A PLACE WHERE I CAN GO SAFE AND TO BE COMFORTED

YOU CHOSE TO BECOME A MONSTER INSTEAD

With the even more fucked up is I’m $135 now in the hole and rent and no nothing in sight for tomorrow bringing me all the way down one more fucking time and doing nothing about it. You men are some fucking heartless ass son of a bitches That’s what I feel that’s what I’ve goneThrough and that’s what you have shown me is that you don’t literally give a flying fuck about a human life but everybody wants to scream about everything else I’m the only bitch that seems to be left out about any kind of rights lives matter or anything

JUST ME I DONT MATTER

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